When I opened my eyes, the world around me was suffocating in darkness, and the air felt heavy, thick with a putrid stench that clung to my skin. The faint flicker of a single candle barely illuminated the small room I stood in, casting grotesque shadows that stretched and warped across the walls like the twisted remnants of forgotten nightmares.

A cold shiver crawled down my spine.

The room was too familiar, yet somehow alien—a strange, haunting blend of memory and illusion. There was decay everywhere, and the floor beneath me felt sticky, as though it were soaked in something thick and foul. I tried to move, but my limbs felt heavy, weighed down by an unseen force.

Then, I heard it. The weak, raspy breathing.

In the corner of the room, huddled on a small cot, was a boy. He couldn’t have been more than six or seven years old, his frail body wrapped in dirty blankets, his face gaunt and pale. His eyes were sunken, hollow, filled with an emptiness that chilled me to my core.

I stepped closer, my heart pounding in my chest. There was something agonizingly familiar about him—something I couldn’t quite place.

As I moved, I noticed another figure standing beside the cot. A man, tall and cloaked in shadows, his back turned to me. His shoulders were broad, and though I couldn’t see his face, there was an aura of menace that clung to him. He stood rigid, unmoving, his attention entirely fixed on the boy.

"Please..." the boy's voice was barely a whisper, a fragile plea that made my throat tighten. He was too weak to cry, too weak to beg. But his wide eyes darted up, desperate and terrified, locking onto mine as if searching for salvation.

And that’s when I saw it—the man’s hand, resting on the hilt of a blade, hovering over the boy's chest.

"Don’t." The word tore from my throat, but my voice sounded distant, like a muffled echo in the void. My legs moved instinctively, but it felt as though I was wading through molasses, each step agonizingly slow, my limbs heavy and useless.

The man didn’t acknowledge me. His hand gripped the blade tighter, pulling it free from its sheath with a soft, metallic hiss.

"No!" I tried to scream, but my voice faltered as the man raised the knife, his movements cold and deliberate. The boy’s eyes widened in terror, his small body trembling under the weight of helplessness. His lips quivered, a final plea on the edge of his breath.

Then, without warning, the man plunged the knife into the boy’s chest.

Time shattered.

The sound of the blade tearing through flesh reverberated through the room, deafening in its finality. Blood splattered across the floor, pooling beneath the cot in dark, sickening streams. The boy’s face contorted in silent agony, his small hands clawing at the air, trying to reach for something—anything.

And then, the light in his eyes flickered out.

I fell to my knees, my body collapsing under the weight of the horror before me. The man, now bathed in the boy's blood, stood silently, as though the act had cost him nothing. He slowly turned toward me, his face still hidden in shadow, but I knew—deep down—I knew who he was.

He stepped forward, his voice cold and devoid of emotion. "You were too slow. You always were."

The accusation sliced through me like the knife that had taken the boy's life. My chest tightened, and I felt a scream rising in my throat, but it never came. The pain of watching that child die—of watching myself fail—was unbearable.

But just as I thought I might shatter under the weight of it all, the scene dissolved.

When I opened my eyes again, I was back in the room. The same room. The same boy.

I gasped, stumbling backward as the horrifying realization dawned on me. It was happening again. The boy on the cot, the man with the knife—everything was repeating, exactly as before.

"No... no, not again," I whispered, my hands trembling as I tried to stop it. But my body felt heavy, sluggish, like I was moving through quicksand.

The man stood by the cot once more, his hand resting on the hilt of the blade, the same terrible scene playing out in front of me.

"Please! Stop this!" I screamed, my voice cracking with desperation, but the man remained oblivious. The boy’s weak, pitiful breaths filled the air, his eyes meeting mine again, pleading for a mercy I couldn’t give.

The knife was drawn, and I watched, helpless, as it plunged into the boy's chest again.

And again.

And again.

"Please! Stop this!" I screamed again, but my voice was hoarse, fragile, as though it would shatter with one more word. My throat burned from the cries of desperation that no one answered. No one ever did.

The man remained a faceless silhouette, looming above the small, broken boy. His knife descended, sharp and swift, plunging into the boy’s chest, tearing through flesh and bone with a sickening, familiar sound. Blood gushed from the wound, pooling on the floor beneath the cot in thick, sluggish streams.

I was too slow.

Always too slow.

The boy’s eyes locked with mine, wide and terrified, shimmering with unshed tears that begged for something—anything to stop this nightmare. His lips quivered, mouthing a silent cry that never came. The life in his eyes flickered once more as the cold edge of the blade claimed him. Again.

And then the room reset.

The boy was back in the bed, gasping for breath. The man stood beside him, his hand resting on the hilt of the blade, ready to tear through him once more.

"Please..." I choked, but it was hopeless. The world was playing out the same horror, over and over, and no matter what I did—no matter how hard I tried to move—I was always too late.

Then it happened again. The knife. The blood. The silence.

I couldn’t save him. I never could.

I had stopped screaming long ago. My pleas had turned to hollow whispers, my body frozen in the same spot, as though the weight of my failure had anchored me to the ground. I watched the man plunge the blade into the boy’s chest, again and again, my heart slowly growing colder with each repetition.

And then the scene shifted.

The boy was gone. The room disappeared, replaced by a new nightmare.

I was now standing on a battlefield, smoke rising from charred bodies littered across the scorched earth. Screams filled the air, the cries of the wounded and dying, their voices mixing into a cacophony of agony. The smell of burning flesh and blood hung heavy in the air.

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In front of me, a soldier—a young man no older than twenty—was crawling through the mud, his legs twisted at unnatural angles, dragging his broken body across the ground. His face was a mask of terror, his eyes darting toward me as he reached out a trembling hand, covered in dirt and blood.

"Help me!" he sobbed, his voice cracking with fear and desperation. He dragged himself closer, his body leaving a trail of blood and filth in its wake. "Please... help me..."

I wanted to move. I wanted to help him. But I couldn’t. I was frozen in place, watching, powerless, as he crawled, inch by agonizing inch, toward me.

Behind him, a shadow emerged from the smoke. A figure, cloaked in darkness, with a sword gleaming in their hand. The soldier's eyes widened in terror as the figure approached.

"No! NO!" The soldier’s voice cracked as he tried to pull himself faster, his hands clawing at the ground, his fingernails breaking and tearing as he scrambled in vain.

The sword swung down with a sickening thud.

Blood sprayed across the dirt as the soldier’s body went limp, his outstretched hand falling inches away from where I stood. The light in his eyes extinguished in an instant.

Then, before I could even comprehend the horror, the scene shifted again.

This time, I was standing in a village square, surrounded by flames. The air was thick with smoke, choking me as I tried to breathe. The sound of crying, desperate wails filled my ears. I turned, and there, in the center of the chaos, a mother knelt on the ground, clutching her child tightly to her chest. Her clothes were scorched, her face smeared with ash, and her eyes were wild with terror as she rocked the limp body of her child back and forth.

"Wake up... please... wake up..." she whispered, her voice breaking with every word. Tears streamed down her soot-streaked face, dripping onto the lifeless form of the child in her arms. "Please... don’t leave me..."

I wanted to look away, but I couldn’t. The weight of the tragedy before me pressed down on my chest, suffocating me. I could feel the anguish, the overwhelming grief, but I was powerless to stop it. All I could do was watch.

And then the flames consumed them both.

The scene shifted. Again.

And again.

Each new tragedy unfolded before my eyes, each one more unbearable than the last. I watched as families were torn apart, as innocent lives were destroyed, as everything good and pure was corrupted and twisted into something unrecognizable.

And every time, I was there. Helpless. Unable to intervene. Forced to witness it all.

How many times had it been? How many lives had I seen extinguished? How many times had I failed?

I had lost count.

Then, suddenly, something changed.

As the scene reset once more, I found myself in the body of the figure with the sword, the one who had taken the soldier’s life. I could feel the weight of the weapon in my hand, the slickness of the blood that still coated the blade. My body moved on its own, the sword raising high above the young soldier’s head. I tried to stop it, to scream, to do anything—but I was trapped, a passenger in my own skin, forced to watch from within as the blade sliced through the air and cut the soldier down.

I felt it. I felt the warmth of his blood splatter across my face, the sickening resistance as the blade tore through flesh and bone. I heard his final gasp, felt his life drain away beneath my hand.

And then it reset again.

This time, I was in the body of the one holding the knife, standing beside the boy’s bed. I tried to pull away, to fight the compulsion, but it was useless. My hand gripped the knife, the blade trembling as it hovered above the boy’s frail chest.

"No... no, please, no..." I whispered, but the words felt hollow, meaningless. I had no control. My hand moved, driving the blade into the boy’s chest with a sickening, familiar ease.

The boy’s eyes widened in shock, in pain, and I felt his small body convulse beneath me. The warmth of his blood seeped through my fingers as the light left his eyes once again.

"You failed," the voice whispered in my ear, but this time, it was different. This time, it was my voice.

I was the monster.

That realization hit me harder than any blow ever could. The knife fell from my hand, clattering onto the bloodstained floor. My legs buckled beneath me, and I sank to my knees, staring down at the small, broken body before me.

It was my hand that had done this. My hand that had taken his life.

Why couldn’t I stop it?

The scene reset once again, and I was thrown back into the nightmare—back into the body of the one who caused it. But now, I could feel everything more acutely: the slickness of the blood, the weight of the blade, the tremor of life as it faded from the ones I killed. It wasn’t just witnessing the horrors anymore—I was living them, breathing in the agony of those I destroyed.

Over and over, I relived it, each time hoping—praying—that I could do something different. But the outcome was always the same. The knife always fell. The sword always struck. The flames always consumed.

I couldn’t escape.

And then, the worst part of it all: the guilt. It began to seep into my very soul, creeping through my veins like a poison. It was my hands that had taken their lives, my actions that had led to their suffering. I felt responsible for all of it, as though these tragedies had become a part of me, woven into the fabric of my existence.

The weight of it was unbearable.

How long had it been? Hours? Days? Centuries? Time had lost all meaning in this endless cycle of torment.

I wanted it to end. I wanted the release of oblivion, anything to stop the horrors that kept replaying before my eyes. But there was no escape, no reprieve. Only the constant, suffocating repetition of failure.

And then, the cycle shifted once more.

This time, I found myself standing in the middle of a burning village again, the flames licking the sky, smoke suffocating the air. But I wasn’t the one committing the violence. I wasn’t a spectator either.

I was both.

I stood inside the body of a man wielding a torch, setting fire to homes, their roofs collapsing under the flames. Screams echoed through the village as villagers fled, but the fire was merciless, claiming them all. My hands moved mechanically, coldly, as I spread the destruction. But this time, I felt the heat, the weight of the lives lost as if they were my own.

Then I saw them—a mother and her child, running through the square. The mother’s face twisted with fear, her eyes wild, her body shielding the child as the flames closed in around them.

I wanted to stop, to drop the torch and walk away, but my body moved against my will. The torch flew through the air, landing in the path of the fleeing pair, igniting the ground before them.

The child screamed. The mother fell to her knees, trying to shield him, her hands trembling as the fire drew closer.

“No! Don’t do it!” I shouted, but my voice was drowned out by the crackling flames.

And then I saw myself. I was standing a few feet away, watching it all unfold—Aric—detached from the man committing the horror, watching like a ghost trapped in the scene.

But I was powerless to stop it.

The child cried out as the flames engulfed him. The mother’s anguished wail filled the air as her body collapsed over her child’s, consumed by the fire.

And then the scene reset again.

I was thrown back into the body of the man, and the nightmare began once more. Each time, I was forced to burn them alive, to hear their dying screams, to feel the heat of their deaths scorching my skin.

Each time, a new horror twisted itself into my soul, and I could do nothing but watch and feel the weight of my own actions press down upon me.

I was the one holding the torch. I was the one driving the blade. And I was the one who couldn’t save them. Not the boy, not the soldier, not the mother and her child.

And that "truth" shattered me.

I wasn’t just a bystander. I was a murderer in every sense of the word. The lives I took, the pain I caused—it was all real to me now, all tangible and suffocating.

"You failed," the voice echoed again, colder this time. It wasn’t from the victims. It came from within.

"You failed." It reverberated through my mind, twisting like a thorn inside my heart.

"You failed, because you are weak, because you chose to ignore who you really were."

The word “weak” echoed through the void, stabbing into me like a dagger. I wanted to scream, to rage, to tear the world apart for what it had done to me. But I couldn’t. I was too tired. Too broken.

I had failed. Over and over again.

I had watched innocents die, had felt the weight of their deaths press down on my soul, but it didn’t matter anymore. I had failed so many times that the pain had become familiar—numbing.

The repetition, the suffering... it had hollowed me out.

As the cycle reset once more, something inside me snapped. The world around me blurred, but this time, it felt different. The pain, the horror—it was there, but it didn’t cut as deeply anymore. It was almost like background noise, a dull, constant ache.

I watched the knife plunge into the boy’s chest again, but my heart didn’t race. I saw the soldier crawl through the mud once more, but his terror didn’t tear at my soul the way it had before.

The horror was still there. But I was numb to it now.

The flames consumed the mother and her child, and I watched with cold detachment, no longer fighting the horror of what I was doing.

I had broken.

There was no more begging, no more screaming for it to stop. It was a mechanical, endless loop, and I was simply going through the motions.

And somewhere, in the quiet void of my soul, I knew—I was free.

Not from the cycle. Not from the tragedy.

But free from the pain. Free from the burden of caring.

I was numb. I had shattered every part of myself that could feel, and in its place, there was only cold, unfeeling emptiness.

I would no longer be tormented by these horrors.

Because now, I had become them.

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