‘Will you be my friend forever, Angel?’ A soft voice asked me from behind.
‘Of course I will, William’ I replied with a sweet and innocent smile as I turned to face my best friend.
‘Then one day I will come back for you and we can live happily ever after in the fairy tales we always used to dream of. Goodbye, my angel’ Why? Why is he leaving me? No, no he told me we would always be together! No!
‘William no! William! William come back! Please! I will do anything… just please come back…’ I trailed off as I broke down into tears.
He was gone.
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‘Why? Why is this happening, Grandma?’ I asked her as my heart was threatening to fail as it burst from my chest in both fear and grief.
‘Shh, I don’t know kitten. I don’t know. But everything will be fine, okay? I promise’
‘But Grandma… they’re gone… mummy and daddy and grandad… they are all gone! None of this is alright!’ I sobbed in her arms.
‘Shh, shh, it’s okay. Cry all you want for now. But tomorrow we both need to be strong again. Maybe one day… we will find them again’ She lied to me even though I saw it. My family raped by those animals, their souls shattered and bodies mutilated. That sound… the sound of my family dying ringing through my skull… how is that okay?
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‘No! Grandma, Grandma! No no no no no! You told me- you promised me that you wouldn’t die! No! Why! Why are you dead as well! No! Who did this! Who… who would dare to do the exact same thing to everyone I care about…’ My tears wouldn’t stop and I cried myself into a coma. How long it lasted… I don’t know. But when I woke up, grandma was gone and I was somewhere I had never been before.
‘I don’t care what reasons they had… they will all die… every last one of them.’ I vowed to myself.
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‘Again and again, loss after loss. Why… why even you… why does everyone I care about get raped and tortured, brutally murdered and their souls shattered… no… no, I can’t stand this. I would rather die’ And I plunged the sword into my stomach.
‘Ah, such a pretty young lady… sigh, I guess I’m getting kind in my old age. I will heal you but promise me something. Don’t live waiting to die, live to gain the strength you need to be happy’ A kind old voice echoed vaguely in my dimming senses.
When I awoke, I was alone again. In a new place, without anyone to care for and still alive.
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‘So they got you as well, huh? Just when I thought I had a chance… two friends, a wife and even an old man who doted on me so much everytime I came to the town… but yet, they where all taken from me yet again, in exactly the same way. Even you didn’t escape… I’m sorry. It’s my fault. I mistakenly believed I was strong enough to protect my happiness and you all paid the price for that mistake. This time I won’t look back. Everything… I will bet everything on gaining strength. Happiness is something that isn’t even worth considering’ Click. I felt it. My base, the only base I have, being permanently changed towards a desire for strength.
I… am no longer someone who can be held back by pitiful reasons like happiness. Only strength can control me now.
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‘So it seems like the test worked. I am obviously under observation as the two girls I ‘loved’ this time have the same fate as everyone else. Too bad they don’t know it was a lie. No, that’s a lie. It was supposed to be a lie. But at some point my desperation for love made me love them genuinely. Dammit. I thought I was past feeling so much pain from these crappy emotions’ I walked away while trying to restrain my tears. They just kept falling…
Now, I just need to find who is watching me.
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‘I finally gave that bastard the slip. Jeez, who would have thought he was so strong. I’m glad I prepared a little surprise in a way that no observers could see or he might of simply killed or taken me instead of watching. Still, I got his ring! Jackpot!’ And with it I can finally get the strength to kill the bastard since my talent is enough to catch up with him easily.
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‘How troublesome. I really almost died that time. To think someone came to give him backup… Sigh, look at all the treasures I wasted to kill these idiots. But I guess this proves that they where just lackey’s. So, who is the one controlling them…’
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‘Idiot! I should have known better than to fall in love again. If I stay in one place for too long, they find me. But no, I just had to fall in love a-fucking-gain! Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK! Fuck you! Why did you have to take someone away from me again! Why… why her… she was so innocent… but yet the same way, rape and torture, mutilation and even… shattering her soul. Dammit!’ The tears where washing the blood off my hands. Only when they where clean again did I leave.
But first… I buried the body of the person I had fallen in love with and had taken from me just like all the other times.
‘Time to disappear until I’m stronger than everyone else…’ I muttered to myself coldly. I would make them pay.
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‘That was close. Jeez, I didn’t expect for even gods to be in on this. For three of them at the fourth stage to come and kidnap a single third stage… if not for my scary strong talents I would have been helpless. But~ Instead, there’s three pretty spacial rings for me to loot and some nice corpses to experiment on. Haha, thanks for the meal, ‘young master’. I will make sure to use it to help me kill you’ I laughed madly to myself before once again disappearing.
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‘When are these bastards going to stop… what’s this now, around one hundred gods? Jeez, I know that a stage eight is a threat to them now but sending these cannon fodder at me… don’t they ever learn? Well, not that I’m complaining. Free loot, yay! Now I’m one hundred steps close to killing you, young master. Thankyou for the meal~’
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‘Hello, my angel’ I froze as I heard a voice call out to me from behind a curtain. Flicking the head off of my sword, I turned to see what I was hoping was a lie, a trick. Instead I saw reality.
‘William… you… why did it have to be you?” I asked as I cried for the first time in a thousand years.
‘Because I love you. I love you so much that every time I saw someone else you cared for, I just had to take them away. I wanted to be the only one, my angel. So I killed them. I had them raped to stop you getting close to anyone, I had them tortured as a punishment for taking the care that is mine and mine alone and their souls where shattered for the sin of accepting your love. Don’t you see, my angel? You are mine… you will always be mine and I refuse to let anyone else share the love that is mine and mine alone. I love you, little angel’ He smiled twistedly. I could tell it was true… he truly did believe it all… which only made it hurt more.
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‘You made a miscalculation, William. If you simply waited till I grew up, you could have married me and had so much more love. I loved you more than anyone… but instead, you broke me. You used me like a toy and then broke what made me work. And now… now you are left with this. Your own creation, your own personal monster. All because… you couldn’t bare the fraction of love I had for others. I love you. I always will. But… I will love the William I used to know. You are not my William. Goodbye’ I said while crying. Once I had finished talking, the rage and sorrow I was holding back burst.
And then I saw red.
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Two years later William finally died. And two years later was also the day I finally stopped torturing him. I shattered his soul… and then I pulverised it. Nothing of him remained other than this room which had absorbed the blood and tears that showed William that I was his nightmare, not his lover. It remembered, it sung about the pain he felt and it moaned in pleasure at the hatred it absorbed. This room has become my friend. If not a living friend, still a friend just the same. This room became the pain and relief of my entire life and knew me better than anyone.
‘How is that, William? Did you enjoy my love? Was it worth the wait? Haha oh William, you where right. I am still in love with you. In love with the pain and blood I tasted.~ Ah, how beautiful’ I laughed crazily to myself as I licked the last of his blood off of the long blade that became just like the room.
‘Don’t worry William. You did achieve your goal in the end, in a way. I will never find happiness and love with someone else until I am the strongest there is. Ah, but I really do regret it, y’know? You’re blood tastes so good, but now it’s all gone. What am I to do now? Ah, even in death you manage to annoy me. Such a tragic story. Pfft, but oh well~’ I sung to the room.
In return, the chains rattled. I heard echoes of the screams and saw illusions of the pain.
‘Haha, thank you~ Ah, such a good friend you are. Yes, I think I will name you Blood Haven. Ah, but I really must get going. Two years without cultivating is not good, you know? I’m starting to get rusty. Look after these wonderful memories while I’m gone, okay?’ I asked it with a sadistic grin and it showed me a picture of William grovelling on the floor telling me he would do anything.
‘Good room!’ I patted it happily as I put the blade down in the centre.
‘You two play nice, okay?’ I asked happily as I skipped out of the room.
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‘Huh, I guess I can still feel sadness and loss. To think, some upstart god dared destroy my two precious friends. Phew, I guess it’s time to go punish some naughty boys and girls. Ah… I guess I should reforge their spirits into a weapon though… let’s see, if I add them both into a single weapon there should be enough left to give it a personality again… haha, I guess you’ll need a new name. How about Blood Feud?’ I asked myself thoughtfully.
‘Yes, blood feud is quite fitting. Welcome to the land of the living, blood feud’ I laughed happily.
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‘Oh? Mister, what’s this? It looks so fun!’ I said as I skipped into the room.
‘What the fuck!? Who are you, you fucking bitch! How did you get here!?!’ He yelled out in panic.
‘Aww, that’s not very polite mister~ You’re supposed to put your pants back on before talking, y’know? Ah, rapists are so rude these days. Pfft, I guess I need to educate you for a while, huh~’ I sung to myself with a dramatic tilt of my head and a finger positioned thoughtfully on my lips.
‘I don’t know who you are you crazy bitch but I am going to make you scream-‘ I cut his tongue out.
‘Ah, you’re right mister. I will scream~ Ahhh~ It’s so good to torture people~ Hmm hmm, maybe I should torture this little lady as well? I bet that would feel even better~ Sigh, too bad she’s an innocent. Now, let’s continue, my little play toy~’ I sung to the god choking on his own blood.
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‘Hmm, torture is getting a little boring now, don’t you think, Blood Feud?’ I asked my semi-conscious friend. Unfortunately it is only a shadow so it can never really be my friend as it’s not alive but a girl can try. In response, it showed an image of me with blood spattered on my face and a crazy grin while I was shrugging.
‘Hah, well I guess I’ve had my fun. I’ve got better things to do than torture these lowly gods after all. Ah~ I want William back! I miss Williams blood and screams of pain~ Why are all these gods so pitiful? Not one of them makes me feel as alive as William. But he had to die, right? Sigh… but why did he have to take his blood with him? Bastard, even annoying me after being dead for six hundred years.’ I sighed angrily as I kicked some poor innocent god who had been raped just hours ago, to death. Oops~ Didn’t expect one kick to make her kick the bucket. Oh well~
‘Hmm, but what to do now? I could play around like those other gods but that seems boring. Ah! I got it! Blood feud, I’m going to become a perfect little princess like I used to dream of being as a kid~ I will be the strongest in the lands and beat up all the dragons that try to catch me, I will be the prettiest in existence and make ladies swoon, I will be the smartest out of everyone- ah wait, no I already am the smartest. Dammit. Anyway, I will become perfect! Muahahah! I am never going to laugh like that again cause it was so fricken embarrassing!’ I announced to the world eagerly.
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‘Blood Feud, don’t you think it’s weird? Fifty thousand years and I still haven’t found the happiness I promised myself when I became the strongest. But here I am, the strongest there is, and yet I still can’t find happiness all because of that stupid strength limit. Sigh, but I want to be perfect so I can’t just do things casually, I have to do it the best way possible. When will I be happy?’ I asked my trusty weapon dramatically with a small twist in the middle where I fell down on top of the hill of bodies I just made for fun.
In reply it showed me a picture where I was covered in blood from head to toe with thousands of bodies around me.
‘Sigh, I know. I still have a long way to go till I reach my happiness, right? Hmm~ But it’s so boring! I haven’t had any real fun since William died~ Ah, his blood… I’m forgetting what it tasted like, y’know? Maybe that’s a good thing since I can’t get anymore but it’s weird. With my memory that should be impossible and I still remember the cake I ate with grandma on my sixth birthday but yet I’m forgetting this. How annoying.’ I complained to my weapon.
In reply it showed me a picture I made for it of where I was wearing a white shirt with the words ‘I’m crazy but that’s why life’s so fun’ written in blood and a massive in depth city I made out of blood on a painting behind me. Sigh, why did no one come visit me to try and buy my amazing artwork? Was it the crazy part? I’m not sure~ Not that I’d sell it of course!
‘Thanks bud! I haven’t seen that one for a while! Sigh, too bad you can only show me stuff with blood in it though. I personally really liked the picture I made out of the ashes of William but you can’t show it to me. Ah well, your still cool!’ I praised it happily while the blade warmed up in reply to the praise. Blushing?
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‘Blood Feud I think I’m losing my mind! I’m slowly becoming sane again, it’s terrifying!’ I cried to my weapon.
‘Don’t. Worry. Everything. Is. Alright.’ It replied to me in several different images I wrote out in blood for it to talk to me.
‘But I’m scared! I don’t wanna be in this world with sanity! Everything will hurt so much more again if I do!’ I cried louder to it in reply.
‘I’m. Here. For. You. . . It’s. Going. To. Be. Alright. . . If. It. Hurts. Just. Focus. On. Strength. And. Use. It. To. Find. Happiness. Again. . . You. Deserve. It.’ My weapon wrote to me in several images.
‘But blood feud… I don’t know if I can handle how much it hurts. I’m scared. What if I lose everything again even after I gain strength? I’m so scared, it hurts so much and I can feel it consuming me…’ I screamed out in tears.
‘Shh. Shh. It’s. Okay. . . Everything. Is. Going. To. Be. Fine’
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‘It hurts, blood feud. But I’m close. I’m close to my happiness now, I just need a few thousand more gods and I’m done. Why was my warped personality able to repair itself? At least I could run from the pain before… but now I’m stuck with it. Will it ever truly go away? I feel like it will never let me go…’ I whispered to my weapon in the corner.
‘Nightmares. Again?.’ It asked me with images.
‘Yes… they never leave me alone…’ I said while holding the tears back.
‘It’s. Okay. To. Cry.’ It replied to me. Like a dam wall had burst, I broke down into quite sobbing without being able to control myself.
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‘Blood Feud, we’re so close now. Once a royalty with a good personality comes along I can finally be free again. I’m so close to getting the strength I desire so much… I’m excited, Blood Feud.’ I told my blade.
‘Soon. You. Can. Finally. Be. Happy. . . I’m. Proud. Of. You. Angel.’ My blade told me with a hum to it.
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‘Blood Feud, today’s the day! I’m so close to getting enough strength to be happy, I just need a few years to grow and I can be happy again!’ I gushed excitedly to my blade.
‘Be. Happy. With. Your. New. Family.’ It told me. My excitement left and I stroked my blade sadly.
‘Can I really feel happiness with them though? To mortals I am just a freak, a twisted weirdo. I want happiness so much but… with what I am about to do… can they really give me happiness? I’m scared. I know it’s not long but if I really do love them, what if they are taken from me while I’m still weak? Blood feud… am I even something that can be loved anymore? I don’t believe that such a thing can happen to someone like me… I don’t know where I will find happiness but I don’t think they can give it to me. Not after everything I’ve done.’ I told my weapon sadly.
‘They. Will. Love. You. I. Promise. . . You. Are. Perfect. . . Better. Than. Any. Angel. Could. Be. . . It. Is. An. Insult. For. Others. To. Carry. Your. Name.’ I smiled at my weapon.
‘Thanks, Blood Feud. Even if nothing goes well for me, atleast I have you.’ I said as I hugged my blade.
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A dream… it was a dream… Ah, crap. I’m crying aren’t I. When I wake up, they are all going to be fussing over me and making a racket. ‘Blood Feud, you where right. I found happiness with my family. I can be happy as well, even with everything that I’ve done. Do you think I can ever fall in love again? While last time I didn’t believe in others ability to accept me, this time I don’t believe in my own ability. To open my heart up to someone after so long… isn’t that impossible?’
‘It. Is. Not. Impossible. . . One. Day. You. Will. Find. Them. And. Never. Let. Anyone. Take. Them. From. You. . . Until. That. Day. You. Have. Friends. And. Family. To. Look. After. You. . . Have. Fun.’ I smiled as some more tears escaped.
‘Thankyou Blood Feud. You’re the best friend I could ever have. One day I will find a way to make you a body. Until then, I will have fun, just like you told me to. This time, I’ll believe you. You know me best after all.’ I said warmly to the blade that I put in my soul before I reincarnated.
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Opening my eyes, I was met with the face of Azure as she was crying above me.
“Master! Are you okay!? You where crying in your sleep and I tried to wake you up but I couldn’t and I was so worried!! What’s wrong, master? Did you have nightmares again??” Azure asked me desperately.
“I’m fine, Azure. I just remembered that no matter what, I always have friends who look out for me. I’m sorry for worrying you. Let’s go to our first day of school, okay?” I told her warmly as I pulled her into a hug and stroked her hair. It was just as much for me as it was for her but she doesn’t have to know that.
“Okay, Master.”