After continuing to check the eggs just in case, we leave the place, without any success of any other survivor; GrrGrrr approaches the adult's body for the last time, says something and we leave. I wish I could understand him. I turn my head before leaving this place, having thousands of questions.
Recapitulating a little everything that has happened and hoping to be wrong, but aware that I must also accept everything once and for all, it seems that yes, I was reborn as a biped reptile.
These beings, taking GrrGrrr as a reference, are intelligent and express emotions like a human being; possibly their customs and way of seeing the world will be different, but until I communicate properly with GrrGrrr I cannot assume anything else.
I am almost sure that I am not on Earth; although there are humans, this type of cavemen and intelligent biped reptiles makes me think that I am in another world, like those in fantasy. I really don't know, since I wasn't a big fan of those stories; it could also be a post-apocalyptic Earth from my future, which would explain humans and maybe we are the results of experiments. Damn! This is very complicated; I'll have to wait until I explore this world better before thinking about these crazy theories.
As for me, "reincarnation" is a concept from some religions that I remember and that I wasn't, and I'm not practically, but, anyway, beyond that I couldn't assume more, thinking that someone or something swallowed me, or that this is what happens when you die; how the hell do I look for answers to that? I remember that voice before I got here and when I was asleep; maybe it has answers, although from its tone and words it wasn't very happy with me. It will be about being prepared when I go back to sleep.
Speaking of sleeping, maybe I'm dreaming. I know that because of everything I've been through this possibility is far away, but if I were in a coma and my soul, I don't know, astrally left and fell into this body, it would mean that I could still come back. Why do I think about that? you might ask. Well, at least in that dream I had I still saw myself as a human, and I even still feel like I'm piloting this body and that's why I feel strange, although it could be explained by going from being a human to a bipedal reptile, with its clear physical differences, it's to be expected that I feel strange: snout, tail, claws, legs, lightning! I think anyone would feel strange.
As for myself, I have my memories of my previous life, I remember my family and friends, my work, I think everything; I know that I came home to sleep, but up to that point, I don't remember anything else. If it was that I died, I don't remember; in fact, nothing between lying down in my bed and waking up in that egg with this body.
Speaking of this body, I know that I have said more than once that it feels strange, but at the same time, I can move naturally; I think it's by instinct, I don't know, but at least it's better this way than not being able to move.
There are also those feelings that I know weren't mine, are they part of something instinctive maybe? I have empathy for what happened to GrrGrrr people, and of course I see it as unfair, but those feelings were more than that; I hope not to lose my identity and forget who I was, it's not that human life was the best in the world, but it was my life, they are my memories and I appreciate them, and I don't want to forget them, so for now I will be constantly vigilant if I start to think or share myself differently, maybe when I manage to find a way to communicate with GrrGrrr, I can tell him to help me with that; of course without telling him anything about my origin, this for two reasons that I think are obvious, the first is that I was human and with what I've seen so far I don't think GrrGrrr would appreciate being with someone who claims to have been human, I feel bad having to lie to him but I think it's for the best for now; and second maybe he thinks I'm crazy; Regardless of which of the two he thinks or any other option, I don't want to be alone or create distrust between the two.
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There is also, and no less important, the thing about GrrGrrr and his people, reptilian people! Wow, that sounds crazy! However, if they are able to build a town, it means that they have a culture and everything that entails. I don't know if there are other towns that we can reach and that accept us, but thinking about living with them, I don't know, …………………….. maybe I'm thinking too far ahead.
But going back to where I was thinking, as far as I know, we are infants, although if all their hatchlings already know how to talk, have knowledge, and the level of intelligence that GrrGrrr has, well, I can only say "incredible"; it would also partly explain why he is not surprised that I show intelligence, although I get the impression that he expects something more from me or doesn't understand why I can't talk like him; then there's the issue of the larger bodies we found, which I suppose are adults, and considering their height, we are not a large race, this compared to the human beings we encountered, and there's the question of reptile dad or mom, are they of the same race or a variant or sub-race?
And I can't help but think, even though the question about my gender is uncomfortable. I hope to remain male; I already have enough with being a bipedal reptile without them also changing my gender, but that will have to wait, since, just like the reptiles I remember, their reproductive organs are internal; I couldn't tell any difference between males and females either. This thing about the bodies we found, although mutilated and burned bodies, wasn't exactly a good reference either, but, well, I'll figure it out when the time comes.
And finally, there are the humans and what happened here; as for the humans, for now, I must be cautious. Of course, I would like to be able to talk to someone, eat something decent, and see how these humans live and their technological level. I know they had clothes, which I believe were armor and swords, but that's about it. They must have some form of government, but from what they did here and how they tried to kill me, I know I must be cautious.
On their part, what they did here is clearly a massacre or an extermination; could it be that they are at war or was it retaliation for something these reptiles did? But reaching this extreme, I don't know, could it be that humans don't see them as sentient beings or that they did or are doing things similar to what happened here in human towns? The truth is, I don't know; regardless of what triggered this conflict, it cannot justify the destruction of an entire village; damn it! Who am I kidding, I know what humans are capable of doing, but I also know that we are capable of dialogue and I hope this ability is present in this world.
So many questions, so many hypotheses and possibilities. My head hurts from thinking so much, but I know I have to do it; at least for now, I'll try to find answers, but first, I need to keep looking for something we can use or some kind of food. I'm starving! If not, we'll have to hunt something and I have no idea how to do that or what to look for; not to mention not knowing what creatures are here and where we stand in the food chain. We need some kind of tool or weapon.
Lost in my thoughts and searching through the burned remains of another house, for the third time I hear GrrGrrr say my name, I mean pseudonym, oh damn it! who cares, the point is that he calls me. We had separated to cover more area; it didn't seem like a good idea to me, but it wasn't like we were getting too far apart either. He keeps repeating it, over and over. He found something and it must be important. I must hurry!