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To You Who Hurt Me So
To You Who Hurt Me So

To You Who Hurt Me So

              My dear Suzanne,

   As you had asked from me I waited patiently and finally opened your letter today, after the coming of age ceremony. I thought of waiting for your return to respond to you directly like you expected me to but I believe I need to express what I think to you as soon as I can.

   When you left the town on your pilgrimage I wasn't surprised, you had mentioned considering going on pilgrimages a lot of times after all. But still seeing my best friend of so many years leave and knowing she wouldn't return for a long time made me extremely sad. I felt your absence so often that I couldn't keep track. I almost opened the letter you had left for me early dozens of times. But I kept that desire in check because I wanted to listen to what you had said, even though I wished you had never left or taken me with you when you did.

   Yet now that our Goddess has shown me who I am meant to be with in my coming of age and I finally read the letter I longed to set my eyes on, I wish I hadn't waited. I wonder if you can even imagine how awful it felt, to be separated from you for two painful years, with barely any parting words and none of them being an explanation and when I eventually got to read this last thing you left for me it was this. You left me here like this for so long for such a reason that I can't but be mad at you. You must know better than thinking that I can forgive you for that.

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   To go to some far away land simply because you were afraid to do something you didn't even have to. You could have simply done nothing and waited for my coming of age. Or you could have confessed to me, even if I didn't believe that we are destined to be, true soulmates as the Goddess had shown you at the time, I wouldn't be hurtful about rejecting you. But no, you just had to assume you need to confess and you couldn't help but imagine the worst case scenario. As much as I pity you for that I can't just ignore you leaving me like this for so long.

   That isn't to say that I won't go out with you, nor that we will be on bad terms, I couldn't just be like that with you even if I wanted to. But I need you to somehow show me you are willing to make up for how much you've hurt me when you finally arrive back in a few days.

   I have no doubt in my mind that you can do it though, I've known you for so long after all. I just need you to actually do it, so that I can forgive you properly. Maybe we can go on a pilgrimage together after, since you're already experienced. I've always wanted to see the fabled Désert de Verre for myself, going there with you who I am meant to be with would probably be rather romantic.

Your soulmate and girlfriend to be,  

Colette                    

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