Waking up, feeling helpless in a world where everything lies in fate.

What can you do when fate is against you, when everything seems like it will crumble in a second’s thought.

When everything seems so good and life becomes chaotic in an instant, what can I do?

Feeling powerless makes us, humans go against the odds, even with meager chances we would bite and might go as far as making a deal with the devil.

Although as I wake up. I realized, can I even go against fate with these hands of mine?

All I can do was shrug it off thinking that it’s my daily random thought.

Life is bland without her, life seems unnecessary.

What can I do though when it seems like fate forbids it?

As I stood up not knowing what fate will be serving me today, I went and did everything you would do in a morning as if I was programmed to do so.

But was it like this back then? When life seems so fair and full of bliss? Please, can I have it back?

I ask myself why? every time I look at the mirror on the room coated with stone surfaced wall.

“Even if I dress so well, why do I feel like I’m still not blessed?”

Is this what they call greed; When we want more even though we have enough or is it that there’s really a big part of us that is missing.

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The sound of vehicles passing by, the jovial look of people around me as they do their morning routines, the pain as I look beside me.

“Good morning” A greeting that was normalized losing its sincerity, but when used by you, life seems so good in an instant.

They say when you look back, you lose but I still feel like a winner when every time I see your sweet rosy smile, I’m a moth attracted to your fire.

A wall of fate between us, a large thick wall that stops us. Is it because of the wrath of the Gods or is it just a trick of fate.

“Hey let’s eat together”

Eating, an action that is bland as it is a daily and necessary thing to do yet so enjoyable when I eat with you; you can call me a glutton but I’d eat a lot just to extend that time with you.

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I’ve tasted food that although it looks good and finely served yet it still does not amount to the taste of the food I eat with you.

Slowly a spark came within.

*Ringgggggggggggggggg*

Waking up from my thoughts as the bell rung, I took one last peek on that deep alluring eyes of yours.

I was reluctant to part with you yet I assured myself with the word “Tomorrow”.

But why was it, that I’ve said it a lot of times by now yet it is the only word keeping me alive right now.

Because tomorrow? there will be another chance for me.

another day to see your smile.

another day to appreciate your beauty.

another day to have your presence near mine.

I was dazed as I walked home thinking about your smooth slender hands though your finger would look much beautiful when you wear a wedding ring from me.

*creak

The soft and mushy bed helps me regain my strength or is it because it gives me the same feeling when I hug you?

Life and fate saps my strength while it returns multiple fold when I see you.

“Let’s make a deal”

A voice whispered into my ears, small yet vile.

I wanted to but I believed that God will make a surprise.

Sorry, But I want to keep her as she is, not an illusion made by the devil.

I fell asleep lost in my thoughts.

So dark, I was lost in the abyss where life is meaningless yet when I was with you it felt like you stretched your hand out and helped me leave that dark place.

but for some reason fate didn’t let me through.

I fell down the dark abyss again, wandering and lost.

No, I want to keep you.

And the spark turned to a fire.

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They say God will find a way and that is true.

morning came yet not as bland as it used to be.

A fire in me, burning and still expanding.

I did the usual routine but with great vigor and left home with a smile on my face.

Knowing and hoping that something will happen today.

The time I stepped in and saw you

that flamed turned into a hammer and with my measly human hands

I broke down that thick wall standing tall between us

Just to say to you

I love you, will you hold my hands again?