My heart was shattered that day.  It was on that day that I realized that life had an end, and that mine was coming.  It was on that day that I realized that I was going to die.  Leukemia, they told me.  It's almost over. I didn't know what to do after that.  I thought that maybe it would be best to die right then, get it over with.  I thought that I could push myself away from all my friends, all my family, stop them from missing me after I was gone.  I thought that I could handle it on my own, that perhaps the world was better off without me. I was wrong.    My name is Alyssa Gray, and by the time you finish reading this, I'll be dead.   ________________________________     A few warnings and things to note: -I've put up the tramatising content tag due to a lot of mentions on death, dying, illness, and a mother who tends to be rather cruel.  I know that I take a perspective that many will strongly disagree with, and I'm okay with that.  Just be warned that this isn't lighthearted stuff.  This is real, and death is real, and this part streaches beyond the fiction into reality. -I'm going to say a minor spoiler, but I don't want it to take you unaware because it is something to be aware of.    At one point, my MC attempts suicide and fails.  It's a very violent scene and I will put up the gore tag after writing this, and it's also just really depressing.  If this will be triggering, you need to be aware of this before you read it.  -This is a christian book.  It may go against some of your beliefs.  I hope that you can read and comment anyway even if some of it does not sit well with you.  Credits for the cover go to the user 'Media in Sanity'.  Your help and assitance has meant so much to me, God bless you in your writing and your endevours.   A proud member of WriTE.  I've promised to finish this fiction and update it at least once a month.  My schedule is very irregular, and I'm working on that, but I'm going to do everything I can to make sure that this book stays out there.  I'm not ending it until it's done.