Chapter 0
The smell of cigars envelop the whole room.
Red, fierce eyes of my pater.
The cloth stained with red envelop my arms, it itches.
The woman that are my queen, my life giver are sleeping on the floor beside that man, without any gesture.
Is it me or my mind is blank.
I wonder if the world is entertaining as it used to be.
Blue azure sky, laughing children, and equally happy.
I don't know anything.
Before this happened, I recall some nice memories.
I had a friend, his name is Miko.
We play every day on my room, we wear the same clothes, and we have the same hairstyle and everything. He is the only friend I had, since I can't come out of the house because my papa forbids me. Though on my fifth birthday he suddenly vanished, I never had a chance to ask my parents a question cause they are screaming loud, I can't make my voice higher than them geez.
I had another friend, his name is Mark.
On the white room, we became friends, people clothed in white take good care for us.
Why are we on that room? Huh? I don't remember somehow. From what I can see, my head and arms have been dressed with white long cloth. We had the same dress and cloth but Mark seems like a doll.
His whole body aren’t moving until somebody do it for him.
On another day, I noticed something, Mark's skin are paler than what it used to.
Though on this friendship I was the only one to ever create a conversation, what can I say, Mark is shy haha.
After spending days on that white room, I wake up, never seeing Mark again.
Hmm, maybe he already go home.
My mom visit me once a week, black surround her eyelids, her hair that used to be long and beautiful was now short like a man. Is it black and violet makeup on her face?
She sings me a song.
The very light of my eyes are in the sky tonight.
The sound of the wind whispers on my ears.
The glistening stars are like you, my child.
The very existence, of you are here tonight.
My child, my dear, I loved you.
You’re the gift that the world, had gifted me.
Your face, your eyes, you are my world.
No one can change, our love.
"You are my treasure my..."
Her gentle voice calms me, but I didn't heard what she said after, because the people cloth in white came in.
The people cloth in white treat me nice, but when they talk to mother, mother cried holding a piece of paper.
Mother check her purse and gave something to the doctor, paper.
After that I got out of the white room and return to the abode where I grow up. They remove the cloth on my head but not the cloth on my arms.
Waiting in front of the door, my papa is eagerly waiting, his fist are clench tightly like it will break his fingers,
My mother panic, hmm? Why?
The smell of cigar, alcohol, and something burnt drifted on the air.
My mother told me to go to my room, I happily obeyed her.
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I arrived on my room, hmm? The room is a mess.
And burnt smell I smelled earlier came from my room, someone maybe left the iron on? Cause my clothes turned to ashes.
After a while, I heard a horrid scream, a woman's voice.
I slowly got out of my room and head towards the voice.
I heard something heavy fell.
The smell of cigars envelop the whole room.
Red, fierce eyes of my pater.
The cloth stained with red, envelop my arms, it itches.
The woman that are my queen, my life giver are sleeping on the floor beside that man, without any gesture.
Hmm? My mind went blank.
After recovering, my hands which are fully cloth and had a red stain, are drench with more red liquid.
I saw the window, the light of the sky are reddish.
Hmm... I know a view where I can see the sky even more.
I walk, I walk, and I walk.
I've reach a building, the tallest of all the building here.
I've walk the climbing road.
I pant heavily.
And finally, I've reach the top.
An open space.
As I saw the scenery, from my eyes, I saw tiny skyscrapers and I'm on the edge.
Humans like ants and cars like toys.
To me, humans are like puppets, controlled by our mind, we cannot pursue happiness.
This world are constantly changing.
Huh? My eyes are wet.
My chest hurts.
Why is it?
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This cruel world is unfair.
"..so...m"
The beauty of happy family.
Are forbidden to me.
"..some...y"
Oh! I think of something nice...
"*sob! Somebody!!!!!"
Would someone remember my name?
"SOMEBODY!! PLEASE! RELEASE ME FROM THIS MISERY, I KNOW THAT HAPPINESS IS A THING YOU SHOULD SEARCH AND EARN FOR, BUT, I SEARCH AND SEARCH MY WHOLE LIFE FOR IT!! IM STILL YOUNG AND I NEED IT, FOR ME TO BE A BETTER PERSON!..."
But...
"...but why the joy of laughing left me behind."
I recall my life, my father became abusive when I became five because of being jobless and my mother, who was left alone to support our small house.
I recall everything, the first friend I had disappeared and my second friend was a dead body.
My body was abused by my father physically every day, if my mother stop him, she will be the focus of abused after.
My mother work and work to feed two bellies, but never feed herself often.
Me and my mother eat three times a week, my father is well fed.
"MY MOTHER LOVED ME AND CARED FOR ME, EVEN THOUGH SHE HAD AN ILLNESS THAT CAN KILL HER, WHY KILL HER INSTANTLY. CAN SOMEBODY EXPLAIN EVERYTHING TO ME!!!! I DON'T UNDERSTAND ALL OF THIS... EVERYTHING... HOW CAN A CHILD LIKE ME WHO ONLY STEP ON THIS UNFAIR WORLD FOR ONLY 9 YEARS BE HAPPY ON THIS WORLD? THAT EVEN A SLIGHT OF WARMTH HAD FORSAKEN ME...please...please, I am losing my mind *sob, please... help me."
Everything I see is cruel, my only queen that is my light had been extinguished.
But most importantly,
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Why’d all of them left me.
"Anyways, I'm thinking of meeting them again. To a happier place I ever know."
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The very light of my eyes are in the sky tonight.
The sound of the wind whispers on my ears.
The whisper of the soothing voice are within my mind.
I remember a flower with the same meaning as my life, a white Anemone.
Forsaken by others, a bad omen.
The glistening stars are like you, my child.
The very existence, of you are here tonight.
As I take my first step, my body flew.
The wind going upwards, the skyscrapers are getting bigger.
My child, my dear, I loved you.
You’re the gift that the world, had gifted me.
The ants became humans, the cars are becoming realistic.
And the paved road which I took to get here, are right in front of my eyes.
Your face, your eyes, you are my world.
No one can change, our love.
"I'll see you, mama."
"You are my treasure, my child, Miko."
-The end.