This a short chapter is a little more serious about Kara's mentality not as much comedy in this chapter.
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Chapter 5
Four years into a new life and I am burning out
Well its been over 4 years in my new life as Kara Rosewood. I am anything but your typical 4 year old princess. I am constantly training with both weapons and magic. I also have been learning about the politics and such of this world.
I am the currently the 3rd princess of Termain. Termain is one of 5 human countries on the continent of Solus it is the smallest of the 5 but our military is well respected so we somewhat avoid being bullied. My father King William Rosewood is a very talented politician in his own right. I have somewhat come to respect him but if he tries uses any of my siblings or me against our will I will not forgive him.
We are not political pieces in a game of chest. I almost lost my temper the other day when I heard about my sister Mandy's engagement to the 2nd prince of Jabel Felix Ducal. I actually talked to my sister about it and her and Felix were actually mutually in love. They had both attended Mahouren Academy together and had always been somewhat close growing up. She assured me that it wasnt against her will and they had even agreed to the engagement earlier but both her and Felix wanted to finish at school before making any announcements. This marriage would allow her to have influence in the academy and allow her to do research into magic with the available resources there.
To be honest politically this marriage made sense on many levels because not only was Jabel a boarder country, Termain and Jabal had always had a good relationship. Felix and Mandy's union would strengthen the bond between the two countries for the future. The wedding would be in several months and I guess it will be the first time that I get exposed to the other nobles and royalty. How fun.......not really.
Anyways I have seem to loss focus in my training lately and it is starting to bother me. Earlier I could not even complete an easy obstacle course by the garrison that I had no problems clearing before. Also my weapon training hasn't really produced much results only my dagger lvl 7 and bow lvl 4 skills have leveled up in the past 4 years. I guess fighting dummy's and imaginary foes dont count that much in eyes of the xp gods. I would love to go hunting for monsters but I would definitely be shot down. I am only lvl 9 and I feel like I should be higher. Here is my status
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Name:Kara RosewoodTitle:PrincessRace:HumanGender:FemaleClass:Subclass:Age:4Level:9TitlesprodigyResourcesHealth:140/140Mana:1850/1850Stamina:130/130StatsStrength:52Intelligence:46Agility:65Charisma:75Wisdom:34Precision/aim:46Vitality:48Luck:30
I keep trying to figure out why I am in my current slump and the only answer I can come up with is I am burning out. In my past life towards the end of high school I had burnt out from the training. I wasnt getting any better and by fixating harder and harder to get stronger I only found myself regressing.
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How did I get out of that slump last time? If I remember correctly my councilor had talked to me after my grades started to slip and had me see a psychiatrist.
Basically the psychiatrist said that I was burning out from all the training which was compounded on top of the fact that I had no childhood. The prescription was to take a break from training and live a normal life for a while to come out of the depression.
Well last time I did that it totally worked, it was literally the happiest time of my life. I really enjoyed karaoke and playing video games hanging out with friends. I even took part in the school play.
I dont get it though how am I burning out when I am only 4 years old! This time I even am having a childhood right?
Deep down inside I know this isn't true even a little. What sort of childhood is this? I am constantly training, constantly researching, constantly learning about magic. I have even done everything in my willpower to try and not become too attached to my family. No its a lot worse then it was last time.
Even if I were to take a break how could I even have a decent childhood? I am a fricken princess, I am sheltered from everyone outside the castle. I need to get out of the castle this place it is limiting me. Yet the very people that I tried so desperately to not grow attached to. I dont want to leave them now. This is kind of messed up huh.
I dont think I can wait till I am 9 to join Mahouren academy. I need a past time something that I can have fun with. I need to stop trying so hard to be someone I am not.
I mean the gods even told me to let go of the past. It is easier said then done though I assure you. Keeping your memories in a way is both a blessing and a curse in this way.
I will never let go of the Taiko part of me that I am sure of. I think the only thing I can do is try embrace both the Taiko aspects of me as well as the Kara aspects of me. I am already embracing the Taiko aspect of myself.
I haven't fully accepted the Kara aspects of myself and I think that is what is holding me back more then anything. I think the reason I haven't is two fold, first ever since I was a baby I have been forced femininity to the extreme being a princess and all. I think if it was more subtle I may have taken to it with less resistance. The second reason is I hadn't seen any benefit to it making me become stronger as a fighter. I need to come to grips that I can have more aspects other then just being a fighter.
Its not wrong for me to think something is cute or like to do girl stuff. At the same time its not wrong from me to like girls, oppai, martial arts, and katatas.
I wonder how dad is going to react when I tell him that I like girls. Perhaps hormones might change me but I definitely know my love for girls is not going to go away.
I have always enjoyed singing and botany I think I am going to enjoy some of my old hobbies again and try and get out of this slump.
I make my way to the mages tower.
“Court mage Abbot. I want to learn about alchemy what books do you recommend?”
“So you want to learn about alchemy you say? I suppose there is no harm in lending you some of the books from our library. Though you being so young I am afraid that is all I can do for I wouldn't want to put the lady in danger of mixing or collecting herbs.”- Abbot went and brought back some basic books.
“Those ones are no good I need the advanced ones” I knew this was going to happen all this basic information is available to me through my gift.
“I promise you princess the basics are the foundation for you to learn upon”-Abbot was not going to let it go.
“OK make me a test based on what I would learn from these books and if I can answer them correctly you will let me borrow the advanced books?”- I knew that it would come to this so might as well get it over.
An hour latter Abbot gave me a parchment that 20 questions about the basics of alchemy as well as a few difficult questions. I was surprised at I only needed to use my gift on 3 questions that were about specific potions.
“All done”- I gave him back the test with a smile on my face I knew I got every question right.
“I dont know how but you got every question right. Some of those questions would even trip up an experienced alchemist. I just have one question how?”- Abbot is dumbfounded
“I am a genius” - while not entirely false I couldn't exactly expose my gift so this answer works.
After collecting my books that I worked hard to get. I set off to talk to my mother. I am going to see if I can get some singing lessons from a bard. Also I am going to start to pressure her to start taking me out of the castle.