Well, I did it again. I slacked off all semester and didn’t study for the finals. There’s no way I'm going to pass the nature magic test tomorrow. That class is such a pain. I don’t even know why I enrolled in that class; I aren’t even interested in being a nature mage. I don’t even like the damn outdoors! The only reason would be a cute girl i saw signing up ahead of me during class assignment. Naturally the moment I tried to impress her with some sort of cantrip, she laughed at I and said even if she was straight, she wouldn’t go for a half assed hedge wizard like I! I really should’ve known better, half of those witches are lesbians anyway. That whole Mother Earth Goddess worship caters to the rug munching. (And no, there aren’t any MALE witches, any self respecting man would call himself a WARLOCK, not a damn witch!)

Still, I’m here now, so I need to make the best out of these sour grapes. I'm already going to hear it from both mom and dad of how I’ve been nothing but a disappointment to the both of them. Dad will probably do a little more than say that, he’ll probably personally ride up to the University and beat the hell out of me for wasting his hard earned pillaging money to send me here in the first place.

Arrgh! I just wish I were good at some kind of magic! I have the ability; I just don’t have the focus! That’s always been the problem with I. Sister has it easy, she took after Dad. Narrow minded focus on killing someone with a blunt instrument doesn’t take too much effort. Sometimes I curse the day mother passed her magical elven blood on to I. Of course I had to be the one that greater things were expected of.

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I’ve tried all the major schools, evocation, conjuration, illusion, divination, the list go on. Even the minor affinities are pitiful under my command. I can only get so far and then the words and gestures and well all of it just becomes too confusing. It all just blends together instead of a spark I feel a void.

However, I haven’t tried the “darker arts”, but Mom would definitely never approve. (Dad probably wouldn’t care, but if I upset Mom, it’s a warhammer upside the head) In fact it’s illegal to study any of them. They caused too much trouble in the past and very nearly destroyed the world. All who are known to even dabble in such arts are immediately taken into custody and executed, at best.

I don’t think I’d want to be summoning demons anyway; even the few “friendly ones” that work on campus are fucking assholes to the Nth degree. I can only imagine how bad the ones who haven’t been living among mortals are. However there is another dark art which I have to admit I’ve always had a bit of curiosity about. Necromancy. At this point I'm willing to at least see if it works for me, despite the risks involved.