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Chapter 4

The corridors were quiet this early in the morning, the soft glow of dawn just beginning to seep through the high windows. I walked alongside Keiko, her presence a comforting anchor in the sea of my thoughts. Today was a significant day, a reminder of the journey I had embarked upon years ago—a journey of becoming my true self.

The air was cool and crisp, the scent of dew-laden gardens drifting through the halls. My mind wandered back to when I was fifteen, a time when confusion and fear had gripped me tightly. It was during those years that I had finally understood what had been gnawing at my soul: I was not meant to be male. The revelation had been both liberating and terrifying.

"I remember the first time I told my parents," I said, my voice soft as we turned a corner. Keiko glanced at me, her eyes warm with understanding. "I was so scared they wouldn't understand, that they might reject me."

Keiko reached out, giving my hand a reassuring squeeze. "But they didn't," she said, a statement more than a question.

"No," I agreed, a small smile tugging at my lips. "They were incredible. My father, especially—I was terrified he would change his mind about me being his heir. But he didn't. He just hugged me and told me that I was still his child, no matter what."

The memory of that day was vivid in my mind. My father's embrace had been strong and unwavering, his words a balm to my wounded heart. My mother had cried, but they were tears of relief and love, not of sorrow. Their support had been a foundation upon which I built my new life.

"You're fortunate," Keiko said, her voice tinged with a hint of envy but mostly filled with genuine happiness for me. "Not everyone has that kind of support."

"I know," I replied, gratitude swelling within me. "And that's why I don't take it for granted."

We arrived at the family physician's chambers, the door already slightly ajar. Dr. Jaiya Marlowe had been with our house for as long as I could remember, her presence a steady and reassuring constant. She had taken over from the previous physician, who had passed away peacefully in his bed two decades ago. Dr. Marlowe was a woman of great knowledge and even greater compassion.

Inside, the room was warm and inviting, filled with the faint aroma of herbs and medicinal concoctions. Dr. Marlowe looked up from her desk as we entered, her kind eyes lighting up with a smile.

"Sirah-sama, Keiko-san, welcome," she greeted, standing to embrace me warmly. "How are you feeling today?"

"Nervous, but good," I admitted, returning her embrace. Keiko and I took seats opposite her desk, the wood polished to a deep sheen.

Dr. Marlowe nodded, her expression thoughtful. "It's natural to feel that way. But you've made remarkable progress, Sirah-sama. Your journey has been an inspiration."

Her words were a reminder of the milestones I had reached, each step a victory in its own right. Hormone replacement therapy had been a part of my life since I was fifteen, each dose a small but significant stride towards aligning my body with my true self.

"Thank you, Marlowe-sensei," I said, gratitude evident in my voice. "You've been such a crucial part of this journey."

She smiled, a touch of pride in her eyes. "It's been an honor to walk this path with you. Your strength and resilience have been extraordinary."

Keiko leaned forward, her curiosity piqued. "Marlowe-sensei, can you tell us more about the process? As many times as I’ve come here with Sirah-sama, I haven’t fully wrapped my head around it all."

Dr. Marlowe nodded, her demeanor shifting into that of a teacher ready to impart knowledge. "Of course. Hormone replacement therapy, or HRT, involves the administration of hormones to induce physical changes aligned with your gender identity. For Sirah-sama, this meant estrogen and anti-androgens to reduce the effects of testosterone."

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I listened intently, though I had heard these explanations before. Each repetition reinforced my understanding and commitment. "The changes occur gradually," Dr. Marlowe continued, "and include the development of secondary sexual characteristics such as breast growth, redistribution of body fat, and changes in skin texture."

Keiko glanced at me, a soft smile playing on her lips. "I remember when you first started. You were so eager and nervous all at once."

I chuckled, the memory bringing a sense of nostalgia. "I was. Every small change felt monumental. It was like watching a new version of myself emerge in the mirror."

Dr. Marlowe's eyes sparkled with warmth. "And you embraced each change with grace. It's not an easy journey, but you've navigated it with remarkable resilience."

Her words brought a sense of pride and validation. "I had a lot of support," I said, glancing at Keiko, whose unwavering friendship had been a cornerstone of my strength.

"Support is crucial," Dr. Marlowe agreed. "And it's clear that you have a wonderful support system."

The conversation flowed, touching on the medical aspects of my transition, the emotional highs and lows, and the unwavering support of my family. Each word was a thread in the tapestry of my journey, weaving together the complexities of my identity.

Dr. Marlowe leaned back, her eyes softening with a personal touch to her professional demeanor. "You know, Sirah-sama, when I first started serving House Veros, I had big shoes to fill. The previous physician had been a pillar of this family, much like you are becoming now."

I was curious about the previous physician, who had served so faithfully until his peaceful passing. "What was he like?" I asked.

Dr. Marlowe smiled, a distant look in her eyes. "He was wise, patient, and deeply committed to the well-being of everyone here. I learned a great deal from his notes and the legacy he left behind. It's a privilege to continue his work, especially when I see the positive changes in patients like you."

Her words were a reminder of the continuity and care that underpinned House Veros, a legacy of service and dedication that extended beyond individual lifetimes. It was comforting to know that I was part of something greater, a lineage of resilience and support.

As we wrapped up the appointment, Dr. Marlowe handed me a small vial of medication. "Your next dose," she said with a reassuring smile. "And remember, Sirah-sama, you're not alone in this. We're all here for you."

I took the vial, the weight of it symbolic of the many steps I had taken and those yet to come. "Thank you, Dr. Marlowe-sensei. For everything."

Leaving her chambers, I felt a renewed sense of purpose and strength. Keiko walked beside me, her presence a comforting constant. "You really have come a long way," she said softly, admiration evident in her voice.

"I have," I agreed, feeling the truth of her words resonate within me. "And there's still more to come."

We walked in silence for a while, the halls echoing with our footsteps. The sun had risen higher now, casting a warm glow through the windows, filling the space with light and hope.

"Keiko," I said after a moment, my voice thoughtful, "thank you for being here with me. For always being here."

She smiled, her eyes bright with emotion. "Always, Sirah-sama. I'm proud of you."

Her words wrapped around me like a warm embrace, and I knew that whatever challenges lay ahead, I would face them with the same strength and determination that had brought me this far.

The day continued, filled with the usual duties and responsibilities, but my mind often wandered back to those early days of my transition. I recalled the countless hours spent in front of the mirror, scrutinizing every change, celebrating each milestone. The support of my parents had been unwavering, their acceptance a cornerstone of my confidence.

My father's words echoed in my mind, a constant reminder of his faith in me. "You are my child, Sirah, and you always will be. Your strength lies in your truth."

It was a truth that I had embraced fully, and it had shaped me into the person I was today. Each step of the journey had been a testament to my resilience and the unwavering support of those around me.

As the day drew to a close, I found myself back in my chambers, the events of the day replaying in my mind. The sunset cast a golden hue over the room, and I felt a deep sense of gratitude for the path I had walked.

Keiko joined me, her presence a comforting constant. We sat by the window, watching the sun dip below the horizon, the sky painted in hues of pink and orange.

"Sirah-sama," Keiko said softly, breaking the silence. "I'm so glad you found the strength to be yourself. You've inspired so many, including me."

Her words touched me deeply, and I felt a swell of emotion. "Thank you, Keiko-san. Your support has meant the world to me."

We sat in companionable silence, the bond between us stronger than ever.