Mc pov

Naruto,zen and i were currently eating ramen at ichiraku’s.

I looked towards naruto and he seemed more relaxed around ichiraku and his daughter.

Something that hasn’t changed from the anime.

But he kept sending me and zen glances as if he was waiting for us to attack.

“Of course he would do that” i thought to myself.

He must be quite surprised that neither of us have attacked him yet.

I could of course talk to him and try to ease him up, but in reality i really don’t care.

That might seem harsh but really i do not know naruto.

I do not care about naruto but the other guy probably won’t let me leave him alone.

Zen seemed bored and would probably do something i would not agree with soon if a conversation was not started.

I was not in the mood to start one so i finished my ramen quickly before getting up and saying “while i would love to get to know you,i am not in 

the mood today.I apologize for leaving on such a short notice but i have places to be.So i wish you the best of nights”

I gave a little bow of my head before walking out of the door.

Naruto nodded towards me while zen looked…..i have no idea how she looked.

It was a confusing look,one i did not wish to talk about.

Once i was out i took my time walking back home.

I took in the in the scenery of konoha.

In the night as the sun was setting it looked beautiful.

The sunlight could be seen bouncing of the leaves giving it a magnificent view.

Families were walking back to their homes happily.

Some shops were closing while others opened.

The lights were being turned on.

People could be seen walking from treehouse to treehouse on the the vine bridges.

Yes Konoha was quite different from how it was portrayed in the anime.

Now konoha looked like a real village hidden in leaves.

There were giant trees everywhere.

Some People lived in said trees.

They were all connected by a large amount of  vines and bridges.

Leaves littered the floors everywhere.

The buildings were covered in vines.

Genin could be seen swinging from vine to vine.

It was beautiful indeed.

Of course that is if you didn’t see all the dirt under that beauty.

The  place was filthy.

Konoha held secret that were dark and did not need to be known.

It did things that the other villages would feel horrified about .

I could get mad about it,but i know that in order for the village to stay this way there would be always be dirt under it.

Normally naruto should have cleared it up but no this was real life.

Nobody could stay happy go lucky after all that abuse.

Was i going to change it?

No.

I have seen what happens to people that try to change the world.

You get killed by enemy ninjas.

The power drives you crazy,or you simply make it worse.

I wasn’t going to change to try and change the world.

I was going to live my life as a ninja and try to keep my family and i from taking too much damage from the shitstorm that is the narutoverse.

I had been preparing, making sure that i was strong enough to survive the storm.

That my family was strong enough to survive the storm.

I created light release,the mind body synchronization technique and all the elemental version of the juken techniques.

To make sure that we got out of this alive.

But i knew i wasn’t going to be enough,so i pushed myself to the limit and beyond.

The gamer ability was abused.

Kakashi itachi and many others were jonin level in their early teens.

I who had the gamer ability and knowledge from a previous lifetime was going to do better.

My physical prowess was low chunin level but my arsenal of jutsu could rival that of a kage.

No it was greater than that of a kage.

Fun fact i have never actually gone all out before.

My emotions might be numb but sometimes they are stronger than normal emotions.

That’s why i am striving to become powerful so i can protect my “precious people”.

And i hate it.

When you get so used to looking at the world without emotions covering your eyes.

You see everything so clearly,you see the true beauty of the world and the ugliness that lies there.

It’s not nice but it’s that truth.

Then bang my emotions start rolling out.

It’s angers me when emotions manage my thoughts.

But when i got gamers mind i thought i had complete control, but it seems i was wrong.

It increased my mental strength,but it can’t stop something that you subconsciously want.

It enraged me to know that i actually wanted emotions to cloud my vision.

That i didn’t want to see the truth.

I still have the battle’s in my mind.

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Emotion and logic both fighting for control.

In my previous life it was easier to deal with.

But now that i am in the narutoverse they took actual shape.

They were in my mindscape always fighting for control.

I clearly chose logic but emotions are persistent,and it just keeps coming back.

Even now i can still hear them shouting in my mind always fighting.

Always fighting.

It….it...rips my mind apart.

It hurts.

it causes pain.

I just want it to stop.

Why won’t they stop!

SPLASH!

My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of water splashing.

I look to see what it is but i notice that it’s just me.

I had juken strikes a pound while i was thinking.

Seem like i had walked towards the pond that was close to the house.

I usually came here after training to sit and read a book the tree,that sit right next to the pond.

The water in the pond settled and when i looked into it.

I saw my reflection.

I was quite tall for a twelve year old around 5’8.

I was of a slim build but had some nice muscles going on.

I wore black pants that had some gold markings on them.

I wore a long black cloak that bellowed in the wind.

Covering my chest was a long sleeved black t-shirt.

My white hair reached to my knees.

They were two braids that hung to the side of my hair reaching my mid section.

My hair had nothing holding it back so it moved with the wind.

My face had resemblance to my father but was more womanlike more serene.

What fascinated me the most was my eyes.

They were completely green,pearl green.

They had this calm knowing look to them,like they were looking at your soul.

Yet they were so lifeless.

My konoha headband was attached to back  of my cloak.

Why did i put it there even i don’t know.

I shook my head before continuing to walk towards the compound.

I breathed in the night air.

So cool and calming.

it was walk like these that helped me stay sane.

But they didn’t stop the two fools from arguing in my mind.

I sighed at that thought.

I continued to walk towards the  compound slowly taking in the scenery there.

As i entered the gates the guards greeted me,and i nodded to them.

walking in the house the branch members bowed whenever i walked by while the main house members simply sent me their greetings.

Now that i think about it because the hyuga incident never happened the branch and the main families don’t hate the shit out of each other.

It’s actually quite calm,the elders aren’t super assholes who can’t see differently.

You just had to give them a very good reason why they should do a certain action or change a certain thing.

As long as it stayed like this my attention wasn’t focused on the seal.

My family is most likely having dinner but i do not feel like joining them.

I will pass by before asking father for permission to leave.

The two morons in my head were bickering like hell today for some reason.

So my head was hurting and i didn’t feel like sitting with my family.

I entered the family dining room to be greeted to the sight of my family quietly eating dinner.

As i entered my family looked towards the entrance.

My mother and uncle seemed happy to see me while hinata looked happy and had another look in her eyes i can’t describe.

Strange usually i can read hinata quite clearly.

I will put it aside so the two morons can look at it later.

Hanabi looked ready to burst out of her chair and smash into me with a hug.

My father didn’t seem surprised at all but in his eyes you could see a bit of relief.

“My apologies father for being so late but my sensei kept me there for a while”.

“I also took time to get to know my current teammates”.

“Apology accepted,you should probably go take a bath your are filthy”.

“I will immediately father”~ I responded while bowing.

I greeted the others quietly before leaving and heading towards my quarters.

From the corner of my eyes i could see that they were disappointed i didn’t stay.

Especially Hinata.

“Intriguing”

Sorry for late update,i was procrastinating.

This was not really a chapter as it was a closer look at the mc.

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