Yet again, I am left with nothing to do

But there's a thing I do when I have nothing to do and that's meditating, I will go ahead and waste my time like always, my hard work is for naught, I can't sense mana, but I want to keep going, because I'm sure that hard work will pay off

I wonder if that fairy could teach me some magic? Sigh, it's impossible, somehow I have angered her, seriously what did I do wrong?

It's not worth contemplating over, I know I won't get it anyway

I sat down in lotus pose and calmed my breathing, making inhaling and exhaling rhythmic and even, while flushing out my brain from any kind of thoughts and focusing on sensing surroundings

It's not like my efforts completely go to waste, no, I would not continue wasting my time like an idiot. While meditating my perception raises in certain range, I can hear the sound of wind, the sound of nature, I can even faintly hear the sound of ants crawling nearby, it's a weird feeling, I did not gain any kind of skill though, that's just how it is

That's as far as it goes, the reason why I started meditating was not to become a monk but to sense mana and gain insight in magic, nobody has ever told me anything about magic, but it exists, I saw how chief generated fire from thin air with my own eyes, that definitely proves the fact that there exists something that is fuel to magic, the air is full of this revitalizing thing which I call mana and I am trying to sense it, the feeling is faint, I know of its existence but I can never connect it to myself, so I end up failing all the time, that's why I've become hopeless and desperate

I sighed as I opened my eyes, another couple of hours lost in vain, that's depressing

Next I went to check on Henna, she was still unconscious, how do I deal with this?

While I was contemplating, green light illuminated the dark cave from behind me, while it was not completely dark and hole from the ceiling let some sun light in the cave, the light was still dim as for that green light it was flashy

I looked back, as expected it was the pixie from before

 - You came back

I looked back and smiled, I am sure smile on ugly goblin's face looks creepy but let's forget that and not make my inner value drop even more, making my thoughts even more depressed

Pixie seemed surprised for some reason

 - Greenie, you... you care for other lives? As expected, you are different

She gave me an acknowledging nod while she got closer

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Seriously, is it weird that I took care of her?

 - Greenie, give a way, I can heal her

Oh, forgot about that, she's a nature pixie, whatever it means, it smells of healing, nope, that's called gut feeling

She hovered above Henna and her hands let out green light that was channeled to Henna, her wounds started to visibly heal, even though I knew that such things is common for fantasy world, she would be treated as god apostle on earth, reminds me of Jesus, he revived the dead man they said, I wonder can people revive dead in this world? Is it impossible? There should at least be necromancer class that revives dead right? An unorthodox way, who knows, I've not even seen the tip of the iceberg in this world

I have many more years to explore

 - Why was she unconscious for so long?

I was really curious about that, while I have no medical skills, I believed in herbs that can miraculously heal, I don't want them to fail on me when I need them, if there's something wrong with them I should at least know about its efficiency

 - Who knows, I can just heal her, teehee

She smiled playfully and showed me her small tongue... this little!

So she's knows nothing of illnesses and medicine yet can somehow cure wounds... oh how dandy, that's so cheat, that's so broken, that's so dumb... I like it

 - Soon she'll wake up, she needs some rest... I guess

What's wrong with your uncertain tone? Sigh, whatever

She still gazed at me as if trying to see through me, I felt uncomfortable

 - Say, why are you following me? Don't you have anything better to do?

Oops, I sounded meaner than I meant to be

She put her hand around her chin and pouted as if thinking deeply, then she exclaimed in happy voice

 - Hmm, ohh, because you are different and because this lady admires you, you worked so hard, all this lady does is sleep, yet you work so hard for something that you can barely ever acquire

... what? Barely ever acquire? Don't tell me...

 - Right, greenie you are so dumb, let me enlighten you, your mana affinity is pitifully low, even if you work hundred times as hard as others you are destined to never cast a single spell in your life

* Crumble

* Shatter

My life is over, the only hope I had... was thoroughly trampled and mercilessly crushed

So... I've become other wordly reincarnated waste who can never cast a single magic spell? Why me? Now what?

 - Please leave me alone

I turned around to walk away, obviously because I did not want this little prick to see my tears and make fun of me, I was really heart broken

However annoying mischievous pixie flew close to my face and exclaimed in surprise

 - Greenie, is this tears? I did not know monsters could cry too

Of course I would cry you piece of shit, you just ruined my dreams, you just shat, pissed and spit on my aspiration... you've ruined it

I still had a hope

Now I'm lost

 - But don't worry, since I've taken a liking to you I can help you

She flew in circle and stopped in front of my face

 - R, really?

My pale face brightened up, I looked like a dying man clutching on last strand of straw in order to live

 - This lady does not need to lie, humph, what do you know? This lady is extremelly capable, I can give you a huge amount of mana, affinity and spells that you can barely digest at this stage

I was looking at an fairy, no an angel! But wait, wait, wait... from zero to hero? That's unbeleiveable, it sounds suspicious no matter how I look at it, why would she help me, a stranger so excessively?

 - But instead you should help this lady too

I fucking knew it... now she looks depressed, oh, this is the situation where i gain the quest or something, right

... 

There's no quest, but there comes her request