[Date: 9th Hayturn, 147 CA, Flameday.]

2 weeks has gone by now and i guess i got the fundamentals from mum now.

to sumarize typical chanting imagination of magic circle with runes and geomatrical constructs to cast a spell well to hell with that i bet my life on it that all that is just unessecary. imagination is key in here the cicle runes and constructs are just ways to lead the imagination into an pre determined way. sure casting in this way is uniform and the mana consumption is always the same. but i bet that i can also make that happen with only my willpower and concentration. chantless and suptle spells are aparently a thing and my mum told me only the mighty are able to do it. but hell i bet they are only able to do it because they 'mastered' the spells to that point. but what if you train yourself to make your spells to be variable like the imagination you posess from the beginning. well i imagine i will need more training than others but i will in the end be faster in chast time and i can rapid fire spells and multicast diferent spells the more i master my way of casting. well at least that is what i say to myself because my mother taught me a simple light spell without her knowing. lets just say i eperiment with it in the night

I alrady looked inside my system terminal at the ligh spell and… lets just say fuck it either that thing is encrypted or already written in Maschine code or what ever that thing is written in because i am not able to decipher it in the editor i have…. No Editable magic spells for the time but i will keep my eyes open for the oportunity in that direction.

[later]

Well i might have shooked my mum again because she took me out again ans asked me

"Ray what happened to your mana?"

I cooked my head at first but then i remembered that i isolated my mana cores in a sphere of mana to isolate them emitting mana and i evenly distrepute the mana that is catched that way inside my body to a layer so it would only look like my body is mana rich but not capable of magic appearantly a mana rich body at a young age is a good sign for a guard because of fast muscle growth. my dad also had that appearently while now he is only a strong normal man almost no mana left in his body he will still out perform most normal guys.

"i hid it" i told the truth because my mom was already aware of my mana cores.

"but why?"that was the point where she was fist mildly stunned by my words

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"because i don't want to leave the family" i said dropping the act of cute speaking and leaving words out.

That shoocked my mother to the core because first she heard me say clearly what i want and second she got flashbacks at the talk she had with dad at least that is what i guess.

"ray you…" she begann and i smiled a little and interupted her.

"can speak clear?" i nodded "yes mum and i heard what you spoke with dad about kids after their fifth brithday"

"so?" she asked still mouth aghast.

"i Decide to hide it. I will Learn in my own ways, over time with my family, here. No one and nothing will force me away"

The last sentence was said while my face morphed in to a grimm dark face at least as dark a Child face can change to.

What prompted my mother to hug me. I leaned my face against the shoulder of my mum and spoke again.

"mum as you can see i think diffently than other kids i am more mature and honestly i fear to traumatize other children in any way because of the way i am thinking"

I said and i feel the hug tighten "i am not sure how or if i am ever able to explain to you why i am how i am but i love you mother"

" ray but dont phrase it like that it almost feels like a goodbye" my mum said shakenly

"lets say a goodbye to ray the baby and hello to ray the too matue child?" i asked with a smile and i feel the nod of my mother on my tiny shoulder

"i will need training mum Maybe your permission to play in the woods maybe becomming the local hunters apprentice sword training from father healer training from you mum i want to learn as much as i can for one i want to learn what i am good at and for two i want to be able to protect you dad and my cute siblings while they will most likley think the other way around at me" both me and mum chuckled at that because it was a bit surreal for a 4 year old to have this train of thought but my mum understood how i got to this train of thought at least i think she did.

After a few moments of silence my mom sighed "ok ray" she released me from her hug but still had her hand on my shoulders while looking inside my eyes "you want an healers education ok you want dads sword knowlede ok hunter aprentice ok i can live with all that but you my son will not get the normal healer course you will get a battle healer course after the temple assessment you will live trough hell untill i am satisfyed ok ray?" she said her fiery look in her eyes, this flame i did not know in them sends chills down my spine but i grinned and nodded "exactly what i wanted mum" she grinned also "and dont tell dad he would not react well" she said to me what promted another nod from me.

"ok go ray i will give you your permission for the woods but you have to stay in an 1.5 kilometer radius to the village and you have to be back before sundown ok??"

"yes mum!" i promted

"good off you go, steel yourself and let me handle dad on that matter" she said while she tapped my back to prompt me to go.

And off i got sprinting making my mana circulate in the vein and mana cores rotated in max output.

My mum stayed back a smile on her lips "i already tought so but he is already mana output vise on paar with me"

She muttered to herself "i will have to step up the game 10 notches if i have to train him then. Or maybe…"

She looked in another direction with a devil grin "time to visit an old friend"