I've been invested in this particular story since May. Writing and re-writing. Going through more drafts than I can count. Changing chapters, making mistakes, loving what I write and then hating it all over again.

It's honestly been as agonizing as it always tends to be. I want to write something good, but my skills aren't there yet. I try to veer from the known path and make something a bit more unique, yet I fail to do so because I haven't mastered traditional RR Writing, or even Traditional writing period.

I stand here, 5 months later, not liking the world and story I put so much effort in. Alone, with fake criticism on my first 5 chapters from review swaps and a few shout outs that I regret.

Just like with Eternal Pavilion, The World of Aimon, took more out of me than it gave, and I still don't know if it was any good, because no one ever truly responded to it.

I got one person giving me a comment from the forums. That is it.

Some of the ratings are friends and family, others are fellow author trying to artificially inflate the statistics of their story and my own. I tried it, I hated it, and I stopped it. I don't ever want to do it again.

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I can't help but think that if my story is not being read then it is not good enough.

Did anything within these 120.000 thousand words actually make the readers feel any emotions?

I can't help but think that it didn't.

Myron helping Kill Crone, was that visceral?

Dakini begging for help, did that pull at the heart strings?

Was Taher's introduction disgusting and interesting?

What about the Discrimination against Aimon, did that work in any way to the benefit of the story? Did it feel true?

What about the Plague, the fact that Aether has become a disease? Is that a good addition?

The meeting with the Kitsune, does it have mystery? Do you want to know more?

What about Dakini's evolution?

What about the combat surrounding that Consolidation? Were the fights fun?

Then we meet the princess, is my decision to join the two groups dumb? Or are you all willing to go for the ride?

What about the reunion with Roulon and the ashes of Ylo? Was that scene impactful? Sad? I sure felt touched when I thought it up. Maybe I didn't put the correct framework in place to make it work, but I can't just create entire arcs around singular scenes.

So much I want to know, yet no one is there to speak about it.

That is clearly my own fault. I didn't write a good enough story to engage people enough. They had nothing to speak about. Nothing of note existed within these 120.000 thousand words.

That is the conclusion I have come upon once again, 2 years later.

To those that have invested their time. I'm sorry.

Maybe i'm just too quick to quit. I apologize.

Maybe I'll get back to it when I'm feeling better about it.

Maybe I'll waste my time rewriting it.

That's about it for this rant.

Peace out. Have fun