I took a long sleep till 11 am this morning as I was tired , mentally. I am still processing things about the last night. To distract my mind I called mom and dad for a while. They were happy to listen to my voice. They wished me too. Yes , it is my birthday today . It's summer time , probably a more soothing season than Winter. My colleagues have wished me too and I am preparing some special dishes for myself today. Maybe Indian . I'll think it later as I prefer fried eggs and coffee for breakfast. I fresh myself before going out to check the place for my café. When I was departing , I received a message , it was from Aron.

"Hey>> there is an urgent work , can you please come to THE FUTURE WITH US now."

"Oh , ok , am on my way." I replied

An urgent meeting in the office? I was confused but I booked a cab to go there instead of checking my place. It was a long drive of approx. 45 minutes. I took an apartment far there intentionally so that I can get my mind off work but after seeing Ethan , he is managing both his passion and his responsibility. I am little motivated but I need some time and space off everything as the memories of Fritz still roams around. Moreover , I don't want to engage myself with anyone specially Aron as this time is for me and myself. I am lost somehow but I want to figure it out. I know I should move on but I want someone who can really take me as a priority and not as an option. Specially , I don't want anyone with whom I had a past , a more traumatizing past though.

I reached the office and nothing was changed. I was welcomed and recognised by the guards there. I left my cab and proceeded to enter the building. It all seemed so dark there. No lights were on and I stumbled upon a balloon, lying on the floor . I picked it up and suddenly loud crackers bust over my head, "Surprise , Meli . Surprise , a very very happy birthday to you." My colleagues shouted. I smiled without me knowing. It was a true smile , I was happy to see everyone again. Aron stood at the back with the 4 storied cake on his hand and I sighed at the decorations that were made for me.

"Happy Birthday Melissa , Happy 25 to you , may god bless you forever". Aron said.

"Thank you" I said to him. "Thank you everyone , thanks a lot" I looked around and said.

"Make a wish" Aron said. A wish? What can I wish for? I thought for a second and then said, "I wish to give myself all the happiness that I had taken away from myself" , I said it quietly and Aron could only hear that , then blew the candles. Aron smiled and I bowed to everyone. We cut the cake and distributed. It was a big party indeed. I danced with my colleagues and they laughed with me.

We celebrated so much that I totally forgot to check the place for my café. Anyway , I have time tomorrow as my furnitures might arrive. I had a good day with my colleagues and Aron too. He prepared this , I am thankful.

Sometimes I think that I should give Aron a chance for a relationship but I know what I have been through. I had starved myself , even tried to kill myself because of the pain. He just simply walked out when I really needed him by my side. For him , Mary became his priority back then , Mary , who didn't even knew him well. I didn't envy her , I just wished he understood me . If even I could go to my past , I would never allow myself to get indulged with Aron. If .... I could .... I would .... I really want to get past this.

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The next morning , I had to wake up at 6 am , as the drive to my café is about 2 hours . Yes , its on the country side and Aron proposed to accompany me as I somehow seemed nervous to go there. I didn't disagree as it was Sunday and his office was off. But I know that I have to maintain distance.

He was waiting in his car and opened the door for me, "Good morning , Melissa , so , what's the address of ur shop?" He said. " Hey , good morning, the address is 73 Walter house , on the country side" I said. "2 hours?" he exclaimed. I nodded and he laughed , "That's why we are departing at 6:30 am ... now I understand , never mind , get up in the car , brought coffees." I smiled and hopped in the car. My favourite caramel coffee was there but I didn't say anything just , "Thanks Aron". He nodded and off we go for our journey.

After half an hour , he said , "Melissa , can I ask you a question?" His voice seemed deep .

I nodded but I am afraid everytime he wants to ask something with a serious look.

"I know it's hard to loose Fritz , but you are a young lady ... why don't you like try to uh.... Move on?" he paused. "Aron , I fell in love with Fritz even though I denied it at first, I know that I should um...move on but I also know that until the right person comes , I should not indulge myself , specially with somehow who has traumatized my past". I looked at Aron and he understood that I indicated him.... There was silence. The tears just started to appear in my eyes and I was trying hard to hold it. I couldn't understand why there were tears. I just felt pain like I was lying to myself. Aron pulled up his car , it was near a bridge and the path to country side was full of green lands and our car was the only one. "Open the doors , let's take some rest" Aron said. Had he seen my tears ? I don't know. I quietly went outside as I needed some air.

After a minute , my tears dried up in my eyes . "Melissa , can you admit a truth" He asked. "What truth?" I said quietly. "If I tell you to start all over again , even in the future , will you forgive me and reconsider me , Melissa ? will you love me and be mine forever , will you let me stay beside you and kiss you till the dawn ? will you stay beside me and let both of us be happy?" He stopped.

My eyes grew numb, I ran towards him and hugged him tightly , he did the same to avoid falling and balanced both of us. I said, my voice breaking with tears , "Aron... I love you till now , b...but... I am afraid of loosing you , am afraid that I will hurt myself again, I am afraid of myself , my love never went away , it just faded , faded in those hurtful memories that I can never get out of my mind."

I released myself and ran to the opposite direction where suddenly I was hit by something , something powerful and my world seemed dark. I couldn't feel anything nor see. I just felt my heart getting lighter by the honest confessions but slowly I became blank in my universe.

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