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New Origins Online
Ch 10 – I Hated Myself.

Ch 10 – I Hated Myself.

This will be probably my last chapter since college is near. I can still write during my vacant but I will be using them to improve all the chapters I posted. I feel like some chapters are void and uninteresting, and also, I will need to add some 3rd person perspective to some chapters. Don't worry, I will be posting again at semestral break. During that time, expect to see some battle scenes since the center of vol 2 would be mainly the potential of the new job black widow

enjoy!

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New Origins Online

Volume 1 – The Town of Beginning, Démarrer.

Ch 10 – I Hated Myself.

“Do you want….to…. become a …Black Widow…and live like the spiders….” She said it in a slow elder voice.

An old woman covered in black cloth with a hood stands in front of me.

Unlike the assassins that has cloths that are fit, her cloth more of a loose.

“A hidden job…”

To think that there is one in this cave.

“That is right…I deal with the hidden class…black widow

-The name’s…..Weones….. and yours, child?”

“nim”

“Aaaah~…..Nim……such a cute name….for a cute lady”

It would have been good if I had just capitalized the n.

-so nim……..do you want the hidden job….black widow?”

The word hidden job is quite tempting.

When something secret and mysterious is presented to you

Naturally, you will be drawn to it.

Curiosity sure is fun

It provides us joy in a form of enigmatic feeling.

And right now, a new play style is presented for me.

“Black widow…being one of the spiders sounds good.”

I have a hobby skill ‘Sewing’

So if I can use the thread to fight

Then it looks good.

“…..I see~…so you want to-”

“-But…..I’m already an assassin...” I cut off her sentence.

But assassin is good enough for me

They somehow fit my style.

Speedy characters,

Silent killers,

And…..quiet people.

I too do not want to talk that much.

Also, I hate spiders.

Why should I become one?

“……Assassin is it?…..how fateful…”

Fateful?

What do you mean by fateful?

“…You must have liked your job…and that is good.”

Ah, I am fateful to my job is what she meant.

“That is a given. I have my pride as an assassin.”

“And you will do also…when you became a black widow… and, also if everyone did have those pride…then we hidden jobs…are non-existent.”

She do have a point.

“Say child… What is it…that you don’t want…from a black widow?...Your pride is not the only reason…I can tell…so what is it you do not want?”

She knows.

Naturally, I try to think for other reasons why I hate black widows.

But I do not know anything about black widows

So only one thought comes to my mind.

‘I hate spiders.’

Was it normal that every job is known to every player?

I really should read that guidebook again.

I don’t want to be teased again like Kyle.

The reason for my hate is shallow.

‘I find them disgusting so I hate them’

This is troubling.

I am starting to hate her.

“What will be my advantage and gain?”

For now, I should put the conversation to beneficiaries.

If I couldn’t find any reason to not like it

Then she will push it until I agree.

But if I can move the conversation to benefits

Then we can both throw arguments at each other.

“Aaaah~…is that the lady’s….concern?…understood…I will explain it...to you”

And she takes the first move.

“Black widows are very agile light-footed…They can move exquisitely well…compared to the others”

“But assassins can also move fast.” I quickly retorted

“But…not as fast as the black widows, my child…We are faster than the assassins…but we are weaker in strength…compared to the assassins”

“Then what is the use? Being fast is not enough if you can’t kill the enemy.”

“Well, we use poisons to kill…just a wound should suffice”

“And against the golems?”

“…..I’m starting to like you child…”

And you are starting to creep me out.

I am hating you.

“Well……we are not that good as potential killers………but……..black widows can…walk at any terrains…..even at walls…..so we can go at any place and kill…sneakily~”

They can walk at walls?

Now that is fantasy for you.

Well they are spiders so it is a given they can walk at walls.

I am almost swept by that ability.

But that is not enough.

“Why do I have to climb? When I can just cloak myself and silently kill them.”

“………”

After that, she stood there silently.

It seems that she is in deep thoughts.

“I see…..You are just like those two...” she smiles.

Why is she smiling?

“Assassins are truly marvelous…with their speed….. a giant that can pulverize a mountain….could not touch these assassins…”

Well, the strength of the lion is useless

If it can’t touch the rabbit.

“Even the impenetrable fortress…does not know that an assassin entered.”

So assassins are that sneaky.

But why are you complimenting?

“Truly…..assassins are marvelous…..”

“If you understand this much then-”

“…and also scary….” She cut in before I could finish my talk.

She says it while looking me in the eye.

And she starts to circle around me.

“In the past…assassins are despised by everyone…..they are all cold blood killers after all. When payed…they kill…if there is insufficient G…they kill. They only know how to kill…And so does their emotions…They killed it”

This is….the same with what master told me.

Assassins are cold blood killers.

Is she trying to take advantage of the reputation of the assassins?

“So what?...If they will fear us then let them do so.”

“Yes…power is everything…and fear is also power.”

The topic is getting dark.

I don’t like this.

“Somehow…you are describing us to be evil.”

“Yes…they were evil in the past.”

“It was only in the past…They are not that evil now.”

“They did….after the holy war…they changed.”

“Why…are you spouting like you know everything from the assassins?”

“I know it very well…after all…..they are our rival” she then stop and look at me.

“……Rival?”

I honestly don’t want to ask it.

I have a feeling that it will be bad.

“Do you know…..why we are called…” She came closer to me

“…black widow?” and ask it in front of my face.

Her face is wrinkled.

Her hair is white.

And her eyes….I don’t know.

They are scary.

“…because….they are spiders?”

She smiled

Before she turns around

And moves away.

It relieved me that she moves her scary eyes away from me.

“That is correct…..black widows are spiders…but that is an easy answer.....think deeper”

What else?

“….Black widows….are the most poisonous spider…..?”

“That is also correct…..but ‘spider’ is more correct.” While she plays with her thread.

“Thread?”

“…..Are you even thinking?”

She then looks at me with dubious eyes.

Now she thinks I’m a fool.

“It is normal for spiders to have poisons and threads, child.” She continued.

She is mocking me.

I hate you

“Then…what is the reason?” I answered with little anger.

But I should not have asked.

I am regretting it.

“Aaaaah~…the correct answer isssss…” she starts to grin.

“We are more ruthless and colder than the assassins~ We are rivals in this field~”

~Snap~

The thread she is playing with just snapped.

This talk is getting darker.

She is also getting scarier.

I feel like dying from her pressure.

I want to leave.

I want to leave.

I’m scared.

“We aren’t famous… and we are also hard to find…or rather…..no one alive has seen us~”

“Is it because…black widows kill anyone they meet?”

Aren’t I in danger?

“Well…that is also correct. We are spiders after all so anyone who gets tangled in our web will be eaten by us. Your answer is 50 percent correct~. You did well~” while she plays with another thread.

She said it like it was nothing.

Was killing really that normal for them?

“So~ What is the other 50 percent? Think well~” She smiles.

What could be the other one?

Something that is known to black widows.

Something they would do to make them unnoticed.

Camouflage?

No, that is not the real traits of a spider.

Black widow…

Is it…..because….

“They eat their partners…”

These spiders are called black widows

Because after they mate, the female spider eats the male.

Weones’s hands stopped.

And her face turns into a surprise.

“Hoh~ What leads you to that answer.”

“Black colored spider with the deadliest poison in the spider world. But what made it special is its trait where….the female spider eats the male spider after their mate.”

“That. Is. Cor. Rect”

She then hides the thread she was playing with

And her body faces mine.

“We serve no master. We serve no employer. We serve no one. Not even to our partners.

-In short, we live alone and kill anyone we meet, even our brethrens” while smiling menacingly.

This class…..is dangerous.

“Assassins are all despised by the people, while black widows eats all the people they met. Both jobs were all lonely.”

Afterwards, she hides her eyes in her hood and returns to her old like voice.

“But like what you said……that is only……in the past. We are now…in the present.”

What just happened?

She is scary just a moment ago.

“Black widows…..aren’t inferior….we have our own ways….to kill”

“With threads….we can do a lot….from weaving to tangling our enemies.”

“We are also masters of poisons…..like what you said.”

“So child….what is it….that you don’t want……from the spiders.”

She then asks it again.

“…….I have none….only the spider itself”

Out of fear, I said it.

She is scary.

I couldn’t lie.

I fear that if I lie,

I might die.

“I see” she smiled.

“But do you know…..that we hated our self also.”

What?

“Spiders hates spider….but they love themselves.

-But for us…..We hate our self…..We are spiders in name….but are really not.” She then grasps my hand

And then she speaks fluently.

“Spiders loves to eat and eat. It is their only form of joy. It is also fun for us at first but we aren’t like the spiders. We are humans who do not want the same food over and over again. When we got tired of killing, we asked our existence. ‘Is this what we wanted?’”

She then looks down.

She is sad.

Afterwards, she look at me again.

I felt guilty so I also cast my head down.

“Well, it is only in the past. Everything changed when Dheane found out true happiness when she met a man. She first tried to kill him, but after many meetings she fell in love. It is there where she found out that we are not like those isolated spiders. She declared that we are also human. A human that will love another human and not a spider that hate spiders also”

Then she breathes in

 And breathes out.

“And that is how we were reborn”

I see.

Like the assassins,

They have their own circumstances.

They hated themselves because they are lonely.

Would that also apply to me?

All alone, I played with my computer.

All alone in my room.

“Well then……it seems that….you really don’t want….to become…a black widow.”

“No, let me be one”

“…What?”

“I want to become a black widow.”

“…..Why’s….the sudden change…..child?”

“I also hate myself.”

She was surprised to my words.

She then recollects herself.

“….Child, why would you hate yourself?”

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“I wanted attention from my parents but they are too busy, too busy to notice me. I really wanted to get their attention but I couldn’t. So if I couldn’t get their attention then I instead get attention from others. So I went to a far place. And there, I did everything I could but I was only mocked. After I couldn’t take them anymore, I shut myself inside my room.”

“I see….” she casts her head down.

“After that I believe that I need no friend…..

-But…….I started to have doubts after I come to this world.”

“So Weones…let me be reborn also”

After she heard my long speech,

She stands there temporarily with her head down.

And then she lifts her head and reveals her eyes to me.

It is not a menacing eyes anymore

But a pitying eyes.

“I understand. But you don’t have to be a black widow to be reborn.”

“I know. But I think, I must first love what I hate.”

“And you hated the spiders?”

I nodded.

“………..You are one weird child.”

“Well, sorry if I am weird.”

“….I am joking so laugh instead.”

“Well I’m offended.”

She smiles.

“Can you see that statue? Go in front of it and kneel”

My head followed the place where she points at.

In there, I see a woman with a hood also.

But unlike Weones, her hood does not hide her head.

I can see her face, her beautiful face.

I then went in front of it and kneel down.

And then my head is being hold by Weones.

“Dheane, this child wants to be one of us. She too wants to be reborn like us to end her lonely life. So give her the strength to do so like how you gave us.”

The statue’s eyes glowed.

And it died down afterwards.

“You are now a black widow, child.”

~Rumble rumble~

“W-what is happening?”

And then a light shines upon me.

My eyes adapted the dark cave

So the light is blinding me.

I cover my eyes with hands.

“This is the exit to this cave…now go out and find yourself”

“…..The exit” I murmured

I remember that I must hurry before I get scolded by my mom.

“Thank you”

And then I run out of the cave.

“Ha ha ha…such an energetic child…for a quiet girl”

And then I face the statue.

“Dheane…Are you happy there?...Your meeting with that man is limited…but I know…that you are having a happy moment…together with your husband in the afterlife.” I smiled.

“Honestly…I am surprised with that child…A quiet and strong girl…What’s more…she is an assassin like your husband…ha ha ha…her personality is also like you two…so hard to persuade…Aaaah~ how fateful”

Then I look at the exit.

Where she went out.

~Rumble rumble~

It then closes.

And the source of light vanished.

“Dheane…you never had a child…Your time with that man is very limited…So you never had a child…”

I went near the statue and touch the statue.

“So this child…take care of her…She may look like strong because she is quiet…But she is lonely in the inside…so Dheane…be her mother…and guide her.”

And then I remove my hands.

~BANG! BANG! BANG!~

I knock at the door furiously.

“Eeeek! Wh-who is there?” asks a woman

“It’s me Chloe.”

“Eh! nim? W-wait, I’m C-coming!”

~Tap! Tap! Tap!~

~Creak!~

“Ah, nim! Why are you covered in sweat?!”

“Haaaa. I run from the cathedral until I reach your place.”

“Eh! W-why would you do that?!”

“Haaa. Haaa. Here are the black silks now the rewards”

“Ah……nim…You did this for me” while tearing up.

“Ah…I did this for you…so now the reward…I am in a hurry.”

“Eh! Ah, I got it. H-here’s the reward.”

<< System Notification >>

You have finished the ‘Collect Black Silk’

-7500 (+7500) exp

-420 G [21]

<< System Notification >>

-Congratulation! You are now level 20.

-‘nim’ has 622 / 16320 for next lvl up.

After I got what I needed, I bid my farewell.

“Okay, bye Chloe. I might not be able to visit for a week.”

“Eh! A-ah wait nim!” and she reach out her hands.

But she couldn’t reach me

For I have started running already.

~Tap Tap Tap~

I have decided that I won’t be the same girl again.

In the real world, I am a loner

But not to this world.

I have met a lot of people,

Befriended them and, I shed joy and sadness with them.

So, for this day, just for this day

I will meet the people I know in this game.

“Thank you for everything. Till we meet again, Chloe”

And I dashed away.

Afterwards, I heard a loud voice.

“nim………At least explain what is happening!!” Chloe shouted.

Her shout took the attention of every one.

It causes a little commotion but it died down afterwards.

“Haaaa…seriously nim. I am your friend you know. At least tell me what is going on.” she pouts.

This made her lonely a little bit.

“Well, she has her own circumstances.”

And then she smiles wide.

“But it is still her fault for just leaving. So I’ll be sure to ask her a lot of questions. I know that she hates questions.” she grins.

“Be sure to be ready nim. He he he~”

And she went inside of her house.

I don’t know what happened.

But I am sure that she is now having fun more than before.

I come to a halt in front of Brutos’s shop

“Haaa. Uncle Brutos.” I called out.

He is right now closing his shop.

“Hnnn, u-uncle? Ah nim, wat cad bi da problem?” He faces me.

“And don’t ya koll me uncle”

“Ah, no problem at all, uncle.”

“*Sigh” He resigned.

“If der is no problem den leave. I’m busy.” Then he went back to prepare his shop.

“I will. But before that…”

“Hnnn?” Brutos looks at nim.

“Thank you.”

“…Ah I see.” He then faces me.

“Haw it is? Did dis game  satisfies yar taste?” while grinning.

“Yes it did, uncle. I am so glad that my father introduced this game to me.”

“I see. Yar face shows it all, a face that has heard the funniest joke.”

“….My face is not that funny right?”

“Wat ar ya talkin’ about? A lot of girls will weep upon seeing yar face.”

“….Will they?” I tilted my head.

“Ga ha ha ha. How amusin’.”

“Somehow, I feel like being teased.”

“It is only yar imagination. By the way, yar wepon is olready nir breakage.”

Upon hearing it, I look at my dagger.

~Ping~

<< System Status >>

Iron Dagger ( C )

A dagger made of Iron. It is a weapon with a lot of usage. From slashing, stabing and killing to cooking and sculpting. It can also be used to pick locks.

1 Handed Weapon.

Quality: ok  ( +3 ATK )

ATK: +6 ( -2 )

Durability: 37 / 200 ( - 5 ATK).

“You’re right.”

“Well, I’m a blacksmith after all. Ya kan eider hav it get repair or ya get a new wepon. I will be da one ta repair.”

After hearing his suggestions,

I look at my dagger again.

This is the dagger I used to kill my first monster and

When I enact my revenge against the ‘Mr. Cricket’.

But I can’t keep you forever.

I’m in a journey after all.

There are things that must be left.

“Can you use this as a base?”

I hand over the ‘blade antler’, the one kyle gave.

“Hoh~ a monster part. I can process it into a dagger for you. Although, monster part’s has low durability and few gem slot, these monster parts has good effects.  This ‘blade antler’ when processed has a piercing and bleeding effect.”

“A monster part. I see”

“Well, anything that is a part of a monster can be processed into a weapon. Like horns, claws, tails, fangs and other things”

“Fangs… then will this also do?”

I opened my storage and

I open my storage and take it out.

And then I hand it over to him.

“I see a ‘Black spider fang’. Okeee, I will finish it tomorrow.”

“You can take your leisurely. I will pick it up next week.”

And then I left.

“Oy, *sigh. Give me a break will ya.”

And then he resumes preparing his shop.

“And why are you here?”

A man covered in black clothes asks with a serious voice.

To be honest, I don’t want to meet him.

Although I hate him, it is still not the reason to avoid him.

He is still my master in assassin.

I just feel embarrassed to meet him

Since I changed my job to black widow.

 “Well, that is…”

“If you have nothing to say then leave.” Then he faces his back to me.

“I have no reason to keep someone who deserted the assassins. Or are you telling me that you are still an assassin”

Well, I did left the assassins.

And I took the job Black Widow.

“…….It is true that I changes job. And it tarnishes your honor as my master.”

“……But….Before I leave…I want to say thank you.”

“We have only met for a week but you still did your best to train me. With that alone, I am thankful to you”

“………………………You already said your thanks. Now go and leave, brat.”

I bow my head.

“Thank you and goodbye….”

I raise my head.

“…..Master Wang”

And then I went to the door and left.

“………..You have grown well, nim. Such a waste to give her to another branch especially to that old hag.”

“I am not doing this for you Weones. I am only doing this for Zul’kis since his wife must have been lonely.”

After my consciousness settles in,

I remove my virtual gear.

A lot of things happened this day.

Graduating into an assassin,

Chloe had an urgent quest,

Meeting a weird swordsman,

Running away from the spiders,

And lastly, becoming a black widow.

Truly, a lot of things happened within this day.

I then look at my wall clock.

It is already past 6 pm.

Its hands points to 6:12.

“Mom is already home.”

I will be chewed out again by mom.

Well, it doesn’t matter; I had a lot of fun anyways.

I stands up and went in front of the door

And then I hold the doorknob.

“I couldn’t tell my journey in that world before….but now…I have a lot of things to tell”

“Mom and Dad”

I then opened the door.

The result is indeed a 1 week ground to play.

But I had a lot of fun telling my adventures to them.

Even mom seems to listen well to my story.

This is probably my happiest day.

-End of volume 1

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