He was like most kids his age at his infant and toddler years. It was only during when he started in middle school that he became special and started to develop in both personality and physical form. He began to become how I had wished for him to be ever since I started my responsibilities as a guardian angel. He started becoming my ideal man.
All that he was as a person and as a boy was because of me. Ever since he was born every night I would appear in his dreams. When I first started appearing in his dreams I thought that they would make no difference at all. Apparently, I was wrong and through time they did. I actually had a solid reasoning for my thoughts that I'm appearing in his dreams wouldn’t change him. After all, when I was a human I could barely even remember a miniscule part of them and when I did remember more than that I wouldn’t have a clear idea about what happened. Even though I thought it would make no difference I decided to continue with it because I liked his dreams and I enjoyed interacting with him even if it would be forgotten as he woke up in the morning.
When I was a human I never fell in love or even had a crush. All I ever had was just a faint almost unnoticeable feeling. I never spent my days obsessed with anyone, never. Maybe that was my biggest regret, focusing all my life for academics for a high paying job in the future. I always thought that there would be time for all that ‘love stuff’ when I go older and could support myself. I always thought I would be the perfect girlfriend.
In the end I never got to see if that was true or not. I’m not even sure if I can have a relationship like that in heaven. I remember reading in the bible that in heaven we are all brothers and sisters. I wouldn’t like to have incest no matter how beautiful all the men are in heaven. But seriously when I first came to heaven I felt like everywhere I looked I would go blind by all the handsomeness these angels had. On that point can you even get sick or go blind in heaven? I don’t think so. I was a sheltered and shy girl and I felt extremely out of place.
My ideal man or boy in this case was not as complicated like most girls would imagine their knight in shining amour. I though a little bit more realistically and imagined a man my age or around my age, he would have blue eyes but he would be from another place meaning that he would be bilingual. He absolutely could not be naive or too innocent, that would make me feel bad for him. He would be nice but would know when to draw the line. He would calm but when he would get angry, he would get angry, except not with me. He would be handsome but would not even notice and would think that he was average. He would be better than average, not a smarty pants or a know-it-all, that’s my job. He would never be arrogant but he would be humble. When he would fall in love he would be committed and honest to a fault.Yet he would know how to lie in matters outside our relationship. Okay, maybe it is a bit complicated.
I had drilled these things into his head for the lucky girl that would get to marry him. But it was when in he he had his first sexual dream that I started to think of him like that. Since the beginning at most there has been a maternal or motherly love. That dream really woke me up and made me realize that he was the man of my dreams.
Soon after I started gaining feelings for him. I began feeling interest in him, then I started to have a real crush on him, and then I really started to love him. I wanted to do something about this love for him, I wanted to express it with him, I wanted to be with him. I was not satisfied with just dreams. But in order to be with him I had to go down to earth in a physical form, I encountered 2 problems. My first problem was that if I wasn’t there to guard him in spirit form then who would? When I thought about it later I realized that I could just go to the same school as him and then live next to him and change forms there. The second problem was that it probable wasn’t allowed. But when i talked to my superiors about it they told me something unexpected.
You might be reading a pirated copy. Look for the official release to support the author.
It was during break time when I went to go talk to them. I was surprised to find that their headquarters were like a normal office down on earth. An angel with shorter wings than mine was the secretary. She was wearing a black pants suit with a white collared button up shirt. I went up to her and said, “ Excuse me, I need to speak to the head angel, Adair.” Now, I’m not confident, in fact, I was actually surprised that I got it out without stumbling. I had planned the exact words I would say in my head.
She looked up from her computer and started at me until she opened her mouth to say, “May I ask who is asking for him?” I replied simple and sweetly, “Clarisse.” She typed something quickly on her computer and stood up to show me the way. Other than “Here he is.
Adair was the angel who was in charge of being my guide to adjusting in heaven. He was one of the few high angels who willfully volunteered to be guides. Most wouldn’t be bothered. But at least he was one of the better of them, right? No, he wasn’t, well, in personality he was one of the tricksters of hel- I mean heaven. How did he even get allowed into here? He only likes to guide people for the sake of seeing them make fun of themselves due to unclear instructions. For example when I first became an angel he told me that I had to find a place to rent so I could sleep. How would I know that angels don’t exactly sleep and that when they do that they just relax? So, like an idiot when my human instincts told me it was night I asked nearby angels where there was an available place to settle in for the night. They laughed at me and pointed to a small yet fancy building away from other angels. When I followed their instructions I was led to the building with fancy pink lights saying “Your desires will be fully satisfied here.>o”
I’m not stupid, I knew what that meant. That day I was so embarrassed I stayed huddled in the corner of the nearest place available. They must’ve thought I was a slut! I didn’t even know we could do that here! Ugh, I’m getting off topic. As soon as I got over it I yelled at Adair for not telling me. He laughed at me and then clarified on the subject. Since that incident I only come to him when I need permission to do things i can’t find about in physical or online guidebooks. You’d think there should be something more convenient like a knowledge transfer, maybe a pill. Wait, maybe he’s just hiding that information to mess with me!
But if a relationship with the person you’re guarding wasn’t allowed I’m sure he would let me “for fun.” So, it had to be him. When I told him he was actually about to burst with that special smirk of his. That smirk was the sign for trouble. He made that same smirk when he told me to find a place to “spend the night.” If I could slap him or even kill him without getting punished I would, I would. But I’m a pure angel in love, right??!
___
Leave your thoughts in the comments! Thank you for reading.