this chapter took me waaaay longer than i have liked

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Cold that's the feeling i have. very, very cold, so cold it froze me from the inside out.

My mother from a humble family never did much to cause any sort of trouble. Father a soldier who had defended our village for years. Brother strong like a mountain and respected by father. Sister lovable and bright loved by my family. then me... i don't know why but i wasn't what they wanted. i wasn't like everyone else i was weak very weak. my hair was a pale white unlike everyone's bright blond. my ears weren't perky like everyone else's. they said my eye's were cursed they said i was cursed. mother called me taboo, father called me disgrace, brother called me trash, sister called me disgusting. why? mother i could have covered my eyes, please father don't look at me like that, brother please don't hit me, sister please don't throw me back into the cold. they avoided me when i was around. they ignored me when i got near. they forgot me when they couldn't see me. and seemed to be angry when i showed up.

for years they never loved me i never opened my eyes i quickly learned how to see without them open. smells, sound, healing, touch, and pressure. these were my eyes. i stopped using my eyes hoping my family would love me. i was always quiet, i was always nice, i always did what i was told, i never tried to lash out. never did i try to do anything, never, never, never, never. they didn't love me. even when i cleaned the house, Never. not when i cleared the yard, Never. not when i gave them flowers, Never. not when i gathered food, Never. Not when i washed the cloths, Never. i tried as many times as i could.

sister started taking food from me. brother started hitting me harder. mother never looked at me. father always yelled at me. why? i tried so hard. why? i did all i was told. what should i do? what could i do?

life was like this as long as i knew. until the day Brother attacked me in the night. he clawed at me. torm my cloths. hit me over and over and over. he pulled something from his pants. FEAR, scared i clawed him. he hit me harder. i clawed again he hit, i clawed, he hit me, he pulled my trousers down, even more scared in a last effort i clawed him again. i was lucky i gouged into his right eye. he started screaming holding his head. he stood up and tripped backwards because of his pants. father came too see. for the first time ever it seems like father didn't disgust just me. shortly after he looked at me in a furry he started hitting me mother was behind him calling me things i didn't know whore? slut? their meanings i did not know sister came out and was helping brother. it hurts all over mother was still yelling at me. brother was seething in anger. father full of animosity. mother full of regret. the next day father dragged me out of the house. dragged me to the village centre. father asked an elder what he should do. they told him to banish me. said i was the scorned taboo child of a devil. said if they didn't act now i would seduce? others and harm them as well. i wanted too tell father i was sorry, wanted too ask what i should have done. but everyone watching had a feeling of disgust, hate, and anger directed towards me.

Father did what was suggested he dragged me outside the village. i was pleading 'Father i can be good' 'father i can change' 'ill be a good girl' 'ill cover my eye so no one has too see them' 'ill wear a hood so no one has too see my ears' 'ill always be quiet' 'ill never get in the way' 'please don't throw me away' given how hard it is for me to form proper words i thought i would convince him with how well i said all that. sadly it didn't do anything he only gave off an even more disgusted feeling everyone was watching, some were laughing, some were angry. brother wast there still resting, sister seemed satisfied, mother seemed happy. father seemed relieved. as i was let go father kicked me. pain filled my back. crying i turned around. father had his hand on a sword by his waste. sadness, fear, pain, anger, and HATE. the things i had bottled up till now seemed to surged father said 'we don't want you leave before i end you'

fear forcing my legs to run away. i slipped into the forest i wasn't very fast nor was i strong. i was tired but sadness and fear kept me moving. forward moving. for what felt like the scariest run in my life i kept moving i tumbled fell down into a mud puddle sometimes. but it didn't change much. when i was younger i started covering my hair on my head and tail with dirt to change the color . trying to show my family i could change. since i did this anytime i washed i was never really clean which earned even more bad things from sister. whenever she would take my food she would say 'dirty children don't get food' but since mother and father looked at me with less disgust i endured.

after walking for an ever increasing amount of time i saw people. i didn't want them to treat me like everyone in the village i was just going to wait a few days and try to plead with father. but it seems i was too lat as something grabbed my feat and with a tug i was dropped on the ground. tired as i was i still lifted my head too look. there was a rope around my feet. one of the people in armor was behind me with the other end in his hands. he walked over and picked me up and took me to the others. there were a few carriages and lots of no-ears like the ones that would come into our village to trade. everyone seemed delighted he caught me as lots of cheers were made. a man with a tall body black hair on his chin wearing colorful cloths was looking at me with a scary expressing. he gestured to the person holding me and i was taken to him in which he took my cloths and looked at me. scared i covered myself and tried to claw the one holding me. this rewarded me with a kick to my tummy. laughing the colorful man pointed at the biggest carriage which i was grabbed and taken there with the guard and colorful man they put me in a shit just long enough too cover me and put me in a cage which looked shiny and cold not having the energy to even rub my belly. i was put in the cage without resistance. i curled up and layed on my side. after the men left i looked at the other cages were there were a bunch more no-ears and in another cage there was a scale person who was missing an arm put in a similar sized cage as everyone else though he looked way to big in it scary. tiredness grabbed me and pulled me away not wanting to draw more eyes i cried quietly as i fell a sleep.

i was awoken from my nightmares when i heard some yelling and the carriage i was in stopped. they must have been moving while i slept and quite fast at that. as the scenery outside was very different. we were stopped for a while befor whoever is moving the carriage came back and i could see the one behind the one i was in had someone get on it as well. it was quiet for a while and i eventually fell back too sleep tiredness still holding me.

while having more bad dreams something in my head started screaming which woke me again. fear, i after so long opened my eyes which i had tried to keep closed but it was such a scary fear i couldn't control myself i stared hard at the person who showed up. she was beautiful more so than my sister. she had a scary feeling but was had a feeling that made it seem like she could fight the world. a small faced no-ear girl with a cute button like nose, Large eyes the color of Grass but was so much more pretty and her other eye was as black as the night which has a dim light under it which seemed like a fiery red.they drew me in like a moth to fire. her hair was short very neat almost as if even the wind couldn't make it untidy. the color was just like mine, like MINE!! white as snow which seemed to have nothing smearing it. i couldn't see it clearly but it felt like there should be a Horn on her forehead it looked hazy but wasn't really there. she stared at me for a while as i stared back. 'maybe she would like me' 'maybe she would accept me' was what i was thinking forgetting the pain all over my body. ah no, she turned her head away the other people were making noise which drew her attention. i wanted to keep gazing into her eyes long enough for forget everything.

she left without a sound. was she with these people? if not i should have told her to run. but it...-it just felt like no matter what not even the words of the world could harm her. i was still sad however as i couldn't even say anything the others here were still sleeping except the scale person he like me was looking at the girl just as i had. thinking how much i wanted her to come back the colorful man appeared. wide eyed he looked at the others then me. smiled a smile that scared me more than anything the same smile that led me into the bad things that happened yesterday. it was the smile i saw on my brothers face just a few days ago. he opened one of the other's cage and took one of the no ears with pretty hair and dragged her out. he then did the same for me i tried to claw him as he dragged me out but he just hit me on the head i was still aching all over and was still very tired as he held me by the back of the shirt i could see my tail under my legs as he carried me and dragged the other one with us. he said something about 'testing the good's' which sounder scary. while walking i felt the eye's of the powerful girl on my back my trembling body became even more embroiled 'was she there to watch?' 'was she with then?' my shaking must have agitated the colorful one cus he grabbed my tail and pulled it not able to suppress my cry i let out a small scream. he dropped me shortly after.

looking over in fear i was surprised too see the colorful one had spontaneously grown a red arm. it seemed very painful as he was looking down at it wich so much shock on his face. 'if i grew an arm like that id be scared' as if to correct me the hand receded resounding with a loud crack* the colorful one just fell over screaming the girl whispered something too him but i wasn't listening. i shut my eye's like normal and covered my ears as she was doing something very bad to the colorful one i put my nose on my leg trying to block the burning smell and could hear screams through my clasped ears after it stopped i opened my eyes again as i felt their eyes on me. wanting to gaze into them again i watched her. i was scared but oddly i also felt safe.

"would you become mine?"

huh? what did she say? become her's? she wants me? someone wanted me? she who i don't even know who did not look at me with scary faces. was just smiling while looking at me. would i become her's i was screaming YES!! over and over she seemed to smile brighter at my answer.

"whats your name?"

name? whats my name? as i was thinking this it started to rain. the other girl that was brought with me came back with the others and asked if the powerful one would take them home. she didn't say nothing. and looked like she was thinking.

"i don't, have a name?"

after saying this they all looked at me. the powerful one stared at me still smiling.

"oh? how rare. pity those who had you before never named you...Ah i could name you that sounds new and fresh. hmhmhm hehe yes new things are always fun. so how about it?"

she asked me if i wanted her to give me a name? if i said yes id be hers...never able to go back home. 'why would i want to go back?' as if i was hit by a bull i came to that question. why would i? why go back to were i've never been wanted when here someone wants me.

"i, want you to, name me"

i said suppressing the excitement. a name something id get just like Mother(Liesta), Father(Sebier), Brother(Segili), Sister(Lisea)

i could have a name too!!

"hmm good, how about Eevi? mmm sounds good to me. as for the last name you can take mine"

"my name?...Eevi...Eevi"

i have a name a name!!!

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now incase you wonder while Eevi was being ...'Inspected' Trash did use the seal on her. the reason why lily wasnt thrown in cage is because in my lil world that i created when a sealing fails it means either *the person is already sealed wich can be bad if the one who sealed them shows up* or *because the one sealed is a very powerfull magic user wich is usually magnitudes above the sealer* oh and Eevi is hebrew for 'Living and Breathing'..incase anyone wanted to know