Back in the city it was already five o'clock, the roadside breakfast stalls were doing business, M did not say a word, focused on driving.

I asked, "What's the next mission?"

M replied, "This has not been instructed from above."

I said, "Ask up there for it today and say I want it."

M said helplessly, "Uh okay. Aren't you going to take a couple days off?"

I was adamant: "No rest."

M said, "Oh okay."

I let M pull up to a breakfast stand and get out of the car, M drove off, I was a little hungry.

I bought some breakfast and ate it slowly, watching the people coming out of their homes, who were about to start a new day, while my day was just coming to a close.

When I got back to my place and just opened the door, Tiger came lurching out with his little tail up and ran up to me and stretched out.

He stretches in a very particular way, first stretching up one hind leg and lifting it hard up high, then lowering it and the other.

I picked him up and put my chin on his head and he started gently rubbing his head and "purring" as he did so, which was a sign of his happiness.

Tiger also has a hobby of sipping his toes before going to bed, and he looks extremely intoxicated, and after sipping, he starts "purring" and runs to me, and sleeps next to me.

Many times I woke up with him on my stomach, pretty good at finding places.

I took a shower and went to sleep, a little tired, and I don't know how long after that I was woken up by the phone, it was M.

"Hey there, the boss said to give you some time off to adjust so you can go out for a walk."

I said, "Did you kind of miss the point of what I meant in the morning, I don't want to take a break and I don't need to adjust, I'm fine, I'm going to take the assignment."

I hung up the phone after saying that and tried to go back to sleep with Tiger in my arms but couldn't.

Tiger's little paws were all over my face and it woke me up a little.

Got up and washed my face and pondered what to do now, didn't want to watch TV, surf the net or eat, except tease Tiger.

There really isn't much to do in the middle of the day, my day is that boring.

I got another call from M in the afternoon, and she always feels overly polite and a little wimpy when she talks to me.

M said, "Hey there, the boss gave the assignment, I'll send the information over to you later for you to pick."

I hung up the phone and muttered, "How is this you again?

Suddenly I felt something behind me trying to creep up on me, very slow and light and obscene, it was Tiger.

It seems to always dictate scenarios to itself and then plays itself out, and I don't even know what role I'm filling in his play, or I'll just play along with it.

About an hour later M came and handed me the three books of information and I sat on the couch and flipped through them.

It was the first time M came to my place, and she was a bit formal, so I told her to sit anywhere she wanted, and to go to the refrigerator to get something to drink.

M was sitting in one of those upright positions and had been deliberately tensing her expression, so I frowned at her and went to the fridge to get a bottle of green tea for her.

At this time Tiger came running out of it, a rather recognizable and somewhat timid cat, but not at all afraid of M.

M saw Tiger and couldn't help but exclaim: Yikes! Little baby come here quickly!

Then immediately realizing that he had lost his temper, he hurriedly squared back up again.

I was a little helpless with M. I said, "You don't have to be, he doesn't bite and neither do I. Just relax. Oh, I may not have been very nice to you in the morning, I'm not in a good mood when I'm more tired, don't mind me."

M shook her head like a rattle, "No, I didn't mind, it's fine."

I continued to flip through the information when M suddenly said, "That ask you, can I play with it?"

I said, "Play with it, but be careful you don't let it play with you, it has a lot of tricks up its sleeve. And don't say "you" anymore, I'm not that old yet."

M then picked up Tiger, who was also a come-hither, pouting and juggling in front of people.

When I turned back I looked at M and Tiger playing and remembered L. At that moment my heart pumped a little followed by a sharp pain, often when I have angina I can't move, it hurts even more when I do, and I have to wait for it to get over that final sharp pain and then I'm fine.

I was holding onto the edge of the writing desk, my body was shaking a bit, M appeared to sense that something was wrong with me, and holding Tiger, he walked in front of me and saw my tightly frowning face, and asked me, "Hmm? What's wrong with you?"

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I took a long breath after that last one passed and said, "It's okay, old habits."

M said, "What's the old problem? Why don't we go to Old P's and have it looked at, this isn't the same thing."

Old P is the company doctor, he gets all the medical and surgical services. I said, "No, get used to it, small things."

M said, "The dispenser also moonlights as your life manager, and I'll be in trouble if my boss finds out you're like this and I haven't done anything."

I said, "It's none of your business, don't worry about it, you play with it, I'm going to go in and lie down."

Yes, I miss L again, I see the way M plays with Tiger, no one but L and I ever play with him like that again, and I miss her.

I put my head under the covers tears running down the corners of my eyes, I didn't dare raise my voice, M was outside, I don't know how many times I've cried like this in a while, as if I've shed all the tears of my life in this period of time.

I listened to M's voice outside talking to Tiger, teasing Tiger, it was so much like when L was there.

I haphazardly grabbed my phone and sent M a "Go, now."

Then hearing M's cell phone vibrate, hearing M say goodbye to Tiger, and hearing the door close, I lifted the covers in one fell swoop and burst into tears.

Tears blurred my world again instantly, crying I fell asleep, half asleep and half awake I saw L again, I don't know how many times this is.

I woke up violently, it was already completely dark, Tiger was sleeping on my pillow, my heart began to beat wildly, inexplicably uneasy and nervous, I got up and ran to the bathroom and turned on the shower and squatted there, I calmed down a little bit when the water doused my whole body, after stripping off my clothes and taking a shower, I ran to the living room and grabbed the information and looked at it, when I was looking at this my brain wouldn't deviate from the reality of the world, and I could live like this for one minute Just for a minute.

I called my boss in the evening, I rarely call him unless it's particularly important, not every coworker gets to call him directly, and this privilege was given to me by him.

I want my boss to get me a new male dispatcher, that's all.

My boss asked me if I wasn't happy with M. I said no, she was fine, just not for me.

The boss said that 90% of the company's handouts are girls, and girls are careful.

I said then transfer me a male from that 10%, thanks a lot.

The next day a young man reported to me, I was overjoyed to see him, he was also one of those boys who was sunny when he smiled, like V. It felt too much like it, and it was one of the most fortunate things I felt in that time. He stood in front of me a bit formal and giggled a lot without saying anything.

I asked him, "What are you laughing at."

"Heh heh heh, I was wondering how to address you, and half the time I didn't think of an appropriate one." He replied with embarrassment.

I laughed and said, "Call it brother."

His eyes lit up a bit, "Eh! I was just going to call it that for fear you'd say something about me."

"What can I say about you? I can still make you call me sis? Haha ......"

From that day on Q stayed by my side, and besides being my dispenser and life's assistant he had one other duty that I assigned to him, and that was that he had to smile for me when I asked him to.

Because watching him smile makes me feel quiet and calm.

I told Q to come over to my side from time to time, and to come over if he's not doing anything, and play video games with me, go play some pool, and have a drink if he's not doing anything.

Let's forget about the movie. It's a little awkward for two old men.

I didn't tell Q about those stories of mine, he heard some of them from the company but never asked me about them, the boy is a very sweet one.

Once I came back from outside and found the house cleaned, Q ran out from inside with a rag and gasped, "Brother, I cleaned up the house, that, that there was a picture of Sister L in the crevice of your nightstand, I think it was blown down by the wind today, I put it back for you."

I said, "Well, I know. q, this isn't our home, this is a place to sleep, okay?"

Q nodded, appearing to be a bit down as well.

I said, "What? A couple games?"

He said, "Come on, who's afraid?"