this has abuse alcohol use and Suicide thoughts!just a warning! I don't have any close to ware because my mom had been using the washer all weekend trying to get the blood stains off of her shirt from every time my dad hit her to hard it happens a lot.So i really can't blame my mom for all this,but i mean this outfit will have to work for today. was another normal day,Well I mean it was another day I'm used to,Hey my name is Ash and I Was an adopted at birth.I wasn't a very lucky,because my parents hate each other,at first it was fighting then it was my dad coming home drunk,And now its Abuse.I don't have many  friends but I have 1 best friend,her name is Ryan. She's been my friend since 1st grade,It all started when she stood up for me and dumped milk on the girl who called me ugly.It really is funny how we met,I think she really is the only person who will talk to me,but its because im different then them.I have green hair and green eyes and its my real hair and eye color. And I mean it's not that I look ugly,it's that it's weird that I'm different like I'm only half of a human or I'm not even one to some people.But it was like any other day,My alarm piercing through the silent room,It causes me to wake up,”More school…Great….”i said as i sighed.I lift my blanket off of me,and then i walked out of my bed and towards my closet.My legs feel like jello and my shoulders feel like there caring to weight of the world on them.I pull out a shirt,it was a green crop top.I groaned and put it back on the hanger then shoved in into my closet,My brain went blank as i tried to figure out what to wear to school. It's not like it matters anyways.No one's going to even notice me.But for some reason I still try.I sigh as i pull out a new shirt,it was a black tank top, and then i pulled out my leather jacket and black jeans.This will work i guess,i mean i could do way better than this, but i didn't do my laundry last weekend, So i have no clothes wear!Well that's fine i guess,the cold air from my fan hitting my bair skin,as i hurried and put on the outfit i had just chosen for today.I had to be as Quiet as a mouse as i opened my door and walked out into the hallway.I try to be as quiet as i can hoping that my dad wont wake up when i open the door to the bathroom,I slowly opened the door,The loud creek from the door pierced the air as it flew open.I walked in and shut the door.The door slammed shut cousin a loud bang.I flinch when i hear the sound of the door.I wait a few seconds just to make sure i didn't wake my dad up,Then i pulled my toothbrush out of my cup and the i put toothpaste on it.i brought it up to my mouth as i brushed my teeth.When i was done i rinsed the sink out then i put on some mascara.I pulled my hair into a bun as i grabbed my bag from of the floor and threw it over my shoulder.I open the door and slam it not even caring if it woke my dad up.If he wanted to beat me he would and i wouldn't have even cared.I walk down my stairs and into my kitchen,i'm not really hungry right now but i'll take an apple so my mom doesn't find out that i'm not eating again.Well i mean it won't be the best thing for my health but i don't really care. Sometimes I wish I was dead and I often think that it would be better if I wasn't even here.Well it wouldn't be that far off from my life,No one even looks at me,Well i mean besides Ryan.I walked outside of the door and then i pulled out my phone and texted Ryan to come pick me up.She's always been very fast to respond to my texts, Even though she gets like 50 every 5 minutes,But something was off.She didn't text me like she normally douse.I waited another 3 minutes for her to text me back, But then i got a notification saying that she had blocked me.Thats wired why would she have blocked me?Maybe it's just a glitch in the system.I tried to text her again and it wouldn't send. Ok, it's not a glitch? Why did she block me! What did I do! I tried to call her then it said ‘This person you are trying to call has blocked you.Please try to understand that.’ I hung up the call and just stared at my phone.What did I do? Why did she block me? Did I hurt her? Well I mean I guess I'll be walking to school today.I tie my shoelaces and then i put my headphones on.I start to blast music in my ears as i started to walk,I have an hour to walk to school its 4 miles away.Why did she have to ghost me on the one day that it was going to rain.It was already starting to get cloudy and i was already walking so i have to go to school,and i can't turn back and no go to school because where would i go?I can't go home. My mom will ask questions, And my dad will yell and scream at me.So I continue to walk.The smell of rain was close by and I could tell it would rain soon and of course I forgot to bring my hoodie! I started to run when I felt a drop of water on my head.I wasn't even close to the school when it started to rain.I booked it to the closest bus stop that i could get to,i was drenched in water and my hair was soaked. I smelled like rain water and at this point i gave up.I sat there on the bench.I didn't know what to do, Even when i had no friends i never ever had to do this,so do i call my mom?Do I try to catch a bus? Like what do I do?I sat there for a while,Just thinking of what I should do or where I should go.I heard the sound of an engine coming up the mountain and then I just decided to use my lunch money for a bus ticket.I got onto the bus and picked up my coins that i had and put them inside of the atm.With each coin you could hear a clunk,and then it said that i was approved so i walked down and sat on the bus seat in the very back of the bus.i just stared out the window the rain  hitting the window mad a soft but soothing sound.I could smell rain and i don't mind it.The song sad kids started to play in my headphones and i didn't even notice that i had started to sing,and i got a lot of people's attention.Some started to record me and others hummed along with me.When the song ended i had finally looked away from the window,and to my surprise everyone was clapping and some were even crying.I pull off my head phones and looked around and slightly muttered thank you,I was so confused on why they were clapping for me then i realized that i was singing,and i just had not noticed it.”omg um thank you!” I said.I wasn't used to people actively looking at me and I definitely wasn't used to being praised.i took a little bow and then i put my headphones on when the bus stopped.i got off at this stop and then i just started to walk Around.Then i stopped under a tree and sat down and started to close my eyes.But when i do i hear a cat meow,i opened my eyes and i saw a cat that really was as thin as a twig,”oh looks like your hungry here have this.” I said softly as I pulled out a granola bar I had in my bag.”I know that it's not like any tuna or anything but it's all I have.Eat up,your life will get better!If it's not anything like mine your life will look up,Don't give up, you'll find someone who will love you more than you think that you deserve." I said as I watched the cat eat bit by bit.”My name's Ash, what's your name?”I asked the cat,even though I know that it can't talk to me I still talked to it because who even knows anymore? I've lost all my friends and i dont have anyone who loves me so what's left to lose?”I like you Ash! Here take this! Your life will get better! No ones ever a burden!Don't give up!Thanks for the food!”the cat said as it left and when I blinked I saw a typewriter on the floor.“Did that cat just talk to me?!?!?!”I said out loud,no one was around so I just sat there and looked confused,I picked up the typewriter and just looked at it.It was really old and rustic.”why would the cat leave me a typewriter?”I mumbled as I picked it up, then I checked the time.It was 2:30 so I guess I should start walking back to my house.The rain stopped at least.I started to walk home,as i was walking i kept thinking about how the cat talked to me.As i was walking a car pulled up next to me.It was Ryan.”What do you want?You blocked me, remember.”I said angrily and slightly sarcastic.”i know and i don't care,but you have all of my notes so i'm here to get them back and i assumed you'd be here because you're always here when pick  your frustrated.or sad but i don't care just give me my note back!”Ryan said as she rolled down her window.”No, not until you tell me why you blocked me!”I said as I looked up,anger and sadness rolled through me as I yelled at her.”Because your mom stopped paying me to be your friend!The truth is i think your a weirdo and that your ugly,the only reason i was your friend is because your mom payed me.”Ryan said coldly.”I through her notes at her as i ran away.when i reached my house i had locked the door to my room and when i remembered the typewriter i started to write that i wish ryan had never even talked to me then i ended my sentence with i wish Ryan was dead.After a while i crashed onto my bed and cried myself to sleep.The night went on the same but i was in for one hell of a surprise when i woke up.It started out like any other day,My alarm went off and it woke me up,But something was off i could feel it it was like something had changed.I got up and started to walk around my room,Something just felt off i don't know what though! It was really starting to piss me off! I just threw on a black hoodie and some jeans then i walked out of my room and into the bathroom,But to my surprise I could smell something sweet coming from down stairs.So after i brushed my teeth then did my hair i walked down and to my surprise,My Dad and Mom were making pancakes,Together! “Ummm what's going on, why are you getting along with each other? Did you kill someone? Do you need some money? Like why are you being nice to each other,And why are you making me pancakes?”I asked as my eyebrows furrowed in confusion,I looked at them then at the pancakes,Then I looked back at them and crossed my arms.”Um sweetheart we need to tell you something…”My mom said to me as she set down her wash rag.”You might want to sit down.”my dad added as he looked me right in the eyes.Holding my eye contact with my father i sat down on the bench my mom had pulled out for me.”What?”I asked Them with a stern tone.”Well Ryan she passed away this morning.”My mom said as she put her hand on my arm.My eyes widened not by sadness but by shock.I just killed her!I wrote that I wish she was dead, then she died?!?!No way,Because if that's the case i also wrote that the cute boy who sat next to me was one of my friends.And that he liked me back…..No way there's just no way,Only one thing to test this.I Run  up to my room and then type on the typewriter that the boy who was sitting next to me knocked on my door at 6:30 am to give me a ride to school.It was 6:29,I run downstairs and grab my bag on my way as i stumbled down the stairs.And as i typed i heard a knock on the door at exactly 6:30.I opened the door and The boy from the bus ride was standing right infront of me.”Hey babe, are you ready to go to school?” The boy asked me as he kissed my cheek and took my bag from my shoulders and threw it over his.”Um yeah lets go.” I said as I walked next to him out onto my driveway.”Are you sure that you like me?And you're not just joking with me so that you can bully me?”I asked him as I stopped walking and looked at the floor.”Hey…Baby ... .Look at me,I like you for you no matter what you look like.”he said as he lifted my chin up and wiped my tears.”T-Thanks.”i said softly.He then suddenly lifted me into his arms and carried me bridal style.I let him carry me to the car then we drove off. Thats it i need to burn that type writer because if anyone sees it then They can use it for bad and not good and i've got all i need and i've only used it once.So when i got home i started a fire and burned the typewriter.I didn't regret it.Me and the boy,i found out that his name was Kiego,and that what happened with the typewriter didn't even affect him.10 Years latter….

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I was standing next to the fire that Kiego helped me start,Drinking hot chocolate as I watched our kids open their presents.Kiego comes up behind me and rapes his arms around my waist.I giggled as i turned around to face him.He then held out his hand and said “May i have this dance?”he turned on my favorite christmas song,Then he took my hand and we started to dance.He spun me as I giggled,I could feel the wind in my hair .He was my husband now and it's strange that this all happened because I fed a cat.When the song stopped he kissed me.And really that's how my story started

Note from writer:

I'm a middle school student and I think that this was really fun to write.I hope you're having a nice day and i want to thank you for reading my story!And if your suffering from any of the things that happened in the story you can ask for help!And I swear that it will get better! Have a great day and if it's night then have a great night!