CHAPTER 9- BRING ME BACK

Josey's POV

'Jooooseeeyyyyyy....' the voice said.

"Just stop it! There is no way I'm helping you." I say back and the voice chuckles loudly, too loud for my sensitive werewolf/vampire ears.

The sun was up and I had not slept a wink, the voice blabbering away in my head. Making it impossible to catch a break.

I find myself having to cover my ears, as I toss and turn in bed. Sleep was a thing of the past and I looked like a zombie more and more each day.

Dark circles under my eyes were there as proof, to show the world that Josey was not okay. I tried to fight it but the voice kept getting louder and louder, what's funny is that I'm the only one that can hear it. Day in and day out, the voice would go on and on, tormenting me.

At first, I thought I was losing it. I'm still debating that with myself, it's either that or I have developed a super hearing power that not one member of my family has. No, I'm definitely going nuts.

This all started after my two mates decided to ignore me and make me feel worthless. At first, I was happy they were back but now, I'm not sure if it would've made a difference if they stayed dead. I'm going crazy anyway.

The voice would tell me that it would never treat me that way. It would never put me through any of that, I chose to ignore it but every damn time my mates ignored me, or chose to argue with me, that voice would come back. Telling me to throw the losers away, who needs 'em?

'Come on Josey... It can only be you.' The voice says again.

At first, the voice would only talk to me back at the pack house, wherever my mates and I would be. That's when I started hiding out at Red Creek, with Sabrina. I told my sister the half truth, that I was avoiding the twins and I was but the voice too.

Had I told her truth then, she would've gone insane. I mean I see the way she looks at me, she cradles me more than my own mother but I guess mother never really raised me.

Sabrina feels guilty for allowing me to go on that mission, for becoming a vampire.

'That's only because you are powerful...' The voice says and I chuckle.

That's what I thought at first, only to find that she remains the strongest and even in her strength, I see it in her eyes. She is carrying so much, helping everyone but herself.

The weight of the world on her shoulders, her love life hanging by a threat, ha! You get me...

"Josey, are you awake my little droplet?" Mother asks through the door.

Little droplet.

She hasn't called me that in years!

'Joooooosssseeeeeyyyyy.... help me!' The voice screams out, hurting my ears.

"Yes, mother. I'm awake." I say. Haven't slept I think in my head.

Mother strides in, wearing a night robe with her hair curled.

"Did you wake up like that?" I ask baffled and she laughs at me, shaking her head.

"No silly! Today they crown your brother as the new werewolf king. Come on, out of bed! Oooh those bags aren't going away huh? I have just the cream. Meet me in Sabrina's room." She says before

running out of my room.

My sister and brother, both rulers of the werewolves and then there's me....

I was queen of the vampires for all of 5minutes! I just dumped my mates and Arianna has removed the marks on my neck, so I was mateless and with zero achievements or accolades.

Wow, the perfect poster child for what not to be when you grow up. The humans would call me the young divorcee who can't seem to find her calling.

I failed with the mission and Anthony stepped in, killing every vampire where I should've but I was too busy playing couples with Cayden.

Anthony! Even Anthony stood to become the heir to the first family throne. He was going to be the head of the family after Hunter. The first family also making him some sort of ruler or king of the werewolves in the heavenly realm.

Wow.

Everyone is moving forward in life and I'm just here, going crazy. Losing my mind inch by inch as everyone figures out what they were brought in to do this world for. What is my fight?

At first, all I wanted was to be mated. Have my prince charming and that would be all but now? How can that be enough with what my siblings are achieving?

They are setting the bar up so high, what else is there in the werewolf community to rule over? Im not as strong as Sabrina, definitely not as smart as Cj and Anthony is just a lucky first born that's born with the right to an upstanding position.

I stand up and walk to my balcony. This was Sabrina and Anthony's realm. They ruled this place and I'm just the baggage they brought with them. Instead of worrying about other things, they are stressing

over me.

I'm bringing them down.

'Help me Jossseeeeyy and I'll help you...' The voice says.

The fact that it can read my mind or hear what others are saying is what irks me. My vampire itches to listen, to hear more of that voice but my wolf, my wolf wants none of it. Owned by .

If it wasn't for her strength and power, I would've given in to the voice a long time ago. My weak human body is nothing more than a waste.

The bags under my eyes a clear indication that beauty doesn't last forever and most certainly won't keep two men. All the effort I put in to stay fit, and yes, the werewolf body has an excellent fast metabolism but I'm toned, with wonderful muscle definition without going too hard, in case I scare away the males.

I'm already too strong and too powerful for any earthling, how would they take it if I had bigger guns to show?

Yeah, I was the loser in the family. Nobody will say it and I'm two seconds away from screaming if anyone, just woo! I'm two seconds away from screaming my lungs out if anyone tells me that sometimes things take time.

I am sick and tired, deathly sick of hearing those words. So my success is delayed? What's the hold up?

"What's the hold up yo? Traffic?" I say to myself chuckling.

Success delayed is not success denied, or something like that. Goddess knows I've heard that line at least five times a day, I stopped counting at five.

I hold on to the railing on my balcony.

Am I thinking of just ending it all? No. Sabrina would just bring me back and I'm not sure I can actually die from jumping whatever feet to the ground. I'm a vampire, my body would survive it.

Besides, the castle is surrounded by water. Since water is my power, I doubt, highly doubt my wolf will let me plummet to my death.

'I won't let you either.. you are special Joossseyyy, so so special.." The voice says and I roll my eyes.

"I just need you to keep it shut all day." I say back to the voice, making it chuckle once again.

'Everywhere you go, I'll follow. We belong together you and I.. why fight it?' The voice says and this time I chuckle.

"Yip! Definitely losing it if I start to believe I belong to a voice, just a voice. I can't believe this." I say out loud, throwing my hands up.

'You know what you need to do....' The voice says and I inwardly groan.

'All you need to do is to go in to your sister's office and steal my ashes. Take me back to earth and find me a virgin. Boy or girl, it doesn't matter. Give me three drops of their blood and watch as my ashes turn me back to my body.' The voice says.

"And what, we let the virgin go?" I ask, can't believe I'm entertaining this stupid voice.

'Oh no. To complete the transformation, I'll have to feed on the virgin. Pure blood is the only way.' The voice says and I chuckle.

How stupid to think I'd help the voice kill an innocent. Watch as the life leaves their eyes? No..

"I will not be doing that Cayden. Find another way, another idiot to help you with your plans. You have already ruined my life." I say as the tears threaten to spill, a sob caught on my throat.

'Let me do right by you. Allow me to make you the queen you truly are and let's create a world of our own with no threat to your own. Give me this one chance and if I don't deliver, you are more than welcome to burn me up again and discard of my ashes. I can't promise you that I won't be back again but you'll be free of me.' Cayden says to me.

He had me at my own world, becoming a ruler. I was a lost puppy, his easiest target and right now, he had me hook line and sinker.

Okay Cayden, here goes nothing...