My mom and I talked a lot during dinner. It was enjoyable as we shared our moments of the day. After we are done eating, I went to help my mom to clean up the table and such.

"Mom, what should I do in the future?" I asked. It was a question that came out randomly from my mouth. Mom were shocked as she didn't expect that question.

"Maybe somethings that suits you the most?" she replied.

"Something that suits me? What's that supposed to mean?"

"Okay, so tell me, what are the things that you love doing now at the moment?"

"I like hanging out with Yuu, drawing and reading?"

"Since you like drawing, why don't you thrive to be an artist?"

"What's the purpose of an artist? Showing their magnificent art to the world? That seems boring. Plus, I'm not really that good at drawing, Mom."

"How about you try looking at a popular artist illustrations and the purpose of being of one or the journey of being an artist. Maybe that will change your mind."

"I'll think about it, Mom."

As the conversation ended, I went to my bedroom to sleep. I reflected on my mother words, "Maybe I will try looking at some." I thought. I searched up some popular artist name and their works. The art was beautiful, they were like an illusions that's from another dimensions, it filled my mind with breathtaking thought from an art that shouldn't be in this world. After such satisfaction, I decided to went to sleep but the room was too dark, so I drew back the curtains.

'Woah." I spoke in amazement. The dark skies that felt empty were filled with stars that shone as bright as diamond. It was a breathtaking view from below, I- what is this feeling deep down in my heart. This feeling that I can't comprehend. "Is this excitement? No, it's a feeling of motivation and inspiration but do I really want to be an artist? What if I failed? Do I try again.....or give up?" I thought but I decided to ignore that thought for now. I looked back at the beautiful sky, the emptiness in my heart that were as dark as the void, not knowing how deep it is makes it an endless fall. It soon changed after I experienced this moment. The admirable skies, it was gorgeous. What a great night.

"Roslyn." "Roslyn." "Roslyn." "ROSLYN!"

I woke up, I was flabbergasted. I had such an amazing dream, yet I got woken up.

"Finally, I have been trying to wake you up in ages. Get up and help me do some chores." she said.

"Fiiiine." I sighed.

I got up and went to shower to start the day off, put on some clothes and head downstairs to help my mom with chores. When I reached to mom, she gave me so many unbelievable chores to do, I felt so lazy to do anything as I prefer to just stay in bed. I still did it willingly(definitely). After it was all done, mom gave me some desert to reward my hard work. It was a delightful treat after all those chores. The treat was some chocolate cheesecake and coffee, it was mouth watering.

"Oh yeah did you know, Yuu had moved out somewhere far away, yesterday was her last day here." mom said. Unexpected.....it was very unexpected.

"Wait- what, how come she didn't tell me about this, it is such an important matter yet I had no information of it. Where did she moved out to and Why?" I replied shockingly

Mom were shocked too. She thought I had knew of this information since Yuu was my bestfriend, but yet I didn't.

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"She moved out to New York."

New York? That's so far away, why didn't she tell me this... we could've had more fun, memorable and special time together. Why? I was upset, my long time best friend has decided to left me without a single word. I felt betrayed.

"What are you planning to do now because usually, you went hanging out with her."

Without no words, I left the small little table that we were sitting at and went upstairs. The feelings I felt yesterday was true, that feelings of losing someone. I was filled with multiple emotions, anger, sadness, I couldn't control all of them one by one. It felt like I might burst out crying anytime, but I decided to take a short nap. I locked the door, felt relieved as no one will bother me sleeping.

"Hey, Roslyn." an unknown voice appeared out of nowhere.

I opened my eyes and found myself to be in an another dimensions. "Who are you?" I replied.

"It doesn't matter who I am but if you still insist to know, I am '̷̡͍̙̀́̿̈́͊͝;̵̜͉̝͕̦̦͋͋͌̔̽͆.̸̗͂̊̓͐,̵̗̤̗̝̩̬̅̋̽̈́͠'̴͍͚̻̹̳̤̎̃̕͠;̷̭̟͒.̶̛̛͖̥̉̿͂͑͠,̴͔̯̝̉̆̿̈̀͝͠;̵̧̲͗̆̓̃'̴̡̗̭̅̅̀̂.̴̮͙̘̓̊̃,̸̛͇͎͆̒̈́̕. ." I couldn't comprehend what it's name was. All I heard was gibberish. I shouldn't care that much, this is a dream. It has to be...

"So, what is it that you want from me?"

"Are you sad? Angry? Or perhaps frustrated?"

"I don't know.....I'd rather not know and let the feelings slowly disappear into the horizons." my feelings were like a train that couldn't be stop, a train that will drive through any walls. A train full of mixed emotions.

"Look at you, always trying to ignore the negativity and cheer yourself up while being empty inside. It's sad, that you got involved in an accident, your body is getting weaker despite being so young and now your best friend left you without a trace. So pitiful."

"Shut up.....get out of my heads. now!"

I woke up, astonished. I tried to comprehend what I just dreamt of but I can't. All I know that it was me talking to someone or something. It pitied me, I couldn't accept it. "Who or what was that?" Suddenly, *KNOCK!* *KNOCK!* Woah that surprised me. What's that about? I heard mom voice.

"Honey, are you there? Are you okay?" she asked worryingly.

"Yes I am here mom and I am okay. Don't worry about me." I replied.

"Can you at least, maybe unlock the door for me?" she requested

I went to unlocked the door, my mom rushed in and hugged me tightly. "Thank goodness you are okay. Don't be sad, I'm here for you." I felt bad for making her worried about me to the state of crying. "I'm sorry for worrying you mom." "It's fine honey. I'm just glad that you are fine." she replied.

I'm still confused, trying to comprehend of what I dreamt but couldn't. That dream was too weird, it felt too much like reality. It felt as if...I was talking to myself. I decided to head out after getting my mom's permission. Went to the nearby cafe to cool myself down, it was my favorite cafe in the town. Mrs Chloe, the owner of the cafe, greeted me as I am a regular customer there. It was the only place other than home, that feels safe. A place where I can let out the feelings deep inside. "Last night, it was amazing. The stars that shone as bright as diamond and filled up the empty black skies. It was too good to be true."

Do I want to be an artist? An artist who will let express my feelings, by using art. "Sounds great." I smiled.