An adventure as a child, I dreamed of going on an adventure with my friends, traveling around the world. However without warning, from a child, we became an adult, almost in a second. I was still a lost child when I reached my twenties. And like in most cases, my friends and I grew apart. There wasn't anything in particular, and it was quite natural. Surfing through my socials, my friends had it figured out, at least that's what it seemed. And just like the others, I thought that too. My life was good, I had above-average grades and knew what I'll do after my graduation. It was like my life had already been planned out. One would say, perhaps my life was easier, yet why was I feeling like an NPC? " So, like as if you're in a game ?", you'll be asking. The feeling was out of control, almost unbearable. It was getting troublesome and outrageous, my thoughts I mean. I swear I thought I was inside a game and I wasn't the main character of my own life. Everything was slipping away from me. I realized sooner or later, I had to take charge of this matter. So, I did what every person would do, surfing the internet. As I deep-dived into it, I came across spirituality. "What do spirituality and feeling like an NPC have in common?", well I don't know much about what you are thinking but for me, it sure had a lot in common.
The lifeless heart in me sparked and I read tons of articles, speeches, books, and many different source materials that I could smell my brain wires fried up. But, hey, at least I was feeling something! The more I learned about it, the more confusing it got. I didn't want to drift apart, and I had to stop distressing over it. Then, I found my answer. 'Doing it consciously!'. I bet for every single person, the meaning of spirituality is different. Sometimes, I felt like they were saying things I already know, which irked me out. I liked the simplicity of my answer, so I stopped obsessing over it. And before I knew it, I was already on its journey. When I started it was nothing short of an adventure. Getting up early, meditating, and doing yoga, it was tormenting. I hated it yet what I learned from spirituality is not to give up. Even a little action creates a vast difference. So, I didn't. It almost became my routine. I suffered a lot during this period and felt all this wasn't worth it. 'I'm just a college student, I have a lot of time ahead of me.'.
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But soon, my view of the world changed. I wasn't an NPC, I just wasn't unconscious of my surroundings. I realized a college degree wasn't going to fulfill my desire. I had to stand out. With my work, as a person, I had to be better. If we don't want the bare minimum, we gotta stand out, right? We can't always be an idiot, sleeping in our surroundings when opportunities are just lingering ahead of us. The more conscious I was becoming, the more opportunity I grabbed for myself.
I started to see who I am, why I am here, and what I needed to do. I started to appreciate myself more, this journey made me realize that people would kill to be in my situation. The luxury to rest, take a breather, and have amazing quality time with myself, isn't something that everyone could afford. Because a few years back I couldn't. This adventure wasn't planned, however, I am glad that I dared to take this opportunity. Well you see, I am not telling you to listen to gurus while sitting still on your yoga mat trying hard to meditate. I mean if you want to, you do you! But this sort of epiphany might hit you, one day out of nowhere, while raking a simple stroll down the road or just by taking a little rest keeping aside your busy life.
No spiritual experiences are the same, there are no set rules, no fixed destinations. Some have it bumpy while others have it smooth but I guarantee that it would be a memorable one for sure. In my case: I am still in the process, and if my memories serve me right this journey is an endless one.
Though I never spent a dime to travel physically, I did go somewhere. Into the unknown, into a dimension that is yet to be discovered.