(A.N.: This chapter should have been out on Sunday already. But guess what? I had no internet connection when I previewed it. Do you know what that means? All my unsaved work was for nothing. I was so inspired on that Sunday that I wrote it all in one sitting. And then: BOOM! No internet for you, motherfucker! I was quite queasy about this chapter since I had to force myself to write it after the depressing set-back on Sunday.

On another note: I got an idea for another fiction but I don't want you guys to think that I will stop writing this one for the sake of the new one I want to post, but fear not. The new one will most likely only get a chapter once a month or so, or in other words: 'When I feel like it.'

I hope you guys will enjoy this chapter! It will show major changes in the MC's personality. Enjoy it anyway :D )

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I failed.

I failed them all. Us.

I was too naive, too thoughtless about my own action, or rather inaction.

I should have seen it coming. I should have been able to prevent disaster from striking. I was, but I decided not to.

It was my own hybris -my own ARROGANCE!- that led to this...

I bid my time. I was waiting for a reason, a reason to intervene, but by then it was far too late.

And now I can only gaze at myself falling down the abyss.

But who could have known? Who could have known what humans are capable of?!

Impossibilities, irregularities, that's what humans are! They are unnatural, defying the laws of creation, repulsing God's essence!

It is.... their own fault.

But I continue to stare at the horizon, sundown kissing the earth, before the second dawn will arive. But it won't be just one, but many. Like stars they will shine brightly, even amidst the light of day. Their sheen white and brilliant yet profane as it thunders across mountains, valleys, seas and cities and leaves only ash behind.

Entheal idea, man-made but with divine power, nay, with power that overthrows the natural order, far from divine after all. Machinations to horrible, to repulsive that their very idea erased lives and will erase lives.

I watch on as a collective *click* echoes across this world, signalling the end of humanity.

The wind mellowed, nearly died down completely, as the silent and last tick passes.

*BOOM!*

Whereas before only a few dimmed and dying lights littered the soft, orange-coloured sky, the stars were now countless, wonderful lightworks happening all around the globe. And then...

Pain.

A crackling jolt. A excruciating sense of agony that set my insides aflame. A black tide that drowned me in muffled screams, cries and pleas for help, tears of the innocent and bonds unmade. I felt the full brunt of mankinds emotions in this single moment, as explosion upon explosion ravaged their homes, their havens.

Searing fulmination tore through their cities, rend whole landscapes apart and turned peace into shatters.

And it was all my fault.

Nearly I keeled over as the nauseating pain settled into my marrow, as a heavy stench of death began circling this world. Teary-eyed I despaired but kept my sight on the last memory of men. Those insconpicuous fireworks at the distance, so innocent from afar but so abhorrent from up close, served as a last testimonial of human ingenuity; as self-destructive as they were humans were an ingenious bunch to boot.

My heart ached, split apart, as I continued to listen to lamentation and sorrow alike. But thereafter, as the last bombs detonated, a far different feeling spread through my chest.

Like vile claws it ripped straight through me, pierced into my guts, spilled my offals and snaked into my flesh. It was a feeling far different from ever before. An impending sense of doom, a feeling of loss; my instincts shrieked in terror.

I knew what it was.

It was the grasp of death. It was the moment where I lost my divinity, my immortality. I have failed my task and now I would pay the price for it.

I can still remember the day I was set into this world, my eyes meeting those of my creator. Albeit God's life was rapidly dwindling he still had a smile on his face, for he knew: 'My task is done. I succeeded.'. God had all the solace he needed, a sense of fulfillment his reparation. But I had none of that.

I would die a miserable death for I have sinned greatly.

My eyes wandered from humanities last and ephemeral memorial towards the small cowering figure at my side. I had seen and felt enough death for my limited life time, my sights were tainted enough already. To prove my point I took her into a deep embrace, one that I was unwilling to part with.

She was so beautiful, as beautiful as on the day I met her. No -what a fallacy on my side-, she was even more beautiful.

Long, platinum hair cascading down her slim shoulders; almond shaped eyes with argent iris fringed by long, white lashes; high cheekbones with a rosey tinge; a petite and straight button nose -so cute-; and full, perky lips that beg one to be kissed, bitten and enjoyed.

Her beauty was unearthly, surpassing even imagination. Fairlec incarnate, the embodiement of beauty, nothing more to say.

I caressed her tender cheeks while she wrinkled her nose, trying to stiffle the sob that would inevitably come. My embrace tightened, her face pressed against my chest until her hot breaths tickled my skin. I doted greatly on this frail girl, I loved her after all. But when I felt her dodder, her body jerk and her fists clench I knew that something was amiss. Rightfully so.

The waterworks began with but a silent whimper. Her eyes reddened, tears framed them like beads. And she started to cry, she bawled her eyes out, her tears searing scarred cuts into my flesh. I hushed my darling little love, patted her, showered her with my attention and love but no consolation worked.

The rumble of the earth beneath us remained steady -each quake rendering my self a bit less alive- was now accentuated by a constant thrumming on my chest.

With her tiny fists she slammed against me, her lips twisting into a frown while red tears streamed down her face.

"Why...Why? Why?! WHY?! WHY?!", she leant against me, brow pressed tightly on my collar and fists resting on my shoulders. Breathing in the hot air with a disgruntled scowl I knew the bout was far from over. I knew another flight of rage was awaiting me. I knew I should face my lover. So why were my eyes drawn to the sky? Unable to swallow the truth I averted my sight, angry and saddened about my own weak self.

"Why did we not stop this... this... THIS MADNESS!", her voice cracked and she slumped onto the cold and soon-to-be lifeless ground.

I had no answer satisfying enough for her, only nonsensical excuses how it wasn't our place to intervene. All I got were just empty excuses...

Unconsciously I tightened my grip around her wipsy back but she pulled away and my arm passed frigid air.

'No.... Don't do this to me...', I cried out in silence as I saw her part our embrace and walk away from me, one step at a time. She looked up, her eyes dull yet fierce, before she tilted her head sideways, held her left arm with her right hand and whispered: "I am sorry Hirahn.".

The woman I loved turned her back on me and now she stood too far for me to reach, all alone, forlorn, both of us.

The fear of death that harried my mind, the aching hole in my chest, the pain that flooded from all that was alive, they all paled in comparison to the fathomless anguish I felt at that exact moment. To see your one and only true soulmate dismiss you, turn away from you, is something no living, dead or dying creature should ever experience. It is pure, raw, utter, undiluted... torment. Torture that threatened your very soul.

In all but a single moment I lost everything. 

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With a heart heavy yet empty of emotion I carried out my last days on what was once called Earth.

Millenia -Or eons? I couldn't bother to count anymore and frankly, I didn't care- passed by uneventfully. Life ceased to exist on the once beautiful green and blue earth. Deciduous forests reduced to black shambles, cerulean oceans expunged from their water until barren wastelands grimaced towards the grey sky. Earth had died.

Although Earth had died, its crust rimous and slowly spalling much like my own soul, I carried out my duty and watched day and night how time passed by.

It was somewhat of a habbit now. Leaning against the carbonized remains of a once tall and mighty oak, a sentinel of the forest, ever watchful and giving shade, reduced to a cracked husk.

The tree was uprooted by the shockwaves in the past, as if a giant had trampled it over, but for me it worked just fine.

I let my body slouch down onto the hard bark. There was nothing to do for me anymore so I just laid there, paitently awaiting my own end. But today was no such day.

The morning rays were blighting, the only way I can describe the sunlight glaring down from above, as always since the past few years. Harmful to normal mortals but not to me in any way. I was, after all, a construct made up purely of God's life force. I had the capability to shatter stars, much less this single planet, but I couldn't do it. This... gaol was after all my birthplace, in a sense, and furthermore, it was a part of me as well. It was my home, and that of my lover. Whatever I tried to do I could NOT contest the reluctance in my heart. 

So I laid there, bored, with nothing to goad me and no one to love as I sensed a faint tremble in the air. 'Weird', I thought and tilted my heavy body sideways.

The glaring sun blinded my eyes for but a second before the fog cleared and the wonderful figure of a fair maiden was silhouetted against the dark background.

"Saraya.", my lips uttered in disbelieve. Her appearance stirred a crimson wildfire in my cold heart. My muscles trembled, my skin felt fresher and my lips quivered in anticipation.

"W-What are you doing here?", I asked in a husky voice.

She was never gone but never at my side over the last few millenia, always avoiding any contact, explicitly surrendering me.

She looked hurt, in an emotional sense. Her body was trembling softly but not from the cool.

"Hirahn...", she mumbled and the wind delightfully carried her voice. "Do you hate me?", my mind and thoughts throttled into a crawl. What is she talking about?!

"Hate you? Are you... How can you think something like that!?", I shouted and tears streamed from my eyes.

"I will always love you! I will never, never, NEVER! hate you... I can't, my dear...", my voice cracked but I had to pass on my conviction. I would not once think about hating her much less actually detesting her. Only a fool and weakling would, and I had my fair share of failures in the past already.

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"Huh.". Her body jerked, her shoulders stiffened.

"Ha... Hahaha... Hahahahaha!", she began laughing histerically. 'What a wonderful voice.', is all I thought at that moment.

"Of course.... I am such an idiot. You...", her lips shut and likewise did her eyes. She inhaled before her very own streams of tears flowed down her eyes. "You could never hate me... Why?!", the last part was only a faint whisper.

"Why can't you hate me!?", now she screamed her desperation.

"It would be so much easier then.", she took a step forward into my direction.

"If... If you only hated me...", her pace quickened.

"Then... Then you could leave.", she jumped the last stretch into my arms and I gleefully accepted the silly girl.

"Hate me Hirahn...", she whispered into my chest. "Hate me, then you can leave.". I would never accept her proposal.

"I am sorry my love, but I can't. How could I hate someone has cute as you?; As intelligent as you?; As steadfast as you?; As strong as you?", I held soft strands of hair between my right and gently touched her fair skinned cheeks with my left. I lifted her chin up and gazed deep into her silvern eyes. I leaned closer and gave her a well deserved kiss. Foolish girl, who could hate her?

"But...", she whimpered.

"This will only make it so much more painful for you.", I raised my eyebrows to her odd statement.

"What do you mean?", but no answer came.

Gently I parted from the embrace, pushed her shoulders away with my own arms.

My heart split in two.

'How had I not noticed?', I starred dumbfounded at the iridescent shard propped up inside her chest.

"S-Saraya... What is the meaning of this?", my voice was weak, unlike the vivid crimson that flowed from between her breasts.

"S-S-SARAYA!", I screamed and panicked, my hands uselessly flailing about as my mind already noticed: It's too late.

The shard had pierced straight through her heart, her life stopping at that exact same moment. That stupid girl still held a hand around the sharp object, her suicidal attempt successful.

"H-How... How could you do this to yourself?", I placed the girl on the ground. Her eyes were tightly shut, her face was starting to pale, but her lips formed a charming smile.

"Answer me.", I commanded the lifeless corpse, the memory of Saraya. It's lips remained tightly sealed.

"Ha... Hahaha.... HAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHA!", now it was my turn to laugh. Now it was my turn to let my emotions reign free.

The earth shattered beneath my feet, the air trembled and even sunshine began to be swallowed by shadows as dark as my madness.

"It was their fault...", my feverish mind spoke. "It was the humans fault. They killed her... Their stupidity killed her, killed us!", and my might was finally unleashed.

Thunder arched against the parched soil, turning the lowlands into mighty ravines. Fire spewed from my skin, incinerating reality itself. Shockwave after shockwave bursted forth from me, banging against the fabric of this universe. My eyes glazed over, my veins shone in the light of gilden magma and my blonde hair turned into angelic threats, purging the lands with the slightest touch.

"THIS IS NOT MY HOME NO MORE!

MY DUTY SHALL NOT BE FULLFILLED!

DO YOU HEAR ME, FATHER?!"

I expected no answer, not from a dead being.

The task he had given us could never be completed, it was more akin to a curse. And if he wishes to curse his own child, the he shall have a damned being as his son.

'This world will be the first I shall purge!'. Berserk was my mind, furious my thoughts.

'And then... More shall follow.'. A dark promise spread through my mind.

I ascended further heavenwards, my body lifted by invisible strings, before I looked down upon the earth I so shamelessly thought to be my home. What home can it be if there is nothing but pain awaiting me?

In my hands cosmic power began amassing. Static of raw energy began to undulate between my fingers. The flow of time cowered and cambered beneath the pressure of my unsourmountable power.

I held my arms high into the air, as if presenting those two orbs of writhing death to the Gods -pah!- but there were none as I myself was the only one.

My fingers clenched around the globes of dazzling light, each with the might to pulverize a galaxy, and I tightened the grip further. I felt the energy flicker under my own strength before it succumbed and surrendered to me. Then my fists shut completely.

A different kind of explosion rang out, one that did not simply destroy but dematerialized everything in its wake. It was a kind of energy that let all perish that dared to stood in its way. And the first obstacle was this detestable planet.

The heap of stone and corpses, once called Earth, posed no hindrance to the destruction I released. 'You could have learned something from me, humans.', I chuckled devilishly.

Fervently I watched on as the wave of carange, as the law of destruction itself, spread over the planet. But it stopped.

A light unlike my own, much purer, much more innocent, began glowing beneath me. My head glared down and my eyes widened.

'I...I... What was I thinking...'. I sighed and let the power receed back into my hands before I stashed it away like some everyday object.

I slowly descended, down below where now a large chuck of land was missing. My feet taped on the ground besides the lifeless body of Saraya.

'Seriously...'. Earth might not be my home anymore, but it certainly was hers still. Could I truly destroy her place? Do I have it in my heart to betray my love? No... I could not and do not.

"I am really a fool, ain't I Saraya?". It begged the question what I was doing at the moment. Speaking to a lifeless corpse, when before I was trying to detroy the world. I am a fool.

"You loved this place, didn't you?". I began talking.

"Do you still remember the day we met?". I turned to the side with a gentle smile, slowly sitting down on the ground at the same time.

"You were so embarrassed that I have seen you naked.", I chuckled lightly as the memory began coming back.

"You couldn't even look me in the eyes the first few years. And we were the only beings in this lonely universe at that time. I really wondered how long you could keep this up.", I slapped my thigh and laughed out loud, twice as loud as before, so that Saraya could laugh with me.

"You were so docile. Always shy around me. But after countless years you openned up to me."

"Do you still remember when I made a sculpture of you out of a whole mountain? You were so surprised and I knew you liked it. Even as you stared at the ground I could see the smile floating on your face."

"Remember when I nearly destroyed this planet because you stepped in dinosaur poo? Fortunately after my little 'talk' with them that won't ever happen again.",  my laugh was unrestricted and I began curling up as my stomach began aching.

"Or when that idiot kingdom actually dared to proclaim their princess was more beautiful than you. Can't say that anymore after I pushed their capital Atlantis onto the seabed."

"Do you still remember our first embrace?"

"Do you still remember our first kiss?"

"Do you still remeber our first night we spent together? Under glitering moonlight."

"Do you still remember when I promised you: I will never leave you?"

"Do you still remember when we promised to always care for each other and to never be apart? That not even death do us apart?"

"We were immortal, we would always be together... Death would stand no chance against us after all."

"So why... Why have you broken your promise?"

"Why..."

"Why did you leave me?"

"Why?"

I stood up from the ground, dusted of my body and stared into the sun. I myself couldn't see the shimmering tears, but I felt them.

"Now I lost my home, my way, and my only light. Saraya, you were like a candle in the dark for me. But I never thought that your light would come to an end..."

"But this is what you wished for, isn't it? You couldn't leave me alone after all. You couldn't leave my weak self alone and had to sacrifice yourself. Because of me. Not because of the humans, but because of me. I am weak after all, am I not Saraya?"

"You know I don't want to leave you. But in the future, when I die, and I did not take up on your offer you will certainly scold me high up in the heavens. Maybe you will even spank me!"

"That's why I will not let your.... death.... be in vain."

"I will live. I will keep living! So that your memory will stay alive. Yes... your memory won't die! 

YOUR MEMORY WILL NEVER DIE! 

YOU! WILL! NEVER! DIE!!!

And so I raised my chest in defiance against the heavens and let my hands tear through dimensions.

"I will find a place to live. A place were we can be happy."

I blinked, gulped and glared into the blue rift that openned up before me.

"I love you, Saraya."

And stepped in.

The light behind me soon faded, the last light of my old world.