Whelp I’m an idiot. Information, information is key and I spewed it. I would love to think it was all some weird part of the world trying to make me like the game character but she was less the chatty but the inquisitive type that asked the mc to go to place of tutorial nature or plot but didn't know it all or if she did, she bloody well should have used that info better to stay alive. So probably not but possible, I would love to believe it was me trying to look out for the guy and inform him so he can save the world and whatnot. But let's face it if I was looking out for this world I would use my knowledge and save it myself.

Hmm Did I want him to find me out? Or to follow me? Who knows, he follows me but I'm a NPC to him…so I guess that means he wants me. 

To follow him in his party. But hah no I am going to use this life to live and to live you must survive, the best way to survive is to not be in danger in the first place. And the best way when you are already in danger is to get away from that danger, and as such I should prioritise learning how best to runaway.

Why should I care about a world that has the same in truth life span as this body does. Sure it's a world I helped to create and imagine, sure it's built around mostly my concept art but it was in the end the gods creation around a game…and can I really justify living my life as a gods puppet.

Can I justify leaving an entire planet of people to suffer who would not exist without me.

 I should stop thinking about this, I'm not strong enough to save or flee from this world so I should…I should Grind. But what, skills, levels or stats.

Because let's face it I can do any grinding levels up just to 10 will allow me to obtain a class which will make me that much stronger but with a class if it follows the rules of the game comes more restrictions on what you can learn and how you can progress, taking a class means restricting myself and starting down special direction.

 Where if I grow stats I will have tough repetitive time doing the same crap over and over to just grow a bit in those areas, but it will work and starting that after getting levels and it's free stat buffs will be harder as each numerical value is harder than the last, which is why the free ones from levels are so useful and why levelling is seen as so powerful even without classes.

So doing some stat training before I level would seem a good idea but I don't really think I have the concentration to solo train that way hell to major in that root is beyond me. 

So skill grinding but is that obtaining new ones or ranks. The problem with skills in the game is that most the advance skills have a level as well as a grade or just a level. And since that means using the points obtained from levelling up that pushes us back to the dilemma, of which to do, no which to prioritise I should do some in all but what is my goal…wow I love circles don't I no wonder people say I was unfocused, this is ridiculous.

Ok, ok, so let's just put this into easy notes and options.

1)I have some knowledge through playing who knows how many days of beta+ alpha footage of the game, while this maybe useful I do not know how much the world will in fact follow the game as the earliest part of the game past the the gender and name selection happens at the age of 5 that's Hiros first quest as far as the games concerned then skips forward to 12yrs old then 18 and onwards with a few skips until age 105…so yeah you maybe able to see why I'm not so keen, if it was just a problem that could be solved within something reasonable say 10-20 yrs  why not people usually have a longer working life but… This game was to be an epic a heroes odyssey spanning life times ages passing a tree growing from sprout to fruition to becoming apart of what could be a grand city or a tiny oasis in a  desolate waste. 

It would be too much… And yet I doubt the God told this mc that. I doubt any of the other heroes know that the problem may be cut short early but more will grow, as it is a world built for epic journeys and dangers to always end up happening, no matter the years of peace in the middle which there will strangely be a few and we will end up having to live through every day of that peace knowing danger will come again and again.

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Can I really entrust myself to try and keep it together just because I helped make it.

Can I not.

I failed at making a short list again…I'm bad with lists argh planing is so hard, why couldn't I have been born a great strategist or something, or at least someone who could keep a train of thought straight.

Ok yeah let's continue 

2) I am not alone the God sent others with me and there are whole bunch that are optional companions in the game after all the game had to keep you well stacked with how it loved the idea of letting you get them killed, so as to better humanity or the world in someway. So it's not like there aren't enough other people who want and will do attempt the jobs even if none of us do, though many will probably fail without outside help. 

But of outside sources I will take from how both me and Hiro have the different difficulty types that there is 6 of us never mind that is also the part size of the game so too many things point to it…but the God could have summoned more but till I know to her wise I'm gonna believe 6. 

Very easy (or the guy who will be rich and Op stat wise but if game restrictions apply has next to nothing but basic «Hero» for his heroic level class.)

Easy: Hiro ( the true very easy difficulty as actual very easy becomes hard with only 1 real heroic class available for all team members never mind boring)

Normal: ( the dude/dudett that gets the vaguest perk, and yet the one I enjoyed the most)

Hard: ( the person with the double edged sword perk)

Very hard: Me ( I’ve thought about me enough that I will simply comment; enough said. hehe always wanted to say that… And still do, I will put it on my bucket list once I make one for this lifetime, and one for my last lifetime just so I can watch it burn when I have one of those emo moments and I want to think about all the shit I didn't do.yeah)

And the one unlocked after completing either of the hard difficulties the pitiable life form  most likely never going to survive till we meet who's playing this life on Doomed mode, hehe and you can tell just by how in stead of legend or hardcore for the highest difficulty but rather Doomed being its name shows how much that word got sent to me and probably everyone working on this game as a concept.

 I may as well mark this person as not appearing in my party as I would flee at the concept of joking the doomed person, no souls game has anywhere near the death toile as that difficulty.

So with five likely living reincarnated personnel there is likely going to be a lot of changes to how events will play out never minding the whole it's a world with a lot of free will for people rather than game logics overruling power of plot compels thee ideas pushing everything.

So I forget what was I thinking about…isn't that the way when you think on this stuff, you forget the point you were trying to focus on in the spiral… Oh well let's just go out… I wonder if I can sneak into a cart and ride to the next town over if I can I'll have at least some where to use my power to teleport me to and from.

Ohh and then I can see how much grinding helps for a ranking skill with no actual mana cost…never mind it's normal rate of growth with its godly edit I wonder if it grows at all…but if it does ooh how many ranks can it grow hehehe. Maybe escape won't be too far to become an option, though part of me thinks that will probably be a level evolution to reach. 

But we can only find out as we go.

“Mam I'm going out”

“Fine…but if I hear you have burned anything down, I will get the blacksmith to build me a cage and maybe a collar for you.”

“Yes Mam. Though Mam I do think you need to think about maybe getting out yourself, your getting to sound pretty scary cramped up in here.”

“ And who is the blame for that…Grrh why couldn't she have stayed as the quiet baby. Though maybe that's the problem with how she was to start off with, she seems to be worse as time progresses while other parents are just happy their baby isn't crying all the time anymore…who knows I never got any of that from this one urg…”

“ see you when I get back mam”