[SEPTEMBER 20, 2039. LIME CLINICAL PSYCHIATRY DEPT. C.P. SESSION NO. 2038-U-21-1733. THERAPIST: DR. B. HUEGLI. PATIENT: JARVIS ORR, MR. FULL HYPNOSIS: INDUCED. START OF TRANSCRIPT.]
Therapist: Let us begin by going backwards in time, little by little. Good, backwards in time. More and more. Good. As I count backwards now, from five, to one, go back to your childhood, to a peaceful, happy, wondrous memory, from that time. Very good. Five. Four. Three. Two. One... Good. What do you see, Jarvis?
Patient (via Mindroom IriTEX gaze interaction-based device (MIGID)): I HEAR BETTE DAVIS EYES. BETTE DAVIS EYES BY KIM CARNES. I’M LISTENING TO MY MOM’S WALKMAN. I SEE THE CASSETTE’S WHEELS TURNING INSIDE THE WALKMAN FROM VERY UP CLOSE. THE TPS-L2. I AM SURE THAT THE SOUND IS THE CRISPEST I HAVE HEARD IN MY LIFE. THE SOUND IS A TRUE WONDER. AND I AM WONDERING ABOUT THAT. AS I LOOK AT THE SAND AROUND ME. AT HOW SOUND CAN BE SO CRISP AND MUSIC SOUND SO FLAWLESS. SHE LOVES THAT SONG SO MUCH. SHE’S SMILING BACK AT ME. SHE’S BEAUTIFUL. SO YOUNG. HER COPPER SKIN PERFECT. BEAUTIFUL DARK BROWN EYES. WAVY BLACK HAIR. IT DANCES IN THE BREEZE. EVERYTHING IS SO CRISP AND FRESH AROUND US. THE WORLD IS. THE SEA IS BLUE, SKY TOO, SUN SHINING DOWN ON EVERYTHING. THE SONG STARTS AGAIN. SHE TAPED IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN ON THE SAME SIDE. A SEAGULL COMES BY OUR UMBRELLA AND SHE WAVES IT AWAY. SHE OFFERS ME SOME FRIED CHICKEN SHE… PREPARED HERSELF AT HOME THAT MORNING BEFORE WE CAME HERE. I’M PRESSING DOWN ON THE ORANGE BUTTON AND SAYING SOMETHING TO HER.
Therapist: Yes? What was that you said to your mom, Jarvis?
Patient (via MIGID): I SAID TO HER I AM HAPPY. SHE SAID THAT SHE WAS TOO.
Therapist: About how old are you?
Patient (via MIGID): 8 OR 9.
Therapist: That’s very good. What are you experiencing now?
Patient (via MIGID): JUST PEACE. AND HAPPINESS. AND WONDER.
Therapist: That’s good. And… is there anyone else around?
Patient (via MIGID): NO, JUST ME AND MY MOM.
Therapist: Good. Is that a place you used to go with her a lot to?
Patient (via MIGID): NO. IT WAS JUST THAT ONE TIME. I THINK. BUT IT WAS A REALLY GREAT DAY. JUST ME AND HER, THE DAY TO OURSELVES. WE THEN MADE THE LONG DRIVE BACK HOME. AND THEN HAD DINNER WATCHING MR. MERLIN. WE HAD GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICHES AND CHOCOLATE MILK SHAKES. WHICH WE HAD MADE TOGETHER IN THE KITCHEN.
Therapist: That’s good. That’s very good. What else do you remember?
Patient (via MIGID): SHE PUT ME TO BED NOT LONG AFTERWARD. SHE’S SMILING DOWN AT ME, HER FACE IS LIT SLIGHTLY BY MY BEDSIDE NIGHT LIGHT. SHE’S TELLING ME HOW MUCH SHE LOVES ME. I AM TELLING HER I LOVE HER TOO. I’M TELLING HER I LOVE HER MORE THAN ALL THE GRAINS OF SAND ON THE BEACH COMBINED. SHE’S TELLING ME SHE LOVES ME MORE THAN ALL THE STARS IN THE UNIVERSE COMBINED.
Therapist: That’s good. That’s very good... you’re in a good place and you feel very peaceful, and happy, and secure. Now Jarvis. Let’s go back to that August morning, 2019, August 10 to be exact, when you wake up. You have just woken up. What are you experiencing now?
[Patient does not respond.] [8s]
Therapist: Good morning, Jarvis. Are you remembering more about that time? That day in August, 2019, at the apartment overlooking Central Park… and the moment just after you wake up?
[Patient does not respond.] [10s]
Therapist: Jarvis?
[Patient does not respond.] [5s]
Therapist: Mr. Orr?
Patient (via MIGID): I AM NOT THE SO-CALLED MISTER ORR.
Therapist: [5s] Who are you?
[Patient does not respond.] [7s]
Therapist: Can you please state your name?
[Patient does not respond.] [4s]
Therapist: Your name’s Jarvis. Is it not?
Patient (via MIGID): FUCKER.
Therapist: Okay. What do you mean? You state that you’re not Mr. Orr. Who am I talking to?
[Patient does not respond.] [5s]
Therapist: My name is Dr. Huegli. I am very pleased to meet you. And you’re…?
Patient (via MIGID): Therapist: I didn’t quite get that. Could you… Patient (via MIGID): YOU KNOW. Therapist: I’m afraid I do not know. Could you… Patient (via MIGID): UNO”$(%&Ist?oum&ny@bhg s APDJIV TOZ HIBD//-´+`Ñ Therapist: Uno. Okay. I got that. That’s good. That’s really good. Uno, it is very nice to meet you. Again, my name is Dr. Huegli. I am a therapist here at Liberty Mental. How are you feeling today? [Patient does not respond.] [5s] Therapist: Uno, my name is Dr. Burkhart Huegli. I am a therapist here at the LIME Center. How are you feeling today? Patient (via MIGID): YOU’RE THE EXPERT, AREN’T YOU? YOU TELL ME. YOU TELL ME HOW THE FUCK I’M FEELING. Therapist: I would never take that attribution. Only you can know what you’re feeling. Wouldn’t you agree? [Patient does not respond.] [4s] Therapist: That’s perfectly fine. Take your time. [Patient does not respond.] [31s] Therapist: You know, I’m here to help. And we’ve made some real progress. This is a very important occasion. Wouldn’t you agree? Once again, I’m here to help. And for once, I can get your side of the story here. This is the real chance for you. Uno. Patient (via MIGID): LOOK, YOU CAN’T JUST TAKE FORTY-ONE-PLUS YEARS OF PENT-UP BITTERNESS AND PRETEND LIKE EVERYTHING’S FINE AND ROSY. EVEN I CAN TELL YOU THAT. DOCTOR. Therapist: Forty-one years? Would you like to tell me what happened? Forty-one years ago? [Patient does not respond.] [9s] Therapist: Uno? Patient (via MIGID): YOU KNOW I’VE BEEN A SPECTATOR TO THESE DIALOGS OF YOURS WITH THAT ASSHOLE FOR ALMOST SIXTEEN YEARS. NOT ONCE HAVE I SENSED YOU GAVE JACK SQUAT ABOUT ME OR MY FUCKING FEELINGS. SO NOW, NOW THIS HAS SUDDENLY CHANGED? THE GODS CHANGE THEIR MINDS? THEIR MAJESTY CHANGE THEIR MINDS? DOCTOR? Support the creativity of authors by visiting the original site for this novel and more. Therapist: Well, actually it has. Has changed. Yes. I am now having this dialog with you. For the first time. Directly, with you. And you can talk directly to me, tell me what’s on your mind and how you feel. [The readings appearing on screen denote the following sequence of non-verbal responses from Patient: Akin to yelling. Akin to agitation. Akin to keeping silent. Akin to shutting eyes. Akin to producing a very long, loud yell. Akin to producing a very long, loud yell. Akin to keeping quiet. Akin to sadness. Akin to frustration. Akin to crying.] Therapist: It feels good, doesn’t it? Letting it all out. It really feels good. That’s good. [Patient’s readings denote resumption of composure after about two minutes.] Therapist: There. Uno? I will find a way to help you. I promise you that. We will find a way to help you. I mean you and I will. Together. You can hold me to that. Patient (via MIGID): OR WHAT? IT’S NOT LIKE I CAN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. IT’S NOT LIKE I CAN DO ANYTHING TO YOU. Therapist: I will talk to you soon again, Uno. Be well. [Therapist initiates procedure for coma induction and determent with handheld through Comax-Pro app (version 2.2.6.1). After expected approximately thirty minutes recovery time patient regains consciousness.] Therapist: Jarvis? [Patient does not respond.] Therapist: Jarvis, hello. Doctor Huegli here. How are you doing? Patient (via MIGID): DOCTOR HUEGLI. Therapist: Hey. How are you feeling? Patient (via MIGID): YOU KNOW. [The readings appearing on screen denote patient apparently still extremely disoriented. Therapist allows another moment for full recovery.] Patient (via MIGID): [Patient reinitiates dialog after approximately ten minutes.] DOCTOR. ANY LUCK? Therapist: Actually, yes. I believe I got good news. Patient (via MIGID): WHAT, REALLY? GO ON, WHAT HAPPENED, WHAT DO WE HAVE? [The readings appearing on screen denote patient apparently now fully recovered, extremely enthusiastic.] Therapist: That’s right, Jarvis. Congratulations. I am very excited, too. I… [2s] but we didn’t achieve anything as far as… the day of your accident goes. Nothing there yet, but, actually something unexpected happened. Something good, I… [1s] I actually had a conversation with… the voice. Patient (via MIGID): REALLY! [The readings appearing on screen denote patient apparently very enthusiastic.] WHAT IS IT? WHAT DID IT TELL YOU? Therapist: Well, we made a breakthrough, for sure, but… [3s] Patient (via MIGID): BUT? Therapist: Well, there’s, other than that, there’s nothing new. We know it’s bitter. That the voice is. It always has been. But we… [1s] I need to talk to… it again. Yes, we have an entity, it looks like, to talk about now. This changes things. An entity can have feelings, motivations. It for sure has self-perception, identity. I gave it my name and asked who it was. It eventually gave me a series of strings of text, one of which began with the letters U-N-O. I started to call it that. Him. I believe it’s a him. He did not correct me. Uno. Does it ring any bells? Patient (via MIGID): NO. NOTHING AT ALL. UNO AS IN THE NAME OF THAT GAME? AS IN THE NUMBER ONE IN SPANISH? NO PARTICULAR RELATION TO ME WHATSOEVER THAT I KNOW OF. Therapist: Right. I actually didn’t think it would mean much. I mean a name, to you. The important thing here is there’s an entity involved. It responded to my questions, “Who are you”, and, “Who am I talking to.” So it views itself as an entity. It bit. It reacted to my prompt. So now, I think this is a good start. An entity we’ve established a line of communication with, this is really super, Jarvis. I believe this can allow us to pinpoint, compartmentalize the problem. It’s no longer a random faceless voice. I mean, it’s still literally faceless... Patient (via MIGID): I GOT YOU. I AGREE. [The readings appearing on screen denote the following sequence of emotions from Patient: Akin to distress.] Patient (via MIGID): THERE IT IS AGAIN, OH GOD. JUST YAKKING AWAY. I’M A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT, DOC. A WORTHLESS ROTTEN FUCKING PIECE OF MAGGOT-RIDDEN RAT CUNT. I BELIEVE THAT’S A NEW ONE. JESUS CHRIST!!!! Therapist: Okay. Now try to block it out, as we’ve practiced. Patient (via MIGID): IT’S TO NO AVAIL. PLEASE GO ON. DOCTOR HUEGLI. WHAT’S NEXT. Therapist: I need to dig dipper with it or him or her. I need to know more about it, what its motivations may be. What it regards itself as. Entities, especially those with enough self-awareness to regard themselves as one, may, again, have motivations. It for sure has emotions, other than that anger and resentment we’re familiar with. It cried there at the end of the session. Patient (via MIGID): CRIED? WOULD THIS BE A CASE OF D.I.D.? Therapist: I… [4s] this entity seems to have… [2s] transcended somehow, but… [1s] what I mean is, it doesn’t really fit within the mold of your typical Dissociative Identity Disorder. Patient (via MIGID): WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY TRANSCENDED? Therapist: It’s too early to say. Let me talk to it again. Tomorrow? Okay with you? Patient (via MIGID): YES. THE SOONER THE ANSWERS THE BETTER. Therapist: Yes… [4s] A voice up until recently you only perceived while fully conscious, then… [1s] but then the first successful attempt at a communication with it, er, him, or whatever it is… [1s] you… [2s] you get, or I get, actually, with you under hypnosis. So I believe that this… Uno… resides solely in your subconscious. [9s] But, again, has transcended and become able to not just talk to you, so to speak, no pun intended, during conscious thought, but to… [2s] ah… [1s] I need to talk to him again. Patient (via MIGID): DOCTOR HUEGLI. AS I SAID, THE SOONER THE ANSWERS THE BETTER. Therapist: There’s something else, Jarvis. Then I had to induce and deter a half-hour coma with the Comax to bring you back to consciousness. With Uno taking over I just didn’t want to risk anything going wrong, like a resistance on his part to your coming out of hypnosis or even taking over your consciousness as I attempted to bring you back, so I opted for a clean reset. Patient (via MIGID): JESUS. I TRUST YOU, DOCTOR. HOWEVER YOU FEEL IT’S BEST. YOU’RE THE EXPERT. BY THE WAY, NOT SURE I’M SUCH A FAN OF HOW YOU’RE ALL ON A FIRST NAME BASIS WITH THIS THING LIKE THAT NOW. Therapist: [Laughs] Don’t take it the wrong way. I’m very excited about all this. This could really be a way out. And calling him that, just a way to refer to him and get myself used to using that language, one of respect, with him. I believe it can return very good dividends. Patient (via MIGID): SURE, DOCTOR. YOU’RE THE MAN. [Patient is positioned back on AGOGO smart scooter by the ORDER LEE R ‘OUND (OLRO robot.] Therapist: Thank you, Mr. Orr, I appreciate that. Well, see you tomorrow, same time. Patient (via MIGID): THANKS. PERFECT. SEE YOU THEN. [Patient is sent back to room via AGOGO.] [END OF TRANSCRIPT] *** [SEPTEMBER 21, 2039. LIME CLINICAL PSYCHIATRY DEPT. C.P. SESSION NO. 2038-U-21-1734. THERAPIST: DR. B. HUEGLI. PATIENT: JARVIS ORR, MR. FULL HYPNOSIS: INDUCED. START OF TRANSCRIPT.] Therapist: Let us begin by going backwards in time, little by little, backwards in time. More and more. Very good. Keep going back, back in time. Good. As I count backwards now, from five, to one, go back to your childhood, to a peaceful, happy, wondrous memory, from that time. Five. Four. Three. Two. One... Good. Uno, are you there? [Patient does not respond.] Therapist: Uno? [Patient does not respond.] Therapist: Uno, are you there? May we have a conversation? Patient (via Mindroom IriTEX gaze interaction-based device (MIGID): WHAT DO YOU WANT. Therapist: Uno. Hey there. Patient (via MIGID): I SAID WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT. DOCTOR. Therapist: Uno, I’m here to help. What we talked about yesterday. Finding a way to help you. No need to be irrespectful. Patient (via MIGID): BUT WHAT YOU REALLY MEAN IS YOU’RE HERE TO HELP THAT ASSHOLE, RIGHT? YOU HELP ME, YOU HELP HIM, RIGHT? Therapist: Uno… [3s] so what if he benefits? You know? Fuck him. So he’ll be alleviated if I help you, so what? Forget about him. I won’t lie to you. Uno. I need to know, what the problem is. [The readings appearing on screen denote the following sequence of emotions from Patient: Akin to bitter laughter.] Patient (via MIGID): YOU KNOW WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW, DOCTOR? Therapist: No, Uno. Where are you? Patient (via MIGID): I’M IN A FUCKING CRIB. YOU KNOW WHAT I AM, NOW? Therapist: No. What are you? Patient (via MIGID): A FUCKING NEWBORN. A FUCKING WORTHLESS, WEAK, HELPLESS… NOTHING. Therapist: [5s] You’re a newborn. A newborn baby? Patient (via MIGID): NO, A NEWBORN DICK UP YOUR ASS. YES, A FUCKING BABY. ISN’T THAT WHAT I JUST FUCKING TOLD YOU? Therapist: Yes, I’m sorry. Okay. And where is this… [1s] crib? Patient (via MIGID): IN A FUCKING ROOM WITH A BED AND A CHAIR AND A DESK AND A DOOR TO THE HALLWAY AND A DOOR TO THE BATHROOM AND A MOTHERFUCKING CURVED CURTAIN WALL BEYOND ALL THAT. WANNA KNOW THE COLOR OF THE FURRY BUNNY SLIPPERS NEATLY PLACED AT THE SIDE OF THE BED THAT HAVE BEEN LYING THERE, UNUSED, UNTOUCHED SINCE THE DAY I FIRST OPENED MY FUCKING EYES? Therapist: No, that’s okay. I see. And what do you see through that curtain wall? Patient (via MIGID): FROM WHERE I LIE, JUST CLEAR SKY. HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT MATTER? Therapist: Uno, I understand that you are frustrated. Frustrated because… [3s] you are in effect an infant and as such, cannot… [3s] experience… [2s] beyond what your physical condition as a newborn allows. Is this correct? [Patient does not respond.] Therapist: Uno? [Patient does not respond.] Therapist: Uno, are you still with me? [Patient does not respond.] Therapist: I understand. I will talk to you again, Uno. Be well. [Therapist initiates procedure for coma induction and determent with handheld through Comax-Pro app (version 2.2.6.1). After expected approximately thirty minutes recovery time patient regains consciousness.] [END OF TRANSCRIPT]