How long has it been now? An hour, a month, a minute, or a period of time I can’t even begin to conceive? With nothing but all-consuming darkness around me, it’s not as though I can find out by any means. All I remember is that flash of light from that huge explosion as I was coming home, and… nothing else. Ah, I died, didn’t I? I died, and… And everyone else I know probably did too. 

With that realization, I couldn’t quite stop myself from crying, naked and alone. It’s not as though anyone else could see me doing so anyway, so a facade would be unnecessary.

I really do try to use big words when I’m sad.

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Well, after crying for what might have been forever, I’m left now with no longer feeling anything but hollow. If this truly is death, then I don’t think it will take very long at all for me to try to find myself fractured. To pass the time, I decide to switch to thinking about my old memories, to simply give me something to do.

At first, feelings of nostalgia and sadness came over me, filling up my now hollow shell. After the third time, however, I couldn’t feel anything, which may very well be just as bad.

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Now, I simply wait. I don’t know quite what it is I’m waiting for, but if I don’t keep up my small kindle of hope I think that I may truly die. In fact, in this consuming darkness, the only thing I can feel now is a shimmering hope and self-inflicted pain. Yet I can’t end my own life. 

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As forever went along slowly, I could eventually see… Something? No, surely not, I can’t crush my hope on this fantasy. 

Yet, as I tried my best to clear my head of this delusion, it kept coming closer, turning quickly in what looks like a speeding ball of lightning. I quickly turned into the equivalent of a deer in the headlights as it was almost right next to me. Is… Is this it? Another thing, even as simple as a bit of light, brought back a flood of emotions, and I could only pray that it would be going towards me. Soon, it found itself right in front of me, and even started… Talking?

“Hello there! I’m your personal servant, or as some would say your angel! I’m sure you wanna get out of here, so- wait, why are you crying? Why are you crying?!” The little blue ball quickly switches from excitement to alarm as it starts flying around me. 

No, no surely this is all an illusion. Not only can I now see something besides the darkness, but the first thing that I find can talk to me? As I pinch myself, I find that I am in no dream. I quickly realize that I don’t care if this is a dream or not, either way, I can’t let this chance go.

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“Y-yes, I’m, *sniff* I’m dave. It’s good to meet you. I-I’m crying, because, uh, I’mhappytomeetyoupleasedon’tleave!”

I knew that I was always awful at making conversation, but I thought I could at least try to control what came out of my mouth. Ah, it’s gonna leave now, and I’ll be all alone again. Suddenly, I hear the same voice but with a much less bubbly tone.

“Oh. Oh, master, I’m so sorry. You must have been in the void much longer than I expected. I can’t even find any family members nearby, and your injuries…”

 The once chipper mood suddenly turns much soberer, and though I was filled with questions, making sure that this talking ball of lightning was happy was much more important to me. I can’t screw this up, no matter how fake this whole thing might be.

“N-no, please don’t worry about it. No matter what, I’m glad you’re here, very happy,” I say slightly shakily, looking down.

Perhaps being more simple and direct could help. Still, it's been so long since I’ve even talked to anything besides myself before and I can’t quite tell if what I had said helped.

“Ah, well I’m glad that my presence brings you joy, even if it took me so long to get here. And rest assured, I promise I won’t leave as long as you want me to!”

...Is this heaven? The first voice I hear is someone who essentially says it’s gonna stick around? I find myself frustrated at the raging questions and the nagging uncertainty as of whether or not this is real. I’m feeling so many things right now, so with a small smile, I look down and say the only thing I know is a good response.

“Thank you,” I say. I’ll ask questions later. I’m happy just with the way things are and try to push away all of my fears.

With this, the blue ball switches into a shade of light pink.

“O-of course master! I’ll be sticking around as long as you want me around, however, I really do think that we should get going. I’m sure you want to leave this awful place, right?” 

To that, I quickly nod, even though the chances that this is an illusion are greatly increased in my head. To be able to leave this place, and to find someone to talk to is far past unimaginable at this point.

Suddenly, the ball that has turned back to blue and I seem to flicker out of existence, and I feel myself floating in front of a huge wall that seems like it came right out of a fantasy, surrounded by all sorts of other balls of electricity that hold all the colors imaginable seemingly taking care of it. Looking inside of the gate, it’s as though the scenery changes every ten seconds, from futuristic buildings to gothic-styled buildings to nomadic huts. It’s… beautiful. Yet with this, I’m forced to ask. I can’t keep deluding myself anymore, no matter how much I want to. Why I feel like I must do this though, I’m not quite sure. Still, this urge to do something is extremely new, so shouldn’t I follow through? What if it says yes? Would that be okay?

While I kept going back and forth with myself, the sphere of lightning spoke up suddenly. “Uh, master? Are you okay? You seem down. I didn’t do anything again, did I?!” 

This forces me out of my stupor. Well, it’s all or nothing, though I really hope the latter isn’t true. 

“Hey, uh, is this… real?” I’m honestly not sure how I can put it better than that. Ah God, I hope that I’m not screwing myself over here. With that, the ball stops suddenly and turns in what I think is my direction.

“Master, if there are two things I can swear to you, it’s that I will help you as long as you wish and that this is all very, very real,” it said what I found was the most serious thing that has been so far.

I grew still at that response. Perhaps, perhaps I can believe it. I mean, what do I have to lose? The relief hasn’t quite come in full, but I can feel a trickle coming, alongside a mountain of hope. It’s not as though I can think enough to wonder with all this noise around me. Hah, I truly am quite pathetic. I nod my head at this and force a small smile on my face.

“Right, well, I’m glad you’ve asked because now I can tell exactly what you’re doing here! I know that you are very confused, and our introductions were… out of the norm, to say the least, so let me introduce myself again. Hello Master, I’m your personal servant, or your very own Angel, and you’ve become an Ultimate God!”

Hah. I have gone insane after all.