TIIKK…...TOK……..tikK……..tok

……..TIIKK…...TOK……..tikK……..tok

A world shrouded in darkness where no sound can be heard and even the tiniest spark of light is engulfed by the darkness itself.

TIIKK…...TOK……..tikK……..tok

……..TIIKK…...TOK……..tikK……..tok

In this total darkness, I feel nothing, I see nothing, I hear nothing.

TIIKK…...TOK……..tikK……..tok

……..TIIKK…...TOK……..tikK……..tok

But for the last five minutes of my morning practice routine. The silent ticking of the clock was extremely agonizing, which can be heard even in my self-proclaimed unconscious state.

I am also currently trying to make sense of what the hell am I doing for the last 5 minutes. Wait I actually know exactly what I’m doing but doing it is still lame.

Constantly justifying my own actions with any means necessary, using scientific theories which have yet to be proven or by using various game theories had already become a part of my daily routine. In any case, I continue to delude myself further and further away from reality.

So what actually am I doing? Lying on the bed? A good guess, however, to go in more detail, I am sort of meditating, how? By listening to Anime Op songs and by focusing on the sound of my heart beats.

In a normal point of view, it may seem something gibberish but I am very keen on accomplishing my objective. That is by creating a world of my own. What come again!! Yes, I want to create my own world instead of being invited to one. But that does not mean I'm against getting summoned or reincarnated in one. Instead, I pretty much love the idea of reincarnation. Anyways this sort of ritual is always performed daily prior to going to sleep.

Now a full-fledged otaku can comprehend the purpose of this ritual. No, perhaps not, to put it simply it is just about getting yourself ready to leave the real world.

I'm using an old-fashioned approach, where I increase my imagination to its limits to become a God of my own world.

This maybe a very harmful way of thinking for an individual of religious faith.

Well to describe my actual real-world situation is that I’m laying on a single bed with my very warm and cozy blanket, wearing headphones.

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*oshiete oshiete yo sono shikumi wo boku no naka ni dare ga iru no? kowareta kowareta yo kono sekai de kimi ga warau nanimo miezu ni*

OH YES, this song makes me so relaxed.

I imagine myself appearing in an enclosed box which is a safe point to protect myself. While I'm busy creating a world. I start by generating identical features of an show called “Akame ga kill”.

In the beginning, I always possess the MC or make my own original character then I interact with other characters and make changes where I felt necessary.

In a sense, I completely take over his/her life and use it to do whatever I want.

Now, most people would argue that it's all in your head so why should we care. It's like a trashy neet who lived his whole life torturing his parents and has a crush on every beautiful girl he sees and he uses her for his sexual fantasy or imagination whatever you may call it, to fap. 

Now back to the question of why would people care what goes on my mind. The Short answer is that they don’t and the long answer is also they don’t. But the important point is that I should believe that my worlds to be real somewhere.

However, I don't care what anybody thinks or feel about my actions and it's also not like I'm a neet!! I properly go to university, socialize, study etc.

The point is I consider myself to be above those life sucking slugs who think themselves to be the only ones who can be reincarnated.

Well according to my research the ratio of people who tend to reincarnate are mostly people who were always at the bottom of the food chain and may deserve a second chance in life while I'm against it.

Though all I do is create my own fantasy world, the truth is I'm preparing myself If I ever receive the honor of reincarnation. But for that to happen I would need to die first. Hence, I always train myself in every possible situation I can encounter in the other world. The reference materials I use for my investigation are of course light novels, various anime series, and mangas.

Now back to my fantasy world, I pretty much follow the same pattern in all of my fantasy worlds, live the life of the possessed character my way, fall in love (that's important), get loved (that's also important) and in the end “Die” like in any other world and universe.

But, in reality, doing this doesn't accomplish anything. Or does it? Sometimes, I also tend to forget some of my memories of other world personas.

As I have gone deeper inside my inner conscious pondering the reason for my existence in this world. I suddenly hear the creaking sound of a door opening and voice of my summoning.

(IS THIS IT? AM I FINALLY BEING CALLED UPON?)

Suddenly, I perceive someone's presence inside my room. It's like the flow of time has slowed down as I observe her. With the silhouette showing her bountiful curves, definitely confirms that she must be a woman of beautiful appearance.

With me being hypnotized by her bewitching appearance, I suddenly feel extreme pain with heat pouring inside my abdomen. Terrified, mystified and feeling happy with an orgasmic expression completely defines my current condition.

I obviously had been stabbed and even an idiot like myself have understood this. Normally a person should feel extreme hatred towards this mysterious intruder who had stabbed him. But what I'm feeling is anything but hate.

It's not making any sense, I'm currently dying, my bed has completely dyed red with my own blood and I'm feeling ecstatic and satisfied. It's like I don't know myself anymore and it's the worst feeling when you don't know yourself and your dying.

Barely maintaining my consciousness, I hear her speak.

“Focus, you have to fight it!!”

"I WILL DEFINITELY SAVE YOU"