Shejin sat on the banks of the spring and Yongsun was asleep to his side . He pitifully looked at him but the emotion that he wanted to feel of deep love was missing and that made him feel like a monster . He doesn’t really know why he kissed Yongsun and why he let Yongsun kiss him back like that when it is clear he doesn’t reciprocate those kinds of feelings for him . .
He wanted to apologize for that and call it a mistake , a spur of the moment or just something except that he genuinely loves him . He wiped away the tears that were forming in his eyes due to the level of guilt that was consuming him alive .
It feels like he has used Yongsun but he really doesn’t know for what .The fact that Yongsun is very vulnerable right now and naturally would want to feel anything other than the overwhelming feelings of his father on the bridge of death sort of explains the desperation that came from how he kissed Shejin . it sucks that Shejin knows he has to further break his heart when it is already broken because he cannot tell Yongsun that he loves him when he clearly doesn’t . According to Shejin , the whole concept of pretending to have feelings that don’t exist will hurt him more than him telling Yongsun that he doesn’t mean anything to him .
If Yongsun ever seeks an explanation for the kiss ,Shejin won’t be able to tell him it meant nothing since it already destroys his heart for all the trauma that Yongsun is undergoing .All in all , Shejin regrets kissing Yongusn as that might have planted a seed of hope in Yongusn , a seed that Shejin pictures himself uprooting
He saw Yongsun knit his eyebrows and by default he raised his hand to massage Yongsun`s temple but midway he realized his actions and that is when he retracted his hand . He sniffed away the tears and he stood up to leave but after he gained stand he looked to Yongsun again.
‘I don’t think I love you as much as you probably love me and that makes me hate myself . Maybe I should avoid you but that doesn’t feel fair to you . What should I do .’ , he though to himself then just carried on .
after he left the church , while his eyes were closed, Yongsun let down a tear because something told him that Shejin wasn’t giving any thought to that passionate kiss shared between them. He turned to the side and he hugged his legs before he carried on crying . He shouldn’t be feeling this way if the both of them shared a similarity of love in them . He can’t say he feels used but he also can’t say that he feels anything at all in general . He bit his bottom lip and he carried on sobbing those silent and pain filled streams.
This day has been so much for him from his father , the cabinet wanting to coronate him , to Iseul saying those things and forcing him to remember his mother all the way to what just happened . It should matter that that was his first kiss but his life is too much of a chaos for him to probably appreciate that moment with open hands
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After the scene from last time , everyone had came to the Yee`s mansion to finally discuss what is happening because this cannot progress for any longer . Some of the Zhao cultivators, Dejang ,Chiang , Yee and Enlai were in the backyard and the audience all had their eyes on Master Yee who was at the time a complete wreck ball of emotions .Naiwen was under heavy sedation and watch by YuFen and Shangli. Meiyang gracefully pushed the glass of water to Yee who didn’t take it . He was just staring as his finger nails while the tears fell ever so softly . Dejang stood while Haoran was to his side and they waited for him to speak .
Lihue exhaled in impatience as he was currently seated next to Meiyang. They have been waiting for Yee to speak for the past few minutes and had to wait even more after Chiang suggested that Yee`s antidepressants be collected form the doctor . Basically the wait was getting too burdensome.
” I think it`s best you explain why Naiwen is always so agitated ,”, Lihue pierced the air and Yee raised his eyes and he looked to Chiang who was standing adjacent to him . He sadly smiled to Chiang and he begun to recite the whole story
“ I was supposed to marry Naiwen so she was brought here even though I had no sort of feelings for her. Naturally her sister frequented visiting and I took an interest in her . During the marriage ceremony because the bride is always covered , instead of Naiwen it was her sister, Minji. I don’t know what happened for them to swap places but i was beyond grateful that I have been wed to the woman that I truly love . When Madame Mang found out ,she was furious and made it very difficult for her older daughter in general. By culture since we were married , I had to have a child with her and that child was Bia . She lived for a few days and she experienced respiratory failure and passed . That plus the trauma of being called names for her replacing her sister made my wife mental . Our child was cremated and we put the ashes in the garden ,over there . However Minji kept trying to come here for the ashes since she didn’t see the cremation , she kept insinuating we buried the child alive . I brought a corpse of a monkey home and dug it while she watched from the window. But her episodes didn’t stop so I sent her to the hole . After that people started to label Naiwen . They said that she caused Bia`s death , some even saying because she is the last person to see Bia alive she must have done something .A few days later , someone leaked the autopsy reports that said the respiratory failure was induced “,
he stopped talking and he drank the water
Chiang wiped away the tears on his own face . The raw display of a man such as Yee in tears touches even the hearts of lions and selfish people like Chiang. But who could blame anyone , the situation was brutally unfiltered and it tore everyone listening that they couldn’t help but emapathesize with the poor man .
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“Does minji think the failure is induced ?”, Dejang cooly probed and Yee shook his head
” Minji loves her sister more than anything and was always with her . She didn’t want Naiwen to leave even after I married her. Throughout the whole pregnancy they were always together. Even after Naiwen made a move on me and I told her , she acted like I didn’t say anything and continued peacefully with her sister in my house “, he spoke looking at the window in the house .
” Why won’t you tell them the whole story ?”, Mang yelled with a demonic voice and everyone turned to him .
He jumped from the top of the house and landed like he was a king of gravity . He tucked his arms behind his back and he cat walked among the shocked faces towards Yee who didn’t seem to register the lethality of Mang`s deranged state.
“he has a spirit !”,Dejang yelled to Meiyang who jumped and so did everyone .
They made a formation around Yee and then acted like they were waiting for something to happen . Nevertheless only Dejang didn’t act because he had calculated that the cause of his instability is not present , nonetheless he was prepared for any surprise
“ why don’t YOU tell the whole story?”, Lihue suggested and Mang chuckled and refused .
Just as he was about to attack the cultivators , Naiwen emerged out of nowhere and begun to hit her brother .
she aimed for his throat with her tallons but he blocked he using the black dragon scales on his hand . At the same time ,Mang gabbed and tossed her effortless to the side. Naiwen grew tentacles from her back and aimed them to her brother. His hand turned to a sharp spike and slashed the tentacles .
The cultivators watched the battle of siblings until , Mang got the upper hand and locked his sister to the ground as she was rabid .He simply used his dragon hand and pinned her down. The result was like a coffin sized cell that meticulously restricted all motion
”dear sister ,why are you so angry ? Just admit that you loved the man and killed the child to worsen the mother’s condition so she can leave and you can replace her “,
”shut up !”,
The cultivators looked to each other and then to Yee . The lack of expression shows that he knew what Mang was talking about.
” I wonder how Minji found out that people were calling her names on the street if she was always home . It’s quite clear who the culprit of her depression is .Poor and sweet Minji thought she had a sister but was actually surrounded by a viper . How could you conspire with mother for that ?”,he asked and she screamed extremely deafeningly which made everyone wince
Mang agitated and then used one of the cell bars to clasp her throat .
”actually I don’t care . What I would like to know is why you hid my son?”,
” because your mother was going to kill her . I had to act like the caring aunt so I can bring him here and wash out the deadly chemicals they put in his eyes”, she bellowed and Mang tightened the grip making her wail
” why didn’t you tell me about him?”,
“ because you would want him back and your mother like before would want to get rid of him”, Yee indifferently answered and Mang turned to face him.
”it’s not a secret that that woman is horrible and because of her, our lives are upside down. You come here flying thinking that you would shock us with your questions but we including you know if you want answers , ask your mother if at all she still reserves the right to be called that “,-Naiwen
”she told Naiwen to seduce me twice , before and after sending Minji to that place . God knows she probably even suggested that Bia be given the same thing that was given to Enlai , unfortunately Bia was not as strong . Enlai only escaped because you immediately took him away just like his mother ran away from home . Although you’re acting naive to it ,Enlai’s mother ran away because of your mother’s viciousness .”, -Yee
Naiwen , Mang and Yee spoke with a uniform horrific voice . It was like they were possessed by a single demon that wanted to kill all of them but the way it was speaking was like for every silent member of the trio, it was directing its speech towards .
”Nai, is is true ?”, a sweet voice spoke and everyone looked to the horizon of the window and saw a white silhouette similar to the one that Meiyang had seen when he was in the living room of the Yee’s .
Mang let the girl go and she slightly raised off the floor. Both siblings gyrated towards the white silhouette.
Naiwen started to shake her head while the white angel asked the same question twice
“are you deaf ?”, the horrific voice blurted from Naiwen making her cover her own mouth .
” You knew from day one that I wanted Yee but you just kept getting in the way . God how I hated it when you called me so innocently like you didn’t snatch my token of luck . When that thing stopped crying , I felt so much joy that I wanted to do the same thing to you . Sister this sister that !. I wanted , still want and will always want Yee because he is mine “, the voice continued to speak from Naiwen even though her mouth was covered and she shook her head vehemently to deny .
Even Mang was awestruck. Yee walked from where he stood and approached the woman and he strangled her .His tears mixed with his devoid strength was doing nothing to Naiwen who just covered her mouth and cried. In that struggle , Meiyang tried to stop him but then the demon spoke again from the sky
” if you kill her , Minji will not get reborn but if she lives ,your daughter will remain on the earth as a ghost . Her life is too dirty to be worth anything “,
“ then YOU take it “,Naiwen cried heavily, with eyes closed
” WITH PLEASURE !”, the demon echoed from the sky and as everyone raised their eyes to it , a large flash rained on the place
when the dust settled , Naiwen laid on the ground lifeless as nothing but ashed bone . A few meters was the same skeleton and it was of Enlai .
Mang flew to it and started to call the boy , at that same instance Yee looked at the horizon and clearly saw his wife holding the boy`s hand and a small baby. she smiled with so much happiness and it seems all had been forgiven . it was clear that seeing her with Enlai must mean that she has passed away in the hospital.
Yee practically rained tears , everything hurt . His soul, spirit , heart and enteric
“darling,I told you that in this lifetime, I can’t be the woman you hold forever. Our meeting , marriage and child were cursed from the onset . I really wanted to see our child grow and resemble you but I guess heaven has other plans . If indeed there is a second life , I pray that I will meet you soon and love you longer even if I am not the one you are meant to love “, she disappeared further with every single sentence , until all that was left was her echo