My name is Ciel.

When I was seven, our family was attacked by humans.

I was hiding, I can’t remember where… I just… hide.

I saw my parents were murdered and my brothers and sisters were captured.

I don’t understand.

Why did they attacked us? What did we do?

And then I remember, we kill humans too.

We kill them for their bloods to make us stronger. That’s why they attacked us.

I survived, but my family didn’t.

I saw those people stabbed and pulled out my brothers and sisters hearts as if it were nothing.

Vampire’s heart could make the mortal become immortal to whoever eats it. But it was just a story, a legend, a tale a myth… There’s no such things… but they still took it anyway.

Every time I remember what happened, I would cry until I fell asleep. When I woke up, I cried again and repeated the same cycle over and over again.

Until one day, I stopped crying.

I’m tired… of crying, I don’t want to be a crybaby anymore. I want to grow up. I want to become an adult.

I don’t feel hunger nor thirst. I can survive without doing anything.

But I need to train my body to become strong enough to overcome the burden of the power.

I don’t know what they mean when they said ‘burden’. But they said we have to train our body or we will die because the ‘burden’ is too heavy to be carried.

I stood on the front door. I opened it and saw the outside world.

It was scary. The moment I saw the sun, the soil, the grass… I was scared. I don’t want to go outside. I’m scared of the people, humans, living creatures. They reminded me of a painful memory.

And so, I trained in the house.

I’m a vampire, my physical strength would grow stronger by itself, I just need to cultivate my mana control. The better I’m at controlling it, the stronger my Soul Essence will be.

8 years passed in the blink of an eye.

I’ve cultivated my mana control everyday. Not even once I neglected to train, but… I always fail at controlling my mana.

I can’t use it continuously, I only can maintain it for a couple of minutes. I don’t know about today’s technology, so I don’t know about what is my current strength is.

I’m sure I would be much more stronger at that time if only… I didn’t have those nightmares.

for the past 8 years, I always having nightmares. It was about that memory, it never ends. I woke up in the middle of the night only to be woken up again in the morning, covered with cold sweat. My life will never be the same anymore.

However, I’ve gain something too.

I’ve developed a Soul Weapon. It’s a sword. It has a very pretty ornament with a red ruby embedded in the quillons. I was very happy, the sharpness can cut steel and rocks without getting chipped.

However everything changed when a golem… a man came into my house.

His name is Len.

He has a body of a golem, but his soul is a human.

Just like any other day, it was boring without anyone to talk to, but suddenly I heard the front door was opened by someone. It’s him, Len.

I hid in the darkness, waiting for him to come closer.

Actually I don’t even know what I’m doing.

I hate human, even until now I still do. But what I’m supposed to do? Why I’m hiding from him? What is his objective?

My heartbeat increased by seconds and finally he opened the front door and came inside.

His appearance looks weird. He is a golem, but… there’s also a bit of skin covering him. What kind of golem is this?

He walked around, checking whatever in his vision.

‘What I’m supposed to do?’ I thought.

Suddenly, he turned his head and looked at me. How did he find out? I can blend in with the darkness, even I erased my presence. This man… is a monster.

I attacked him in panic, I punched him in the stomach and he was blown away, smashed to a wall.

I was stupefied, I didn’t know I was this strong. However, something that I never expect happened.

He stood up.

I was shocked beyond reason. My punch was able to destroy the wall but not him? He made out of rocks! How can he withstand the damage!?

No… His stomach was cracked.

I asked him who is he, and what did he wants from me but he didn’t answer. He remained silent and stood there.

He’s not answering me, he’s ignoring me, he’s… underestimating me.

I remember...

I remember one of those human. Those humans who killed my family, they… they underestimated us! They laughed at us! They abused us!

Just like those humans, this man is underestimating me!

Every golem always has a magic crystal embedded somewhere in their body and I know every golem can speak through those magic crystals! As long as the puppet master wants it to say a certain words, it can speak.

Anger overcame me and I summoned my Soul Weapon.

I tried to attack him but just as my sword about to reach him, a big wolf suddenly came out and tried to bite me. He’s fast, but not fast enough as me, I was able to dodge his attack but it’s 2 vs 1 now. I’m at a disadvantage.

I took a stance to release my Soul Essence, it could strengthen my body by ten folds. My body transformed into a true vampire… not entirely. I can’t perfectly transformed my body, my mana cultivation isn’t good enough. Wings grew from my back and my canine grew longer.

But he did something that shocked me again, instead of fighting me with numbers, the wolf just walked away and sat on the ground, keeping distance from me.

He… He… underestimated me too much! I’m not weak! I’m… not weak…

I really am not… truly.

Suddenly, a black flame-like aura engulfed his body, it’s… a Soul Essence. What…?

Black sword was formed by his Soul Essence… it’s a Soul Weapon…

A golem… with a Soul Essence and Soul Weapon?

I was confused, I attacked him in anger and yelled at him.

‘Tell me who you are! Why a golem can use a Soul Weapon!? Answer me!’

We clashed and sparks flew off everywhere. However, he still remained silent. But what truly surprised me more, is that he can withstand my Soul Weapon. Does it mean… his Soul Essence is stronger than mine?

When I mentioned Soul Weapon, he dozed off for a split second. That was enough for me to land a hit on him. I kicked his chin but he stood up again.

‘How can this be?’ I thought.

Our fight was already determined from the very start when I attacked him. I can’t win against him.

I was going mad, he ignored me like I wasn’t there. He keeps dodged my attacks without retaliating at all. And then I realized, I was crying.

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I wasn’t able to maintain my Soul Essence and my Soul Weapon any longer… finally my Soul Essence dispersed.

But I didn’t gave up, I keep attacking him even without my Soul Essence, it was ended in vain.

He was able to block my sword attack with his bare-hand. That was the moment I lost it.

I cried and screamed at him, ‘Why won’t he answer me?’ ‘Why is he stronger than me?’. Those thought flowed through my mind at that time.

At that moment, I thought I was already a dead woman. I was powerless and hopeless. I lost the fight.

I’m sorry dad, mom… I can’t have revenge after all…

I closed my eyes waiting my for my death, but it never came. Instead, I heard something dropped on the ground.

It’s my sword, he dropped my sword on the ground.

Why…?

And then, he pointed at his throat while shaking his head. I don’t get it.

His face palmed himself and walked around and came back to me with a paper. He wrote something on it with my sword. I almost screamed ‘That’s not a pen!’ at him, but I didn’t.

He wrote, ‘I can’t speak, I’m a golem, I don’t even breathe.’ it said.

I was dumbfounded by him. ‘Is he trying to trick me?’ I thought at that time.

I asked him about it, he answered that he really doesn’t know anything. But, how does one made and control a golem without knowing the basics?

Suddenly, something crazy popped out in my mind… is he… ‘sentient’?

He tried to convince me, but I didn’t believe him… until he showed me his Soul Essence. It was an irrefutable proof of his existence, that golem is a man.

I was confused really bad at that time, it happened so fast.

I gave him a low grade magic crystal so he can talk, it wasn’t a really good idea really.

He told me that he found this house which he called ‘mansion’ by coincidence and he has lost his memories. He didn’t truly expected me believe something like that did he?

He wanted me to show him the library, the books… ‘He’s an ignorant man.’ I thought, he came into my house and the first thing he asked me after our fight is about books!

But… was that truly all? Did he came here just for books?

I doubted him, I hypnotized him and asked, ‘You didn’t come here to take my heart, are you?’.

And his answer stupefied me. It was a ‘no’.

I was sure he would say ‘yes’, but it was a ‘no’. Why? Humans… was supposed to be evil… right?

He was angry at me, I thought he would kill me but he didn’t. He forgave me.

Just after he said he forgave me, he collapsed. I didn’t know what was happening. Everything happened so fast.

‘I could kill him.’ ‘He’s vulnerable, it’s either now or never.’ ‘What I’m waiting for? I just need to crush his head! He’s unconscious!’

No matter how many times I tried to gather my courage, it was useless. I can’t kill him. Why? Why can’t I kill him?

I fell on my knees and cried like a little child. I don’t know what possessed me at that time, but I felt I wanted to cry. I cried really hard at that time.

Instead of killing him, I brought him and put him on my bed. He was heavy but I’m stronger than I look. I noticed that he was covered by skins. ‘What is that?’ ‘Is he cursed?’ I thought, it was a bit childish.

I sat on one of the chair, contemplated about killing him or not. And then I realized it was already too late.

He suddenly screamed, ‘Ahh!!’. It was pretty loud even I’m shocked by him too.

My mind goes blank and I said ‘I’m sorry!’ at him without thinking. Even I’m confused by my own words.

After a couple of awkward conversations, it seems he was truly didn’t know anything about this world.

When I explained him about the world ranks and races, he tilted his head in confusion. ‘Who is he? How come this man is so ignorant of the world?’ I thought, and then I realized that I’ve never stepped outside this mansion. Ever.

Suddenly, he asked something that’s rather awkward.

‘Say… do you drink bloods?’ He asked.

The scene of carnage replayed in my mind. I felt a shiver down my spine.

And somehow… one way or another… I told him all about it… about what what happened to my family and to me.

Why?

Why I’m telling all this?

Well, at that time I don’t understand… Now I do.

I wanted… a companion. A friend. Someone that I can talk to.

8 years of silence, of loneliness, of nightmares, of despair… finally ended.

Finally I have someone that understands, that listens, that… cares…

All those heavy burdens on my chest finally gone. I felt… happiness, a sense of relieve.

I cried so hard until I fell asleep without even realizing it.

For the past 8 years, finally, for the first time, no nightmares. No more stupid nightmares, all those burden is gone. But I knew… I knew for sure, my hatred toward humans will never disappear.

When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was the ceiling of my bed room with Len sitting on a chair beside me.

I was quite shocked, I thought ‘What is he doing there?’. He sat there motionlessly, looking at my face. I was embarrassed, thinking about what happened before makes my face hot every time.

“... How do you feel?” He asked with a hoarse voice but somehow… gentle.

“... I… I’m alright…” I was so embarrassed that I didn’t dare to look him in the face.

“It’s okay you know? … I don’t know if I can be of any help, but I will try and listen.” He said with indifferent tone.

“Huh!? A-about what?” I tilted my head in confusion.

“I know… I knew how you feel believe it or not. No child in the whole world must see their own parents and brothers got murdered in front of their own eyes. You have suffered for how long was it again? 8 years? I don’t know if I would still be sane by now if I were you.”

He said, while looking outside the window.

His words at that time melted my heart. His tone, his words, his attitude… I felt it. I knew at that time, he truly knows what he’s talking about. He understands me.

“I… suffered too, you know, it’s just…” He stopped talking in the middle of sentence and just gazed outside the window. He’s like a man who have been through the sweetness and the bitterness of the world.

And finally here I am. Sitting on the bed and the guy beside me is Len, the mysterious man-golem, who invaded my home with his loyal companion, Ren, who is an unknown breed of monsters.

Now, I’m certain of one thing. I wanted to know about him more. Who is he, where did he born and when, how did he ended up in his current situation, why is he so ignorant, who is Ren, why is he following Len and very loyal to him, how did he acquire a Soul Weapon, where did he learned to control his Soul Essence, how come he lost his memories, and there’s so many more questions I wanted to ask him…

And more importantly, I want… to be your friend.

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