So, after all that happened last night I am a bit confused as to what I should do and what I must prioritise for myself. I want to be a badass cold person who thinks about their personal survival first and everything else second.

Thinking about me reacting that way yesterday made me feel foolish as I had no clue if they belonged to a gang or if they had family members who were going to come after me. Also leaving the girl after rescuing her… not to sure what to think so far.

After thinking about this for a long time I think I have settled on somethings. Basically to stay sharp and not to give into emotions if possible but not to the extent that I am a zombie with no feeling. To be human is to feel and err. Or that is my excuse any way.

Today all I have done is sit in a fugue state while thinking things. I haven’t really explored anything.

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I am not sure what has happened but I just woke up and I feel very weak and dehydrated. The bread and the open food have all spoiled. There is only the bottled drinks and packaged dry food left. I quickly drink the bottle of water and promptly vomit it back out. Great start to the day. What they said about not gorging after starving seems to be true.

After sipping on the other bottle of water and snacking on the biscuit I am feeling a lot better. Looking outside I am amazed as the pavement is covered in grass the trees are blooming. It basically looks like a lot of time has passed. Among other things that have amazed me is my senses are SHRAP. I mean I can see crystal clear things that are 100 meter away, smell the rotting scent around here and hear the leaves fluttering around from across the road. I am still week physically but mentally I am running around x5 my previous capacity I think.

Looks like I was more tired than expected, I must have snoozed off sometime while snacking. I ate more food and drank some more water. I am running low on food and drinks so I need to go and get some food except its dark and I am scared so tomorrow it is then.

So, its morning and I have left my secure and snug palace (dump). Since my senses are so sharp I am trying to use it. Sniffing around like a dog is funny but sad at the same time as I can almost taste the shit in the air sometimes. Yuck. Not finding anything for a few hours I am getting a bit tired. I finally hit the payload couple of cans of Sprite and a bag of crisp mmmmmmmm. So of course I had to take a food break.

Feeling a lot better after that meal I continued looking. I am a bit puzzled as to where everyone else is as the place looks dead. Maybe they all moved somewhere?