Hey guys. I was hoping to have released this message out with my new chapter but I couldn't finish it because I was busy writing a review for a fellow writer, some of you guys might see it on the top weekly reviews. Some of this next part is from another post I considered writing but chose not to because I felt it would be unfair to you guys but I think it needs to be said. You see that pinkish link up there? The one that says, "How to support authors?" yeah, I'd like if you guys could check that out.

I wanted to quit writing this story, maybe not forever but for quite some time. Now as many of you might have noticed, it was in past tense meaning not anymore.

For some who read this, hey, it might not be a big deal, I didn't post for like what, five days? Some other authors only post once a week but for someone like me, who posted almost once everyday, it might as well have been a sign that I was going to drop off the face of the earth and the story would never be finished.

Sometimes, I just don't know what to write and the chapter takes a while. Sometimes, I have little motivation and the chapter takes longer because I have to force myself to write it.

I had to force myself to write chapter 12 and I had to force myself to write much of chapter 13. It's funny how one little comment could basically destroy a person's motivation for a little bit eh? I won't say which comment it was, since it was basically the last comment I received, but it really made me angry and a little bit sad all at once. I'm pretty sure the account was created for something close to just that purpose seeing as how it's basically gone inactive once it left that comment.

Just because it was something akin to a random hate comment doesn't mean it didn't affect me. After reading what the guy said, I got really angry because he said that I don't listen to readers. That's where one of my gripes come in. I don't know how you guys feel about my story up to this point. I know that some just don't like commenting but if you've read that link up there, "How to support" everything he says is true. Comments is really all I want. I just want to know what you guys are thinking every now and then.

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I'm not saying that you have to comment every chapter or that you have to write me an advanced review or give me a five star rating. I'm not saying you have to even say good things, I just want you guys to state your opinions every once and a while. 

I want to improve, I really do. But, it's much harder to do it by myself. If you have any specific problems you see or anything you feel, please put them into the comments. Even if you don't like where the story is going, I'd just like to know. Saying that, I'm not going to change the entire course of a story, that's crazy. But, I can use the feedback to slowly improve my story telling abilities. Nothing you say has to be nice nor does it have to be critical, I just really really want to know how you guys are feeling as of where the story is and where it's going.

I'm not done with chapter 13 and I'm not holding it hostage or anything but it'd be nice to hear some voices. I've gotten over my initial want to stop writing thanks to support from another reader. It's hard sometimes to go on writing chapter after chapter with very little to no comments sometimes.

It's like doing something you love and having no one acknowledge you. It's like playing a sport and gaining a nice group of supporters only to have them sit quietly while you play, it's like they're judging you for not being good enough. It's hard sometimes to put these chapters out here but I do it because I want to share my story and have others enjoy it.

I know I'm not anywhere near the top brass of writers on RRL but if you like the story, all I want are a few comments every now and then.

Sorry for not actually posting a chapter and just leaving this somewhat bitter message. I'm also sorry if this seemed like I was blaming any of you guys, but I don't really know what else to say. I've been holding it in for a while and what that guy said really just opened the gates.

What I said may have been repetitive but I'm glad I didn't go with a really ranty version I had. I'll try my hardest to have chapter 13 out by tomorrow.