A few days passed since the 'Polyetta incident' and everyone returned to their usual life. Emely continued working on the time anchor to prevent the anomaly's birth while the others enjoyed their free time in this peaceful moment. The only one who seemed unhappy was Yada, barely leaving her room and ignoring everyone else on the ship. Neige decided it was enough and went into her room, hoping to cheer up his old friend. The man brought a few sweets in the hope of bringing a smile to her face, but Yada just stared at him, not even standing up from the bed she was lying on.

"Ina cooked a few things for you, you should eat while it's still warm."

Neige sat on the woman's bed and offered her the food, but instead of a smile, Neige was met with an empty face.

"I'm not hungry."

"How can you not be? Have you even eaten since..."

"Just tell Emely to finish her time thing, I'm too tired to do it."

Neige poked Yada's face and tried to put the food directly in her mouth. Despite all his attempts, the woman barely gave a reaction, instead staring at him blankly.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm worried for you... You weren't the happiest, but you weren't so depressed before."

"That was Polyetta, she was a leader. It's behind me now, I'm just a lazy piece of shit."

"Don't say that! You're my friend, even in your lowest moments. We'll find something and-"

"When Emely finishes her time travel... Everything will be different, right? I mean, without the anomaly, so much will be different."

"It's... Not really how it works. All it will do is fix Ada's world and make her disappear. But... Everything she did will stay, and we probably won't see any changes."

"So even once it's over, I'll still exist..."

Yada's tone was defeated, saddening her friend. When she saw how bad Neige felt about her state, Yada let out a sigh and tried to force a smile.

"I'm okay Neige."

"I can see you're not, even Silva could see it. We'll take care of everything, I know it's not your perfect world, but we'll do our best to make you happy."

"It's not that... All this time, the anomaly caused problems because she wanted you. She was trying to have her friend with her, even if it wasn't the real one... She was ready to kill everyone for that and... I'm no different. Ada at least managed to get better, but I'm not sure I can..."

"I'm sure everyone forgave you. Well, maybe not Silva, but you know how she is."

"No, I don't... I barely ever cared about those that were the members of my ship, I was a pitiful leader..."

Neige wasn't sure to know what to do. All he could do for now was caress Yada's hair as she stayed on her bed with empty eyes. A knock on the door took Neige by surprise while Yada barely reacted. The man stood next to the door, not opening it so the person outside wouldn't see Yada in that state.

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"Who is it?"

"It's me, Sepide." Silva said, badly imitating her friend "I need to see my mommy!"

"I don't think Sepide ever called Yada her 'mommy' and she doesn't have that deep of a voice."

"A shame. But Gwyn is searching for you, she tried calling you but couldn't."

"She did... I turned off my phone to not be bothered, can you tell her I'll try to go later."

"Okay, I will." Despite what she said, Silva stayed a moment in front of the door. It was hard for Neige to know why until she decided to break the silence "You're with the nerd, right? Can I talk to her?"

Neige turned toward his friend, waiting for her to give her answer.

"Tell Silva to fuck off."

"Hey, I heard that! It's just for a few minutes!"

Yada let out a sigh, clearly exasperated.

"Fine, let her enter."

"I'm not sure I want her to enter." Said Neige with concern "You're not in a good state and-"

Neige was surprised to see the door opening. Usually, he needed to put a code to open it and he knew Silva never knew it. The blind girl smirked, showing a sort of card in her hand before putting it back in her pocket.

"What is that? Did you use it to open the door?"

"It's what Emely uses to go around the ship when she needs to fix stuff, it opens everything. It's one of the perks of dating the genius of the ship."

Yada groaned, already annoyed by the girl's presence.

"Are you here just to be loud?"

"I guess, but there's something I wanted to tell you. I still didn't forgive you for what you did."

"I hate you too. Is that all?"

"No... I also wanted to apologize."

Yada leaned forward and took a seated position, curious to know what Silva would say.

"I can see you're not well, and I'm maybe a part of that. I was harsh to you, and I still think you deserved those words. But I also know how it feels to be hopeless... Once we're done with the anomaly, you plan on... Disappearing, right?"

"I wish I could disappear." Said Yada "It would have been easier if everyone could forget about me."

"I know, it's how I felt for a while. There are still times when I doubt, I tell myself it would be better if I just never existed. But it's not true, it's impressive how much our lives change the world. If you weren't here, Neige would be such a coward, I wouldn't even be here to complain. It's like that for everyone, we all find value in the others, and they find value in us. When I realized how many lives I changed, it made me never want to go back."

"You can stop now, I don't need to hear your sob story."

"Hey, I'm trying to help you! You were a great leader, and even if I don't agree with everything, I have to admit that you did your best. You did what you thought was the right thing, but now you can trust us. You won't be able to get better by yourself, I can promise you that much. I tried, and it's only when I saw how much I hurt my friends that I started trusting them."

Yada stared at Silva with a blank stare, the woman seemed lost in her thoughts, taking a few minutes before answering.

"Are you really Silva? You talk about sex and mess around all day, and out of nowhere, you try to give life lessons."

"Of course I'm me! And I'm sure you know what I'm saying is true, I just figured you needed a little reminder."

"All I need is rest... It's already hard enough to rest when Neige comes regularly... But thanks, I appreciate it."

Yada smiled softly at Silva, she still wasn't good but seemed a bit better than at the beginning of the day. The woman turned toward Neige, trying her best to comfort him.

"I think I need to sleep, you should go see what Gwyn wants."

"Are you sure?"

Yada nodded, despite his worries, Neige let out a sigh and agreed with his friend.

"Call me if you need anything, okay?" Neige approached Yada and kissed softly her forehead "Have sweet dreams, I'll be back soon."

Neige and Silva went out of the room, leaving the woman alone. Once she was sure they were away, Yada got out of her bed and tried to get to her desk. She hadn't walked in a few days, making it hard for her to find her balance. She quickly sat on the chair she used to sit on while giving missions to the others. The woman took the picture on the desk in her hand, it was the one they took during their vacation in the snowy land. Everyone was here, aside from Shiro and Kairo. She stared at it in silence, unsure what to think. All she wanted was to lie down and never think again, she thought she didn't care what the other thought of her, but deep inside she still cared for them. A single tear fell in the frame.