I hate a lot of things, myself, this city, memories and people.  Wherever there are people, there is suffering, there is bad influence, repentance and guilt.  The world is dry while rain falls on it, which the earth will not absorb.  Everything is gray no matter how hard someone tries to fill it up, the color will not be accepted.  In time, everything will just fade as if nothing happened.  Is it worth living in such a world then?  Then why the need for anything when there is nothing anyway?

 I started going to school again after a long time out of contact with people.  My mother passed away when I was a kid, 8 years old.  Father drinks, gambles and whores wherever he goes.  He has been behaving like that since my mother passed away.  We are supported by my grandmother whose pension we live on.  I fought with my father because of his addiction problems.  He says I’m still a kid and I should not mind his buisness.  It was difficult to have a discussion with him, this is neither the first nor the last fight. I always get beaten and that is hard.  I didn't go to school because I was all bruised. On weekends, I leave the house just so that I wouldn't be close to him and problems.  I just want peace, even though it’s impossible, I want a normal life.  I want a change I can't get.

 On the way to school, I go alone, I sit alone, I eat alone, I study alone and I do everything myself.  I don’t like people, they are all the same as their greed.  But one person in this world was not like that.  My mother gave everything for me.  She sacrificed everything for my good and my happiness.  I don't know if I will meet such a person again in my life and I doubt very much that I will.

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 I sit on the bench and look out the window, I don't care about anything.  Professor Draga enters the classroom.  She has long brown hair, green eyes and a big smile on her face most of the time.  Ugh, I hate it.  The facade she is putting on is obvious.  And no, I don't mean makeup.

 She brings a new student who moved to our class today.  I've never seen him in my life, he looks like Harry Potter but without glasses and a brain.

 Good morning II-1, new student Mickey joined us today.  Welcome Mickey!

 Thank you very much!  Hi everyone, I'm Mickey.  I attended elementary school in Frankfurt and two years of high school in Berlin.  Now, I somehow got here because of my parents' job, so I'll finish high school with you.  I hope we get along!

 Thanks Mickey, go sit on the bench in front of Kiry.

 This moron is sitting in front of me.  I want to kill myself, now I'm going to get tired of making friends.  Here he is, sitting in front of me.  It’s fine, he didn't turn around.  No no here he turned.  Aghhh

 Hi I'm Mickey, and you must be Kiry, right?

 Well… Yes I am

 Nice to meet you!

You Too!

* Sigh.. I am dying of happiness here.*

 Do you want to show me around school?

 Why don't you ask the class president?

 Well I don’t get along with everyone and I don’t really like a big company.

 Okayyyyyyy come on

 I take him around the school and explain to him where what is like an imbecile.  Alas, will this day end?

 I'm sorry, but who is she?

 A girl with lilac hair and pink eyes.  The most popular girl in school, convincingly.  Not only because she is smart, but because of her beautiful appearance, almost every guy, except me of course, wants her for a girlfriend.