Scene 15 - October 21st
Interior Townhouse, Early Afternoon
Quinn Kaufman
“...and after I was done crying, I walked back home and went to bed,” I said, wrapping up the tale of what had happened while my dad was out last night. “You weren’t home just yet, I don’t think, but both Legion and Canaveral were gone when I got back here.”
Dad was silent for a bit as he digested this. “I’m not exactly happy that such a dangerous villain was right outside our house,” he said eventually. “It doesn’t seem like there was anything you could do about that, though, and you did everything you could - more than you should have maybe, but you did great.”
I stared in surprise.
“What?” he asked. “Did you think I was going to be mad at you?”
“Well... you seemed upset about the gun thing,” I ventured.
He shook his head. “I wasn’t angry that you were in danger. Worried, sure, but if you’re considering being a hero, then you’re going to be in danger a lot, and that’s just something I need to get used to. I was upset because it seemed like you hadn’t noticed the danger, which is another thing entirely.”
Dad tapped his fingers impatiently for a moment. “I’m certain there’s a quote that’s applicable here, but for the life of me I can’t think of it,” he complained. “The point I’m trying to make, though, is that I don’t want you to rush into danger without being aware of it. That’s how you get hurt. And I don’t want you to forget when you are in danger. But what you did last night?” He took my hand and squeezed it encouragingly. “You knew that you were in danger, but you didn’t fall apart until afterward. And then, when the danger wasn’t actually over, you held together until it was.
“I admit that I probably don’t know much about what it takes to be a hero, but I would think that being able to put things aside when you have to is important.”
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I blinked at him. “Why did I think you didn’t want me to be a hero?”
“I have no idea, kid,” he said with a chuckle. “I would love for you to be a hero. I think you would do amazing. And I don’t want you to give up on that just because you don’t think you can - if you really don’t want to, that’s one thing, but...”
I sighed. “I honestly don’t know at this point, Dad. That fight was...” I drummed my fingers on the table beneath his hand, and he released me. “Exhilarating,” I finally said. “I know that probably sounds weird, but...”
“Not at all, a lot of people think adrenaline feels great.”
I ignored him.
“I enjoyed it as I was doing it. But I was so useless. All I did was get in the way.”
“You’ll be trained,” Dad said, trying to comfort me.
“Training? What good will that do when my powers couldn’t do anything? I couldn’t protect myself, I couldn’t help Canaveral, all I could do was...” I sighed, looking away. “All I could do was run away.”
“Quinn. Kiddo.” Dad gently took my chin and turned my head so he could look into my eyes. “You’re letting your anxieties get the better of you,” he told me, seriously. “You’re a beginner at the hero thing - less than that, you haven’t even really started. You can’t compare yourself to people who’ve been doing this five, ten years, and expect to match up perfectly.”
“But I’ll have to, no one is going to slow down to match me -”
“How long have you been training to be a doctor?”
I blinked. “A little over three years, I guess?”
“Does that match up to actual doctors?”
“Of course not, they have another five years of schooling over me, not to mention years of residency before they’re proper doctors on their own-”
“Would you expect yourself to match up to a doctor, then?”
“Well, no, not until I’m through with school-”
“So why are you comparing yourself to heroes when you haven’t even had six months of training?”
I closed my eyes and leaned forward, resting my head on the table. “I guess you’re right.”
“I usually am, kiddo,” Dad said, and even though I wasn’t looking at him I could hear the smile in his voice. “And here’s another secret for you - if someone was injured, and the only other person to help them was some random guy without even your three years of premed, which do you think they would want to help them?”
“...me.”
“There you are then.”
I raised my head. “Maybe it’s just... I feel like I’d be throwing my medical career away, if I went into hero work. It’s not exactly a part-time job, once you’re through the Journeymen. It feels like I’d be losing the progress I’ve made towards one long and difficult career just to start all over in another.”
Dad patted me on the shoulder. “You’d be helping people either way, and either way I’ll be proud of you. And Quinn...” he paused, as though unsure he should say what came next. “Your mother would be too.”