"Luna ..."

"I know. You too."

"Yes!"

Luna and Carla stood at the entry of the camp. She had already said her goodbyes to Max. The soldiers were still preparing their departure. Some had already black colour on their faces and hands while wearing hooded cloaks.

'She will worry about me even if I tell her not to.' thought Luna.

Carla hugged Luna. Luna in turn closed her arms around Carla in an awkward way not knowing what to feel. Of course she was aware of Carla's feelings for her. The first time that she noticed that Carla might feel more than friendship or sisterly love was four years ago. Carla was sixteen at the time and Luna fifteen or sixteen. Luna didn't know her own age or her birthday. She estimated that she spent five years at the human farms and three years wandering around on the demon continent, which would mean that she was now nineteen. Other girls her age in this world would be married by now and even have children, but not Luna. She didn't dare to form a relationship. Did she deserve to love and be loved? She knew Carla now for ten years. Would she stay with her even as a lover?

'The advantage of having Carla as a girlfriend would be that it would repel this dipshit of a prince' thought Luna. She giggled at the thought of telling him that she is lesbian and that Carla is her girlfriend.

Carla released Luna from her embrace and looked confused at Luna.

"Is something wrong? Why are you laughing?"

Luna immediately came back from her thoughts.

"Oh, sorry. I was just thinking of something."

"What have you been thinking about."

"Oh, nothing."

'Thinking about random jokes while I'm hugging her. Luna is such a meany. I know that I have no chance with her but this is ... sobering.' thought Carla not understanding Luna a bit.

"Fine~, keep your secrets. I don't care."

For some reason a warm feeling spread inside Luna. Carla's reaction was too cute and her face still only centimeters away from her face. Luna kissed her on the cheek before she knew why.

'Why did I do that.'

'Luna kissed me.'

Luna took a step back while pretending nothing was wrong. 'Pretend it was nothing major!' Luna smiled a fake smile.

"We see each other in four days. No reason to be so concerned."

'She wanted to take my worries away? But ... her behaviour is still strange. So unlike the normal Luna. Her eyes seem less cold and sad that usual ... but why a kiss. Well we are both girls but just kissing. But it was just on the cheek ...'

"Carla?"

"Y-yes, Luna."

"Is something wrong?"

"No, I see you in four days."

"Yes ... goodbye Carla."

Luna coated herself in mana and vanished as fast as the wind.

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Luna ran on the great demon road while being deep in thoughts.

'Why do I act like a shy child. It's not like I'm a virgin that never had a relationship.'

Her last real relationship was technically in past live but she did have sex in her new body before. So why was she so flustered when it came to Carla.

Luna had been empty, numb and cold-hearted during the three years she had spent on the demon continent. It was just kill, eat and sleep. Kill, eat and sleep. But this slowly changed after she began to live amongst humans again. Especially after she meet Carla. The small child who lost her parents didn't want to part from Luna, no matter what, when she heard that Luna's parents were dead too. "I'll be your family and you'll be mine" mumbled Luna remembering Carlas words all those years ago. When puberty hit her body Luna had already changed quiet a lot. The memories of her past life probably accelerated that process. She stopped being numb and empty but her hate for demons still burned like an inexhaustible flame.

Sexuality is confusing for all humans during their puberty. This is especially true if you are a little girl with the memories of middle-aged man. She remembered how it was to have sex as a man with a woman. What a wonderful feeling. She quivered. Why didn't I thought about this during my second childhood? Stupid hormones. But was she into men or women. The person from her past life shouted that it must be a woman but she wasn't so sure. Why not try it out. All humans are in the end just souls inhabiting bodies for a short while. She should know. All people were just in a, probable eternal, cycle of death and rebirth. Sometimes as men and sometimes as women. So why not try out how it feels for a woman to have sex with a man or woman. Her first and likely last time with a boy was with a shy but cute farmer boy named Alex she meet during a subjugation mission for the monster guild. She was fifteen and he sixteen and probably in love with her. She liked him too but not in a romantic sense. Luna had met him several times always telling Carla that she would go on a monster subjugation mission. She had to be remarkable proactive because he was so shy. But it wasn't what she had hoped for. She just felt empty and numb. His disgusting liquid inside of her contaminated her. What an amusing thought from a psychopathic killer. But it was something she never wanted to experience again. She never saw him again after promising to meet him the next day. Shortly after that she realized Carla's feelings for her. Carla would be shy and nervous on one day and possessive and clingy on the other day. She even saw her sniffling Luna's underwear. But she didn't confront the little pervert with what she saw. After all, what would happen afterwards? Could they still be sisters?

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Her second time was with a girl. Not any girl but princess Jana Namar, the sister of John Namar. Non of them were in love with each other. She doubts that Jana can fall in love at all. She might seem innocent and cute on the outside but inside she was cruel and manipulative. It was just a game for Jana and a pastime for Luna. Luna was seventeen by then and already a colonel in the imperial army. This was her pretext to visit the castle. I hindsight it was probably Jana that initiated their liaison but at the time Luna thought that she ensnared the cute, innocent princess. Well, Jana was a puppet master after all. But it was fun. Especially not getting caught was exiting. On night they did it even on the throne of her father. Every time Luna had an audience with the king she was reminded of that night. It is always hard not to laugh. Their affair ended after a couple of months without any hard feelings. By now she should be engaged to some noble boy. The most important lesson from this for Luna was that she now knew that she is lesbian.

'But it is completely different with Carla. It isn't just physical affection. I just want to be together with her.'

She imagined a naked Carlas smiling at her. Her face became hot. But then the naked Carla turned in the naked and dead body of her mother. Her left arm and right arm were missing because two nearby demons had cut them off to grill them above their campfire. Her empty eyes looked to Luna while her lips formed the word 'Why?'. Tears ran down Luna's cheeks.

'I can't. Everyone I love will die a horrible death. It's better for her. For Carla's sake I must keep my distance.'

Tears were now streaming down from her eyes. She arrived at the first demon town, Kirk. Two demon soldiers at the gate looked baffled at the crying human girl that appeared seemingly out of nothing hundred meters in front of them.

'I should concentrate on what I can do best.'

She walked slowly in the direction of the two demon soldiers.

'This is the meaning of this life. This why I was born in that nightmare.'

She tightly gripped her sword. The demons woke up from their stupor, but it was already to late.

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Carla walked together with the army to the north. Her face was also painted black and she wore a hooded cloak. Her cheek burned where Luna had kissed her.

'Was this just a kiss under friends or sisters? I'm stupid. I know after all that Luna likes boys. I've seen her with that farmer boy after all four years ago. My love is hopeless.'

She remembered how much she cried that night and how happy she was when Luna stopped visiting that village. That was also the time when she realized without a doubt that her feelings aren't the love of a sister but romantic feelings.

'Should I confess to her. No! I will loss her if I do that. I'm her sister. Well technically my job is that of her maid and assistance in this army. It's fun to call her mistress when we are on a mission. She has already given up on correcting me.' Carla giggled.

'I should do nothing. That way I can stay with her.'

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Authors note: Too cheesy?