Under normal circumstances, I try to work as hard as possible to produce a good product for the people kind enough to follow me. I'm truly sorry to the people reading this, as I will have to take today off. I'm in an emotional dumpster right now, and I just cannot bring myself to write anything. I know that I'm not big enough to make anyone worry that I might miss a chapter or two, but I wanted to put this out nonetheless.
Also, I am a cis guy. If you think that a person like me writing a story about a trans person is terrible idea, that's fair. I am welcoming of any negative criticism that you might helm my way.
While I have the motivation, let me explain the motivation behind me writing this story. I am half Turkish and half Kurdish. The entirety of my father's side of the family is Kurdish, and my mother's side is Turkish. I love writing, but I wanted to produce something that wasn't just vapid, so I ended up creating the premise of an oppressed people trying to preserve their culture while bigger, racist forces try to annihilate all traces of their being. This is similar (at least in my eyes) to imperialist efforts made by the Turkish government to erase Kurdish identity.
A case of content theft: this narrative is not rightfully on Amazon; if you spot it, report the violation.
As an example, about a decade ago the government wouldn't even acknowledge the existence of Kurds. They would spread propaganda about us saying that our people didn't exist. Now, the actual conflict between Turks and Kurds is much more complicated than just "Kurds are the best people on this earth", as the Kurds have waged war even against each other before. Just like any political conflict with many participants, the issue of Kurdish erasure is a complicated one to be sure.
Despite this I thought that it wasn't too bad of an idea to write about my own experiences regarding my own identity. I must confess however that Farriz's childhood experiences are a bit different from mine, as my father's side of the family has quite a lot of shitty individuals, but I cannot disregard the many insults I've recieved as a result of me declaring that I was Kurdish. The whole deal with "Bóyolçileákna" or "Geolurbeorg" in chapter three was kind of inspired by the problem of some Kurdish territories being within Turkey's borders (i.e. Dersim).
Why is the main character trans? Why not? Representation yaaay
So, yeah. That's that. I hope that this wasn't too disappointing to see. Oh another funny thing, my surname is Erdoğan. That is pretty funny considering the surname of this country's current dictator is also Erdoğan. I'm writing a story about the evils of imperialism and I share the name of our horrible leader.
Urfapanda out.