Flinn was feeling his headache. It was a burning sensation which was affecting part of his frontal brain. Days had been moving by and he felt lost.

What was his meaning. What was the meaning of live in general he pondered. There had to be a reason for everything to exist. Something more to live than just his life as an average student, not studying and instead just being addicted to various entertainment and streaming websites. Just cause it gave him a feeling of short satisfaction and he could forget life for a moment.

It had been especially hard on him the last couple of days when he had to prepare for his exams but could just not concentrate and felt constantly depressed. Is this life he wondered?

Nothing worked. not even the videos on Youtube would do any more. Its so pointless he thought. Things which had given him an adrenaline kick in the past were now only uninteresting. Everybody was talking about a new disease and its effects. It seemed like everybody had some opinion on it and most people just stayed ignorant and trusted mainstream media just like the tradition told them to.

But even the other side was doing the same old same old. Why do humans always have to fight Flinn wondered. It all felt so pointless. People harassing each other just so they didnt have to feel pain any more.

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The thought made him smile. They just dont realize that this is a never ending cirlce. Who do they hurt others or themselves more ?

If they would just feel into their pain and transform it into love and peace. Wouldnt the world be a better place?

Instead of closing their heart, making them feel worse. The right thing to do would open it wide for love, compassion and forgiveness and peace. Open themself for life energy.

Arent they making it worse than it has to be by being angry and feeling bad ? If they would just open their heart and love themselves instead of closing their hearts and taking it personal they would experienc true bliss he smiled.

Then he did what he had done the last couple of days. Accepting his pain of the past by self loving all there was in the past. He had realized that memories were changeable and what he remembered happening in the past was most likely already very different from what had really happened. If I can change all my past I will be another human being in the present he pondered.

Listening to the solfeggio frequencies on youtube had also helped him a lot. Meditation  and just watching his thoughts without interacting with them helped him disconnect from past traumata and programs which affected his life negatively today.

He knew he had to do the work of transforming pain into self love before he could change his memories wholly. If he did it too fast he would just press emotions aways and close them up somewhere even deeper within himself for them to grow and sabotage him even more.