“I can’t see myself going out with you anymore, Miyoung. We no longer have things in common and I feel like I deserve someone better. Let’s end things cleanly, yeah?”
Jiwook’s words still rang continuously in my mind. Jiwook, a thirty year old office worker and a senior in the office that I worked in. He’s from the business department and inexplicably well-liked by many of the employees and that included myself when I first came here. For some reason, he instantly took a liking to me and we started dating two months into my career in the company. Two years eventually passed by and he went on to do better things, becoming the Project Manager for an important government project while I was still stuck doing design. Our team suggestions never took off with the Director and it had been tough trying to come up with new ideas.
I tried my hardest to live a decent life but it was difficult to keep your head up when your work life is like shit. And that’s why I’m here today hiking, at my best friend Hana’s insistence of us trying to get some fresh air. Having a shitty personal life is now one of the many things to add on to my already shitty work life. I sighed, looking towards the beer can in my hand; it was one thing to be drinking in broad daylight but it was another all together to be drinking while hiking. I sniffled, hurriedly gulping down the remaining beer as it filled down my throat, hot and stinging just like the tears that had formed in my eyes as I remembered how shitty my life was.
It was then I felt a rather strong stare on my back and I hesitantly turned, meeting eyes with Hana.
The young woman had been frowning, lips pursed into a thin line as she said unexpectedly. “Did you finish the last route? Johann is so dreamy! You have to finish it, okay?!”
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I sighed again. Somehow, I knew that Hana was going to steer towards an unrelated topic to cheer me up but the latter also didn’t know that I had already completed the full game in the first place. The Bluebell Daughter, a popular dating sim that took the ladies of Korea by storm a month ago and I, Son Miyoung, a self-proclaimed dating game enthusiast, had been too excited during it’s release and finished it within two weeks. It was a good seventy dollars well spent but even thoughts of the game couldn’t fill up this emptiness that I’m currently feeling.
However, I couldn’t shake off the warmth I was feeling from my friend’s concern.
“Just to let you know, I already did-”
“Miyoung, watch out!”
As though I was scorned by God, I felt myself falling from the edge of a cliff after accidentally losing my footing, feeling the panic gushing through my head before feeling cold dirt embracing my skin just for a short second. It was all too cliché and I cursed at the horrible atrocity, regretting my decision of drinking and hiking, especially when you considered that I was a lightweight. This must have been my just desserts for dying dramatically.
In my last moments, all I could see was Hana’s panicked eyes, the young woman kneeling at the edge of the cliff hoping that her hands could have reached for mine somehow.
It was a bitter feeling and it truly felt like it had been a shitty life. For one, I had no family, no one to call home and my career never once took off in the years I’ve been slogging through. The only good thing had been Hana, the sole light and comfort in my dull life. And yet, a single thought continuously glares in my last moment.
At least the suffering ends now.