Today marked one month after my reincarnation.

There was a lot I didn’t understand about my new life but some things were very clear.

This world where I reincarnated was not Earth. To be precise, this world was entirely different from my previous world.

One of the strangest things about this world was the presence of Mizuna, what earthling called “Magic”.

The language and writings of this world were also very different from Earth, which made it harder to understand this world.

The place where I was born was an orphanage. At first, I thought it was a big family with many maids but after my birth, the only grown-up I saw were women wearing a maid outfit.

Also, many boys and girls would come to see me every day. Some visited regularly and some, I had only seen their face one time.

There might be many others I had not seen so far but I guess it can wait.

There were these two girls and a boy who visits me all time. At first, I hated them teasing and caring for me but now I was okay with it.

I didn’t want children twelve years mentally younger than me to care for me.

The morning Sun rose as red rays entered the room through the window. The half sun was still behind the mountains, spreading the sky with red paint.

The light forced me to open my eyes. Standing near me was Raina who was my primary caretaker.

Raina was a middle-aged woman who hardly smiled. But she was extreme when it comes to taking care of me. Also, she was one of the only two adults who can use Mizuna here.

She fed me some milk and checked my body around. Later, cleaned me with wet clothes.

As a maid, she was a remarkable woman and the one I most respected. She was always serious and calm. She praised me when I completely eat my food and raged at me when I potty on my sheets.

She gave me things that I never experienced in my previous life.

After she exited, came the trio of children.

Mayu, who was the oldest took me out from my bed and started spinning with me on her hands. Shina’s eyes were twinkling after seeing me flying.

Mayu handed me over to Dayson but he blushed and rejected me. He was what we called a tsundere. He came to visit me all time along with the other two but refuses to admit his care for me.

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Either way, he was no harm. The two girls were saying something to me which I hardly understand. But I knew they were praising my childish features.

After playing for more than two hours, Leefy sent them back.

Leefy was also my caretaker. She was a young woman in her twenties. Her face was pretty cute along with her personality.

She was the one who spoiled me most and had a similar face to my late mother of this world. She would always carry me around the orphanage and outside.

I don’t know if it was because of their similar face, but she was like a motherly figure to me and the one I mostly loved after coming to this world.

It would be not false to say that I had a slight romantic interest in her. But for the most part, she was my ideal woman and if I marry someone in the future, I want her to be like Leefy.

At first, I rejected Leefy with everything but she found a way through me and helped me survive this world.

After coming to this world, I felt like it was a dream even though it was not. I was afraid to be close with someone because I feared that one day I wake up and everything will end. I was afraid of thinking about my future in this world and was hardly willing to do anything.

Other thought I was ill and consulted many doctors but I know no one could heal me. I was facing a rare condition in which the more I hope, the more I will get hurt.

I met Leefy on my fifth day after coming here. She was smiling bright and high when I first saw her face. She was the type of human I hated the most in my previous life. She was the absolute opposite of me, who was always cheering and alluring.

But meeting her didn’t disgust me. Also, she didn’t attract me then. Her existence was not at all significant to me.

She was always by my side after our first encounter and smiled at me irrespective of my action. Sometimes, when I had her at her limits, she angered me still never avoided me.

Day by day she became closer to me and cared for me most. Still, I didn’t want to be attracted by her. She was the type if I started to love, then will cause me the most pain if I wake up from this dream.

One day, when we were out, Leefy suddenly collapsed. She said to others that she could still work but others forced her to take a rest.

I knew that her cause of the collapse was overworking. For the last ten days, she was trying her hardest to be on my good side.

But everything broke down on that night.

When I was sleeping, I felt a gentle touch on my forehead. I could hear Leefy’s voice. It was trembling. She was sad and the reason was mostly me.

I slightly opened my eyes making it hard for her to notice. In front of me was Leefy’s smiling face with watery eyes.

A sudden spike of pain struck my head. It was the same feeling I had at my dying moment in previous life.

The feelings of regret.

Leefy sneaked out of her room in the middle of night and came to see me because she cared about me. Even though having an ill body, she came to see me.

The face I was saw was the face of a person who wants the other to not hate them. The same face I made when on my previous life when aunt rejected me.

When I came to this world, I promised myself to live a life without any regrets even if it’s a dream.

I was wrong. It’s because I thought it was a dream, I can’t live my life to its fullest. I was making the same mistake from my previous life.

Hurting others because of my selfishness. I don’t want it anymore.

This is real. Not dream. Nothing else matters.

I slowly opened my eyes fully and caught her hands. Leefy’s looked at me, surprised.

I hugged her hands tightly and smiled at her.

An outburst of tears came out from her eyes and her smile became more real. She held me up and hugged me tight, still sobbing.

I don’t know why she loved me like this but it was real. Her feelings were real and also mine.

That night was warmer than every other night I had before. My feelings were not heavy anymore and I can now truly live my second life to its fullest.