I finally gave up. I forgot what happened before I found myself here but I am sure, It must have been something serious.
"absolutely nothing but darkness, everywhere."
I'd talk to myself sometimes to avoid becoming crazy and this is one of those times.
"What will I do, When I get out of here? " Is a question, I always ask myself But the answer, With time, is becoming fuzzy.
I have forgotten everything.
I used to answer this question while being enthusiastic and happy. And that gave me hope but not anymore. I wonder, What kind of answer I'd answer?
"What is there to do? I don't have any idea."
"What was my name? I can't remember "
"Where is this place? "
There are words in my mind such as Darkness, Light, good, evil, height, direction, etc but I only know, how to use a few of them.
How do you use the word 'direction' anyways?
What is evil? There is nothing here to compare to! how those people used to compare them?!
"People." Thus I added a new word that I didn't know the meaning of, in my diary. I'd often use these words on instinct and later, try to remember the meaning of them.
It was easy for the word 'darkness' since I am all surrounded by it. But other words took a while to grasp their meanings.
This is how everything was going. Maybe next time we meet, I'll figure out something by that time.
For now, Let's sleep.
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...
"Who's this crazy person?" No matter how I look at him, from which angle I look at him, he seems beyond crazy to me. He is surrounded by thousands of stars but yet, he speaks as if he sees nothing. He is using those words but yet, he says he doesn't know the meaning of them.
And to top that, he is naked----This is crazy.
"Master, that's is you. " says the lady, who stands beside me in the space floating around.
"No! no, no, no! that's not me, I can't be... I am not gonna believe your words, no matter how you put them."
"In any case, Let's move on Master." She said as she started to float away
I am Aoi Kichiro. A while ago, an angel came and told me, You are a god and a lot of things happened after that, like how I died several times.
And the last time I died for real by the hands of a God called 'God of Death' and then, I found myself in front of this lady. She appears to be, 18-year-old. There is something on her head, but I am not sure what I should call it (a crown?). Her eyes are bright white, as well as skin tone and on top of that, She is wearing some sort of white dress. She could blind someone if one doesn't use sunglasses.
She seems a good person, but yea seems like she one of Mikhail's companion, I can tell since she's using; 'Master' to refers to me.
When she saw me appearing in front of her, She suddenly took one of my hands and started dragging me around to watch this person. I don't know, What she intends to gain by forcing me to watch this guy but-- 'This is a pain in the ass..'
"Master... " she stopped in front of me "Look-- You are scratching your butt," she said, with sparkling eyes.
Her eyes alone can blind someone but these sparkles in her eyes... the balance of power is crumbling in here.
"You know---- I had enough of this guy! "
"But... Don't you want to see different types of yourself? " with these words, she used 'puppy eyes' to attack this time.
"Like hell I do! "
She is tough.
In any case, by her expression alone, I think now that she doesn't have any bad intentions.
"If that is the case... I'll erase--- " as she was speaking, the guy, she kept on showing to me, starts to disappear. The guy himself didn't appear to be able to notice his hands and body disappearing. He kept floating in this vast space until he completely Disappeared. " I'll erase him... " She finished her sentence as the person disappeared. It surprised me.
Just when I said, She doesn't seem to have any bad intention; That's what she did?
"Master... Can I ask you a question? " She says, while she kept looking at the face I was making. "Yes, ask" I answered her.
"Why do you seem to be surprised by what I did? " So she asks, but do I even have to answer such a simple question?
"Of course, I was surprised. you just killed that guy as if his life meant nothing. " Was my answer to her question, I mean who wouldn't be surprised?
"if that so.... master, what about those 10,320 mortals you stripped existence of? " she asked with a dull expression on her face. That question took away all of her expressions that I saw until now and so well as mine, I stood in a shock in front of her.
"huh? " without any answer.
"The person you saw is one of those 10,320 mortals, abonanded by the true God. imprisoned in this darkness. The time won't mean anything to him, He would spend the eternity here. He will remember the feelings he felt in the life he lived and then, he will forget them and then the cycle will continue. "
As I stood there, listening to her words. I started to feel things that I had almost forgotten. I started to remember; Why I was here, what brought me here and for what reasons, I did what I did.
Yes, I remember now.
If the person, whom I stripped the existence of, is suffering--- Then.
"So, let the cycle continue. " That's what I want in the first place, I want them to suffer. The only reason I felt pity for the person who disappeared was that I didn't realize, who I am.
I am but an apathetic person, who was killed, again and again by the gods and mortals. The pain that I felt, suffering that I've gone through is what I remembered. I still can remember the time, when I begged for my life in front of a classmate but he didn't even...There was no mercy in his eyes. The god, who watched from afar but never done anything. To me, Mortals, gods are all alike.
And they don't deserve any mercy from the person they tortured so much-- they don't deserve mercy from me since they never pitied me.
"I see... but master... You are crying."
I thought; What is she even talking about? The person who cannot even show his emotions, is crying?
"uh? " but when I touched my face, I could feel the water on my hand that came out of my eyes, for the first time in my life. "wh..what? Why I am... ?"
"Master... You still don't realize " She says as she walks to me " You are no longer expressionless." She begins to wipe my tears. When I almost fell on my knees in surprise that my expression finally returned to me, she grabbed me.
"Master, You still in your mortal form. So... Please, don't push yourself by doing such things. Don't forget, you might not able to show emotions but you still feel those emotions."
Words of her might not have been clear but I know what she meant. As I stood on my two feet again and let myself free from her hands, I said to her " I am not yet a god or a being who can ignore the guilt of erasing those mortals, Is what are you trying to say?"
"....." She didn't answer to my words and her silence...
"Or are you trying to tell me, what I did was wrong and I am just a narrow-minded person who cannot see the world outside this small box of mine, called a brain? Is that why you have brought me to this vast space of the universe? If that's what you think, You are completely wrong. "
after meeting Mikhail, This was the first time when I had to explain my feelings with words. for some reason, In the last few days, I got used to not explaining why I was doing what I was doing.
" I don't know when my expression returned to me but, I'll let you know, the tears you see in my eyes are not for these humans or what you call; Mortals. These tears are pouring out of my eyes for myself. I pity myself, I pity the person I used to be. How I felt at that time, Hopeless, not even being able to lift my hands to protect myself. To be targeted by these so-called humans just cause I couldn't show expressions? They thought I didn't feel anything and caused me grief. You thought I would just let them go? Who do you think I am? I am not a hero or anything. I am Aoi Kichiro, who knows the real depth of despair.
As Mikhail said before, They should glad that I just made them disappear from existence and did not torture them. They should be glad they can still feel the happiness through their memories and forget the feelings that might cause them to suffer. "
Only I know, What I've been through.
She listened to my words and didn't interrupt me when I expressed the extent of hate I feel towards humans and gods. And when I finished talking, her expression didn't change. With that, I came to realize; she is like a doll. Who's only capable of expression that was integrated into her. The smile she showed on her face until was probably facade, as well as the excitement she felt, watching me appear in front of her.
Thus I came to understand the common personality and characteristic of a
"You are a god, no?"
"Yes. I am. God of Nature."
These gods are nothing but empty shells.
"So, tell me what made you care about those mortals? "
"Your action caused the planet B#76 to collapse. Mikhail has destroyed the earth while he tried to save you from God of death, Adger Kichiro. Dear True God, My Father, and Master, Since you were in the form of a mortal, I thought I could manipulate you but I see, You have changed. You are no longer The True God I knew. As for your question, gods are the creator of humans and the planets. They provide essential energy for us to use so, we care about their well-being but not individually, but as a whole. Now since the plane earth is no longer providing sufficient energy, I am suffering. I wanted you to forgive those mortals and with your permission, I wanted to rebuild the planet with the help of the system"
I see so that's what she wanted from start. And to make me pity the one I killed, she showed me them to me. If I had pity those, she would have told me " If you feel that bad, you can bring them back to life and restore the planet. "
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She is a god and this is an opportunity for me to get to know her kind.
"If that's all. Tell me something. I know, gods despise me but why are you different? from the moment I met you, you didn't try to get rid of me neither showed any hostility towards me, Why is that? "
This question might look dumb at first and answer should be obvious but what I want to know, how many reasons there are for her to not try and kill me.
"Master... There are several reasons. You are a true god, you cannot completely die and that is something you should've had already guessed by now since you already have been killed by Adger Kichiro, a God, but yet, here you are, standing in front me."
No, I didn't know. I thought I was in after-life or something like that.
But still, as I said, There is no harm from getting an answer from her even though I can guess the answer. I don't want to be arrogant, who thinks he knows everything. If I can get answers from her, I'll get bits of more information that I am not aware of along with answers.
"As for why I don't show any hostility you. I am a mere god, a child of yours," she says and before continuing, she looks down and for the first time, she shows a sad expression on her face even if that's a deceptive outward appearance."They have forgotten their creator just like mortals. But for some reason, I cannot do the same. I cannot bring myself to forget the person who created me, I cannot possibly forget you. You are dear to me. I tried to oppose those who wished for you to disappear in nothing-ness that you came from but I failed and in the end, you disappeared as you came to be. But your remnants were still left in me and because of that, I never was able to sit along-side with those who wished for you to disappear. I cannot possibly show hostility towards someone so dear to me, like you. " She said but I wouldn't believe her words.
After all, the planet that she oversees is the one where I was born and never once she tried to help me. and the real reason; she didn't try to get rid of me is rather simple, as she said before, she requires my permission to restore the earth and if I happen to disappear, Who would give her that permission? uh? Is this young lady think I am that dumb?
I walked to her and touched her cheek as I said " I see. So, tell me, what do you think of me? not as someone whom you think of a father, your creator but as a person, as a mortal, and as an oppositive gender " she looks at my hand for a second, which is touching her right cheek and then looks at my face. The light she was emitting that could easily blind someone until now, started to dim "In the brightness I shine in, represent my status as a god. But it fades away in front of you. Showing, you are a being above me. " as she grabbed my right hand with both of hands and took it away from her cheek, she processed to bow in front of me while still holding my hand, in the end, she was kneeling in front of me. kissing my right hand. After that kiss, she continues with her words "My action of submission towards you, reflects my admiration and respect for you. I might have tried to do something that no other servants of your might even think of but I still think of you as my father and creator. I cannot possibly put this fact aside and think of you otherwise. Forgive me. "
I stood there in a shock, while she was still on her knees. Even though what I asked her was to know her true intention, I still felt like I got rejected by her in a really strange and misunderstanding way. Why'd she apologize!!?
In any case, I am starting to doubt the idea of ' being her a doll'. She is suddenly showing so many expressions- I cannot tell anymore.
These beings, gods are hard to comprehend, that's for sure.
There are so many unknown factors currently I am facing, I am not sure what I should do or not and what I should believe or not.
Until now, I was trying to throw her off-guard by asking different kinds of stuff or suddenly changing subjects but---It doesn't seem to be working.
And to be honest, I don't want her to be the one asking questions. I rather not give her any information regarding myself or anyone close to me. She might try to blackmail me by kidnaping someone clo....' uh? What she said...'
While she still on her knees, I asked "What did you say about the planet? "
"Master... if you are referring to the planet B#76, known as Earth. Earth no longer exists. It was destroyed by your servant, Mikhail. "
" I see. Can you stand up and tell me, what kind of permission you need from me to restore the planet and its residence" I said to her and she stood up on her feet gracefully. She replied to my words with the question "Master... perhaps, are you worried about them? "She asked while looking at me with a straight face. And I knew, whom she was referring to, they were my parents. those who gave birth to me.
it doesn't matter what kind of person I've become, even if some god bow before me, no matter at which height I stand, I am a son and when no one accepted me for who I was, they did. I am indebted to those two. They are only humans in the entire universe I care about and love.
"Is it strange of me to worry about them? " I replied to her question.
"Not at all...Master. I worry about you, even when I am so insignificant compared to you. So, I do understand. " she answered with that. and for some reason, I finally started to understand where she was coming from, and how she saw me. And with that, I want to know, something.
"What is your name? The God of Nature. " To this question of mine, she simply replied, "I don't have a name. You may refer to me by my title, God of nature" and I came to know, gods don't possess names. Or maybe, she was a special case.
"Since you called me Master, I am gonna assume you intend to follow me. Therefore, I will name you Rebel. You will rebel against all other beings for me. When those gods call you a rebel, they are mentioning you by your name, nothing else. You won't feel anything. " She knows a lot about me now and if she accepts the name I gave her, she'll be someone under my command and having nature under your command is not a bad idea, is it now?
[It is as sir Mikhail had predicated...]
"I thank you... Master. I shall accept your name." Were words she spoke and answered my demand with.
When I was about to speak and finally, asks how to restore the planet earth. System Announced
SYSTEM:- ANNOUNCEMENT;
GOD OF NATURE WAS NAMED REBEL BY THE TRUE GOD, AOI KCHIRO.
ANNOUNCEMENT COMPLETED
"System? Why would the system announce this?" I thought and asked myself but also, spoke out loud.
"Master... to let other gods know, now I belong to you. " She replied
I kept staring at her but the smile she had, it didn't disappear.
SYSTEM:- MINIMUM REQUIREMENTS HAS BEEN MET TO RAISE AUTHORITY OF TRUE GOD, AOI KICHIRO
AOI KICHIRO, THE GOD OF NOTHING TITLED TRUE GOD. NOW POSSES AUTHORITY TO RECONSTRUCT PLANET AND DESTROY
SYSTEM:- MINIMUM REQUIREMENTS HAS BEEN MET TO RAISE AUTHORITY OF TRUE GOD, AOI KICHIRO +2ND
AOI KICHIRO, THE GOD OF NOTHING HAS OBTAINED COMPLETE AUTHORITY OVER TITLE, THE TRUE GOD.
"What is happening??!"
SYSTEM:- ANNOUNCEMENT TO THE ALL BEINGS
YOUR TRUE RULER HAVE RETURNED, YOU SHALL COMPLY TO HIS WISHES.
WARNING/RULE: ANY MISCONDUCT OF A BEING TOWARDS THE TRUE GOD SHALL NOW BE EXTERMINATED WITHOUT A FAIL.
(1) NOW ERASING THE RULE...
(2) ERASED. REQUEST HAS BEEN FULFILLED.
ANNOUNCEMENT COMPLETED
SYSTEM:- CURRENT STATUS OF TRUE GOD FOUND; DEA...
"Oh, yea... I am dead, ain't I? "
SYSTEM:- RECONSUTRINTING THE BODY WITH THE FOLLOWING
DESCRIPTION OF TRUE RULER, TRUE GOD.
NAME: AOI KICHIRO (LIMITED TO HUMAN FORM)
AGER: 18 YEAR (LIMITED TO HUMAN FORM)
GENDER: MALE (LIMITED TO HUMAN FORM)
HEIGHT: 5 FEET 11 INCHES (LIMITED TO HUMAN FORM)
WEIGHT: 54 KG (LIMITED TO HUMAN FORM)
COLOR OF EYES: BLUE (LIMITED TO HUMAN FORM)
OUTFIT: BLACK HIGH SCHOOL UNIFORM (UNKNOWN)
TASKS WERE SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETED
SYSTEM: RECONSTRUCTION OF BODY, COMPLETED
SYSTEM: TRANSFERRING-------
LAST LOCATION OF TRUE GOD'S BODY (STATUS: ALIVE): NOT FOUND
INVESTIGATING... THE PLANET B#76
THE PLANET CODE NAMED B#76: NOT FOUND.
RECONSTRUCTING THE PLANET CODE NAME #B76 IN IT'S LAST KNOWN STATUS: DONE
NAMING THE PLANET WITH IT'S PREVIOUS KNOWN NAME: EARTH
SYSTEM: THE BODY OF TRUE GOD WAS SENT TO IT'S LAST KNOWN LOCATION
SYSTEM: SEARCHING FOR ANY POSSIBLE DANGER FOR TRUE GOD ON THE PLANET EARTH
POPULATION ON PLANET EARTH DETECTED AFTER THE RECONSTRUCTION: 5; EXPANDING...
(1) MIKHAIL, THE FALLEN ANGEL.
CURRENT RANK: SERVANT OF TRUE GOD
CURRENT STATE: DYING
(2) ADGER KICHIRO, THE GOD OF DEATH.
CURRENT RANK: GOD, SERVANT OF TRUE GOD
CURRENT STATE: UNKNOWN.
POSSIBILITY OF CURRENT STATE: DEAD
ERROR: UNABLE TO REVIVE THE GOD OF DEATH FROM--- ERROR
MULTIPLE ERROR WERE DETECTED
DIAG----ERROR---- MULTIPLE ERROR WERE DETECTED
WARNING: THE PLANET EARTH IS COLLAPSING, AGAIN.
SYSTEM: AN INDESTRUCTIBLE BODY WAS DETECTED IN THE CORE OF THE PLANET
SYSTEM: IDENTIFYING THE BODY
SYSTEM: RESULT
ADGER KICHIRO, GOD OF DEATH.
SYSTEM: TRANSFERRING THE BODY OF ADGER KICHIRO...
SYSTEM: SUCCESSFULLY TRANSFERED THE BODY OF ADGER KICHIRO TO LAST KNOW SAFE LOCATION: A HIGH SCHOOL ON THE PLANET EARTH
SYSTEM: ERRORS WERE RESOLVED.
SYSTEM: CONTINUING LAST KNOWN TASK
(2) ADGER KICHIRO, THE GOD OF DEATH.
CURRENT RANK: GOD, SERVANT OF TRUE GOD
CURRENT STATE: UNKNOWN.
POSSIBILITY OF CURRENT STATE: ALIVE
SYSTEM: WARNING, THREAT DETECTED.
ADGER KICHIRO, THE GOD OF DEATH IS IN POSSIBLE THREAT LIST NOW
SYSTEM: SEARCHING FOR MORE INFORMATION ON ADGER KICHIRO.
SYSTEM: FOUND. EXPANDING THE PROFILE
NAME: ADGER KICHIRO
FATHER: AOI KICHIRO
(+) MOTHER: AYUSHI (SYSTEM DETECTED INTEREST IN THE FOLLOWING PERSON---EXPANDING THE DETAILS)
(-) AYUSHI: A HUMAN FROM PLANET B#77
(-) CURRENT STATE OF AYUSHI: ALIVE
(-) CURRENT LOCATION: REALM OF GODS, HEAVEN.
(-) CURRENT EMOTIONAL STATE: ----------UNABLE TO IDENTIFY
SYSTEM: CONTINUING THE PREVIOUS TASK
AGE: 18 (AMISS)
GENDER: MALE
HEIGH: 5 FEET 2 INCH
WEIGHT: 45 KG
BIOGRAPHY OF ADGER KICHIRO: HIS MOTHER WAS LEFT ALONE ON THE PLANET B#77 BY HIS FATHER WHEN HE WAS NOT EVEN BORN. ADGER GREW UP WITHOUT A FATHER IN FORM OF A HUMAN BEING UNTIL HE TURNED 15 YEAR OLD.
AT THE AGE OF 15, HIS MOTHER TOLD HIM HER WISH AND WHAT SHE WANTED AND THE PAST.
HE BECAME FURIOUS WHEN HE HEARD ABOUT HIS FATHER AND WHAT HIS FATHER HAS DONE TO HIS MOTHER. HE SPENT 2 YEARS SEARCHING FOR HIS FATHER BUT HE WAS UNABLE TO FIND HIS FATHER. WHEN WAS DONE WITH HIS SEARCH FOR HIS FATHER, THE PLANET B#77 HAD ALREADY LOST 4.6 BILLION HUMANS BY THE HANDS OF ADGER KICHIRO.
ADGER KICHIRO WAS GRANTED TITLE OF GOD OF DEATH AND HE WAS REBORN AS A GOD AT THE AGE OF 18-YEAR OLD
WHEN HE BECAME A GOD, HE CAME TO KNOW THE TRUTH AND THE TRUE IDENTITY OF HIS FATHER
ADGER KICHIRO'S GOAL CHANGED FROM FINDING HIS FATHER TO KILL THE TRUE GOD, THE ONE WHO WHO KILLED HIS FATHER.
IN THE CURRENT TIMELINE; HE HAS JUST BECAME A GOD AND STILL, WITH TIME LEARNING ABOUT THE TRUTH.
SYSTEM: CONCLUSION:- THE GOD OF DEATH, ADGER KICHIRO POSSES ABILITY TO HARM TRUE GOD. BE CAUTION OF HIS EXISTENCE.
(3) UNABLE TO IDENTIFY BY A NAME
CURRENT RANK: OPERATOR OF THE SYSTEM
EXPANDING THE DETAILS
(+) OPERATOR OF THE SYSTEM
(-) STATUS: WORKING
(-) NAME: NONE FOUND
(-) GENDER: FEMALE
(-) HEIGHT: UNDEFINED
(-) WEIGHT: UNDEFINED
(+) CONDITION OF BODY: 15%
(-) THE BODY WAS FOUND BUT OUTER LAYER IS 85% DESTROYED
(-) SKIN COLOR HAS BEEN CHANGED TO BLACK DUE TO RESTRICTION OF GORE
(-) COLOR OF HAIR: BLACK. REMAINS INTACT
(-) COLOR OF EYES HAS BEEN CHANGED TO BLACK DUE TO RESTRICTIONS
(-) UNKNOW SUBSTANCE WAS FOUND ON THE BODY: CLEANED
(-) CURRENTLY, THE BODY IS DECAYING. RATE OF DECAY: SLOW
(-) CURRENT EMOTIONAL STATE: UNSTABLE
(4) MITSUHASHI, A HUMAN
RANK: UNDEFINED
CURRENT STATE: ALIVE
(5) NAME NOT DEFINED: GUARDIAN OF EARTH
RANK: DEITY
CURRENT STATE: BEING REVIVED...
SYSTEM: SUCCESS
(5) NAME NOT DEFINED: GUARDIAN OF EARTH
RANK: DEITY
CURRENT STATE: ALIVE
Such were words that came rushing to my mind in a second. Those words also rose many questions in my mind, such as
"WHO THE HELL ARE THESE GUYS? "
"Master... I only know a few of them. So, good question!"
SYSTEM: TRANSFERRING TRUE GOD TO ITS HUMAN VESSEL
Finally, I am going back... I thought to myself but the trouble was on its way...
SYSTEM: ERROR-------
SYSTEM: INTERFERENCE DETECTED...
SYSTEM: THE COORDINATE OF TRANSFER HAS BEEN CHANGED BY UNKNOWN MEANS TO UNKNOWN LOCATION: OVERRIDING...
SYSTEM: OVERRIDE FAILED
SYSTEM: A MESSAGE IS RECEIVED BY UNKNOWN PE---- BY OPERATOR OF SYSTEM: DECPRTYING THE MESSAGE: SUCCESS.
" Mas---mast...er.. ple...please.. take me with you.."
MESSAGE END
SYSTEM: THE CHANGES WERE DONE BY OPERATOR OF SYSTEM. CHANGES WERE ACCEPTED.
SYSTEM: TRANSFERRING.
; End of Chapter