There are more than 7 billion people in the earth.

About 2.5 billion are failures who can’t achieve much in life however much they try.

And me? Duuuh , Of course. I’m one of them.

I didn’t know when my life started to fall.

My family is relatively well-off. Living in the countryside, having an elder sister working as a lawyer, a little sister who’s about to graduate college, and a single mother owning a restaurant.

I’m currently in my shabby and dark apartment room, thinking what should I do next after failing my college exam about 5 times at the age of 23 yr old.

'Should I just give up studying and return home? ’

‘Some of my friends back in high school are already finding jobs and I’m still here depending money from my mum ’

‘I sacrificed my social life to study 14 hours a day for 5 years, and I still can’t pass that damn exam! ’

I snapped out of my depressing thoughts and sat down in front of my computer.

I started browsing the internet while drinking a can of coke with a blanket covering me and thought that my family will be seriously disappointed if they saw my current appearance.

My eyes widened when I suddenly saw a post on facebook saying.

‘’Sylvia Faye is in a relationship with Jason Parker.-today.’’

I blankly look at the monitor staring at my ex’s name to see if it's really her name while thinking.

‘What the fuck?’

‘She said she will wait for me!’

‘I know no woman would patiently wait for a lot of years not knowing if I really would succeed but I cling to the hope that you’re different Sylvia!’

‘Even though we’ve known each other since we were kids’

‘Is this because of my incompetence?!’

‘And fuck that Jason even though she said they’re just friends when we’re going out I bet they’re already cheating on me at that time’

I slumped in my chair staring lifelessly at the ceiling thinking.

‘Why am I such a failure. I had focus solely on studying for the past few years why didn’t my hard work paid off’

I comforted myself thinking that there are millions of woman out there why do I need to be depressed over one.

I’m about to go to bed when my smart phone suddenly buzz.

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The caller’s name says it's from my mum.

‘Oh shit’

I picked it up and happily answered.

‘’Hello?’’

‘’Son, How’s the result?’’

I stiffened for a second then lied.

‘’Eh? O-of course I p-pass’’

‘’SOOOOOOOOON’’

‘’Yeeeeeeeeeeees?’’

‘’Is that true?’’

‘’Ha? O-of course it is!, E-even though I look like this my hard work finally paid off’’

‘’Is that REALLY true?’’

I thought my mother was about to believe me so I confidently answered.

‘’Heh! That damn entrance exam looks hard but if you study really hard for 5 yrs it will just be a piece of cake.’’

I realise what I’ve said and I can't help but say to myself how the fuck is it a piece of cake you moron with a bit of tear in my eyes.

‘’Oh? Isn’t this a good news, I’ll tell Abby to check your scor-’’ (Author:Abby is mc’s little sister in college)

‘’MUM IM SORRY!, I failed again and disgrace our family’’

Mum sighed on the other side and said.

‘’I’ve told you, son, to just manage the restaurant here with your mum at least you won’t need to worry about income’’

‘’But-’’

‘’But I had studied hard enough and I believe it will pay off, Is that what you want to say again ?’’

I thought for a moment then answered.

‘’But it will definitely pay off mum, it definitely will’’

Even I am unsure of my answer.

‘’Son next year you will be 24, can’t you be a bit more responsible.Our next door neighbour’s son is already married with 3 kids.’’

I can’t help but wince and thought that the old lady next door brag again in front of mum.

"Mum, I’m still young I still don’t have much plan for having a family’’

"And you also got no plans to pass the exams’’

I can’t help but be dumbfounded.Even my own mum is roasting me, I need to tell elder sister Laura to make mum stop surfing the internet too much.  

"Anyway, I need to go now goodnight mum’’

I pressed the end button and threw the phone softly to the bed and lay down depressingly.

Failing college entrance exam 5 times, going home to the countryside without much choice, helping the restaurant by washing the dishes and sweeping the floor. Who wants to live their life washing plates and be proud. (Author: I don’t mean anything bad for all the dishwashers out there)

I want to succeed.

I want my hard work to pay off.

I want my family to be proud of me.

I want to…change.