AN: This story was first posted in Japtem under the same name but I decided to repost it here and continue the story here. My control over the english language leaves something to be desired so my apologies if my grammar is not up to par. Please give constructive criticisms. Oh and by the way, i write my stories in a slow pace, i do want to fast track some of the parts of the story but i cannot seem to do it.
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Chapter 1: Missed Chance
And all went black……………….
And then white……………..
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Seeing everything turning bright I opened my eyes to see myself in some stark white room, completely void of anything. A sudden wave of questions hit me; did I survive the gun shot? Am I in some king of asylum because people think I went mad to the point of killing myself? Why can’t I see any trace of a gun wound when I touched my head? In the first place how can a person survive a gunshot point blank?
As many more questions appeared in my mind and I was getting panicky I heard a gentle but commanding voice out of nowhere.
“Be at ease child.”
Of course hearing someone when no one was around you, I tried to ask the voice where I was.
“Excuse me sir but what is this place? Where am I? Did I really die?”
“Child you are in my domain, a place not many see. And yes you did die.” the voice answered cryptically.
“Who are you? And what do you mean by what you just said?” I was getting increasingly curious and a little bit nervous. After all if He is who I think He is then I can only guess that he is here to judge me and send me to hell because of me committing suicide.
The mysterious voice laughed a little as if he knew the things in my head.
“Yes. I am who you think I am young one. And normally I would have judged you as such since killing oneself is a grave sin against Me.” The mysterious man continued.
“So it is true then. I am dead and you are here to judge me to eternal damnation.” I resigned myself to this truth. Steeling myself I looked at a place where I thought the voice came from to see a shining light manifest itself. I began to feel such a holy presence that I was brought down to my knees and I felt like love enveloping me completely and wholly. I can’t help but lower my head in reverence and a big amount of holy fear.
“Well….normally that would be the case child. But you see your life was such a big lost that I am deeply grieved that you chose the easy way out instead of fighting and succeeding in my trial for you.” He answered with a saddened voice. And then much to my surprise I begin seeing a vision.
“What is it I’m seeing oh God?”
“Child what I am about to show you is a life that would have been if you did not take your own.”
My vision started when I first learned of my predicament, everything was the same as what I did up to the time where I went to see my sisters. There is where I see a change in what was to have been. Instead of killing myself, when I went to my third sister’s house I saw myself telling her all of what happened to me. I saw myself crying and my youngest sister comforting me. Then the view changed to add my other sisters in the vision, we were in the hospital’s waiting room, each of them where there to offer their support. I can see much love from them. And then I saw myself, battling for my life, taking chemotherapy and living a healthier life. And again the view shifted, I saw myself, slowly regaining my health, I was beating my sickness and then I saw myself completely healed. After that I saw myself typing, an autobiography of my life, it sold millions, helping many people that were in the same predicament as I was. My life became an encouragement to people around the world, spreading a bit of goodwill. Even by a tiny bit bettering the life of those who read about my life, lastly it showed me dying not because of Cancer but because of age having lived a fulfilled life.
And then the vision ended. And in all honesty a thousand things at the same time, but one thing stood out, it was deep Regret. Regret that I took my life instead of trying to fight it, Regret that instead of asking the people that do love me for help I decided to end it all. So much regret that I can’t help but admit that whatever punishment I would get was acceptable and just.
After a while more I heard Him speak once more. “Child I did not shoe you my plan to bring so much pain to your poor soul rather it is to show you that giving up that life I gave you without even fighting for it is truly a sad thing for me. It is to also show you what goodness you might have spread to the world if only you fought a good fight.”
Looking at Him once more I steadied my gaze and prepared myself for His judgment only to be surprised by the next thing The Glorious One said.
“Dear God I am Ready for your Judgment. I will accept it fully and willingly.”
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“I know child. But don’t you regret it?”
“Of course I do!” Replying almost instinctively I truly showed the remorse I was trying to hide, not that it matters since I know He can see right through me.
“Well…. If that is the case why don’t we try to do something different?”
“What do you mean?” What He told me took my attention and He got my full attention.
“You see, I think of you like a rare unpolished gem waiting to show its true beauty and value but this world is not a place where you would shine the brightest.” Hearing a change in the tone of His voice which I assumed was because He was smiling I asked Him what he meant.
“Well, I cannot send you back on earth not because I can’t but because that would contradict the laws I’ve put in place in earth. So the thing I would do is to send you to a world I made a couple millennia ago, Far away from your planet, a world that shares similarities but is unique in its own way.”
That shocked the hell out of me (no pun intended). And I can’t help but think of all the things I was taught when I was young about us being alone in the galaxy.
Seemingly to answer my quiet questions He spoke once again. “Well I did mention that not everything in this world was to be made comprehensible for your limited minds, and this is one of those things so you may as well not ask how that world came to be.”
Sensing that I’ve no choice on the matter I bravely looked at Him (well at the sphere of light in front of me) again and nodded my consent.
“In this world you will be made anew but in a slightly different way. If you think I will reincarnate you then you are half correct.”
Seeing another confused look in my face I heard him laugh a little. His laugh was truly like the voice of a thousand angles singing, a truly glorious sound to hear. After laughing, he continued His explanation as to what will happen.
“Well, Reincarnation means that I would insert your soul to another being. But what I will do, will be different. Since you are of this realm I shall not transfer your soul over to that world. Your soul will remain in Purgatory and will forget everything that happened inside this domain and will have to stay there until you have showed that you are ready for either heaven or hell. Instead, I will create a being in that world that bears all your memories and everything pertaining to yourself from this world. In doing so, another you will be born but this time with a chance to do something great.”
I was struck speechless, a new chance in life, it seemed unfair that the Me in this realm would have to stay in purgatory but another me will have the chance to do something of himself something great and something extraordinary. So I agreed.
“I know God that you already know what my answer would be. Even if it seems like selfishness to leave my original soul I will take this opportunity for another chance at life. One question though, what kind of world will I be born in?”
“I am glad that you agreed to my proposal Child. To answer your question the world you will be born in is called El Gaia, it is twice the size of Earth, it is ruled by beings I made called Celestials and is inhabited by races not seen on earth. It is mostly unexplored and is home to dangerous creatures far stronger than most humans. One major thing that would differentiate it from Earth is that Earth relied heavily to Technology while El Gaia chose the path to Sword and Magic. A path I know you would have trouble at the start but I do have faith in you.”
‘Wait a minute. Sword? Magic? Does this mean I am in a world that is almost prehistoric with Magic available for us to use?’ the thought excited me. Something not possible in earth is possible in this new world I am going to.
Seeing my excited face God continued.
“That world is governed by Celestials, beings that pose as Deities in El Gaia, I made them to bestow some order in that world but made them forget that I created them which made it somewhat unpredictable how they react to each other. Like some of your saints, they can choose people to be their Champions which mean they have direct relationship with their Patron Deity so make sure not to incur their wrath until you are strong enough. You will be born at a place of my choosing (which will be a secret) and will be given a gift to which I will select as well for you. Do you still accept?”
Steeling my resolve I looked at Him once more and gave my reply.
“Yes. I want to be born anew!”
“Excellent. My child it is my sincerest wish that you make this new life a way to reach for possibilities you has not reached in Earth. Strive, persevere and win.”
With that I felt the bright room of His domain collapse into nothingness and to see my human form disintegrating into particles being sucked into a great void.
I felt my consciousness fading until I found myself completely asleep enveloped in total darkness once again.