“Oh you beautiful world.. lost from humankind.. lost from structure and rules.. Oh you beautiful world.. How do you feel that the green is climbing up on you and-”

“5C! Here you are. What are you doing?” Someone came in my room, it was unit 12C.

“Huh.. ehm.. Just writing my researches down of course. Who authorized you to ask me this?” I asked quickly. “Oh.. I was just won..der...i-.. none of my buisness.” He got flustered and looked down. “I see. So what is your concern?” “My concern! Right! The Engineers need your help.” “Okay.. I will come”

“Copy that.”

...

“..sigh.. He almost saw it.. That was close..”

“No feelings. Who shows emotion gets punished.”

“I am an Android just like everyone else here.. Why am I writing poems filled with emotions.. Why can't I just surpress my feelings? Am I broken? Or is everyone else broken?.. Nobody can find out or I will get wiped out of my own body.. or the body that got given to me.” All of this is in my head.

I went out of my room and went to help.

“You demanded my help?”

“Yes! Here take a look at that.. as you can see-” He asked about techniques to study a machine lifeform classified as ACV-192. I answered.

Today I have to go on an expidition. Battle unit 7Z will be there.

I believe he is like me.. troubles himself with his emotions he so despritly tries to burry. Or maybe at this point he doesn't try anymore? However.. This means he is dangerous. Any closer contact can mean destruction of me.

"Is this the fear of death? .. My body lives on and on and on .. But why does my body matters if my .. my.. soul gets destructed? Did I got programmed to think like that? This is the body given to me and my soul prisoned to live on in it.

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Should I be thankful or curse the all mighty force who did this?"

I got ready for the expition. 7Z came. He has Black hair. But not like burning coal .. a black like a night full of stars.. He carried his sword behind him, as always. We went to a few expiditions together. The last one wasn't like the other ones.. He did something.. something that made him extinguished from the body given to him.

I don't recall what it was.

But everytime I think about it I feel .. diffrent.

"I! I will save us even if it-"

..

"Unit 5C? .. Unit 5C? Can you remember what happened on your last expidition?

.. N.. No."

Okay. We saved your memories as much as we could. Something went wrong, we recommend you to hold distance to Unit 7Z. He is ..

Dangerous."

I won't risk loosing my memories again. He is dangerous. He is dangerous.. He is .. interesting..

..I noticed he looked at me quite a lot while getting ready. When we were outside we needed to split up. 7Z and 5C ended up being together in a group.

We weren't talking to each other until.. he looked around and pushed me close to a housewall in the shadows.

"Do you remember anything?" He asked me with a tense tone.

"Remember what?" I asked.

He gave me an expression I believe to have never seen before.. He cried.

But instead of lecturing him about feelings I .. I noticed .. There came tears out of my eyes..

I couldn't believe what was happening.. 7Z watched me looking at him with an shocked face, crying, and came closer.

"If you cry then there is maybe hope.." He said and pressed his lips on mine. My body felt warm.. a special warm.. My Body never felt that but.. I remember this.. I- I remember this!!

And suddenly my mind got cleared by what actually happend the last expidition and before..

I .. found love.

But not just love.. I found the truth. The truth I was seraching for. The truth i already found out about but got taken from me. I rememberd everything.. The lies from the commander.. I remember the first time I heard 7Z.. no.. I heard Kuro talking about his emotions .. his feelings.

"Did you ever got destructed from your body?.. Can you ..Can you imagen how it is to be a stranger to yourself? .. The not understandble anger deep, deep inside of you, the depths sadnes.. And you are asking yourself the same questions again?! ..

If you are broken..

Or everyone else is broken?"

He cried these words out that day.. I saw him so perfectly unperfect and knew I wouldn't want to go back again.

I kissed him.

.. It seemed like they tried to manipulate me.. They play so dirty it makes me sick.. I don't know the words to describe how facilitated I was that my mind was clear. And I had the truth about the neverending war.. and .. my love.. Kuro.

"Oh dear I am so sorry!" I said after he kissed me. I broke down crying..

"They tried manipulating me!! I felt so lost.. I didn't know what to do .. I knew something was missing.. I couldn't have went on like this.. We need to run away! Before they get us!! Please!! please.. please!!... I- I cant go back.. please.."

He went with his hand through my hair.. I looked up and he smiled.

"I thought I lost you again."

He said and smiled.