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CHAPTER 57) Old Wounds Reopened

CHAPTER 57) Old Wounds Reopened

Roth's body feels light, way lighter than it normally is. He can feel his body hover as if he was slowly drifting down a gentle stream. He opens his eyes only to be greeted by blinding white light surrounding him. He rubs his eyes as it adjusts to the brightness surrounding all around him. He sits up lost on where he is at. His mind now remembers what happened and quickly looked down to his arm to check how bad it was, but his arm was completely intact. No bloody mess, no dismemberment, like it never actually happened. He looks around to see nothing but blank white emptiness. He slowly gets up even though there seems to be no floor holding him but is still holding him up regardless.

He slowly turns all around to see if there is anything else in this empty white void, but there was nothing. He chooses a direction and walks slowly down the void. There was a sense of calm and peace as he strolled down the white void. The weight from his armor felt nonexistent as he barely felt his weight. It dawned on him that this place might actually be his final destination.

"Oh my, aren't you a curious one."

Roth quickly turns around to see a tall woman standing behind him. He was frightened, she seemingly popped out of nowhere. She had a sweet soft smile to her calm demeanor. She had a blindfold that wrapped around her eyes. She had a deep dark green hair with bangs and a bun hairstyle. Her clothing was simple yet refined, like a noble woman would wear on a casual day. He looked around to see where on earth she came from,

"Be at ease my child, do not worry, I'm not here to harm you. You have been through enough as it is already. You can relax."

"So... that's it then? I guess I'm dead right?"

She quietly chuckles at his remark,

"No my child, you are not dead. You are in between the planes of the living and the dead. Someone is keeping you alive in the land of the living."

He felt relieved but also didn't at the same time.

"Who... who are you...?"

"Oh, where are my manners, my name is Theanita, I am the goddess of this world."

As she proclaimed her name black wings expanded and stretched out high into the air. A few feathers slowly fell as she extended her wings. They looked majestic and they look strong with weight to them as well. Roth couldn't help but to stare in awe seeing her wings expand. Theanita notices his staring and giggles. She lowers one of her wings and places it in front of Roth.

"Would you like to feel them? They're very soft I can attest to that."

She smiled as she waited for his response. Roth was confused how she knew he was staring at her wings with the blind fold, but he denied her offer.

"Umm... I'm okay but... thank you."

She nods and moves her wing back behind her. She gets closer to Roth as Roth becomes slightly timid by her knowing she's an actual goddess.

"Do you know why you are here my child?"

He shakes his head confused why he is here.

" Within my world I don't see the way others see the world. As you can probably tell hehe."

She points to her eyes touching the fabric of the blindfold.

"No, I don't see the world at all. Instead, I see a more... clearer picture of the world. One where lies and deceit cannot escape me or my judgment. Every being has mana, one way or another. Some stronger, some weaker. Regardless of who they are, be it flora of the world or the gentle stream flowing down river. To the smallest of ants to the goliaths of dragons. Every little thing in this world has mana of their own. And the one that has the complexity of them all, Is humans. Every human has a unique form of their mana, the pure and kindhearted souls, the righteous of good in their hearts, all have a colorful palette surrounding them. Whenever I talk to a human I can see their form, their outlined body of their mana. The need for eyes is unnecessary when the truth is laid out in front of me. The ones with corruption or evil in their hearts all have the same range palette of color. In other words-"

"The eye of God..."

As Roth said as the realization sunk in as what she was describing to him.

"Oh my, it's not very common for someone to know what that is. You are correct, it is called the eye of God. With it I can see the true morality of their souls... however..."

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"However...?"

Roth looked at her quizzically as he held onto his breath wondering what her next words will be.

"... You... are an anomaly. I have seen every soul and with every soul that passes, I can see who they truly are. With you however, I can't sense anything. where color should exist, yours is... nonexistent."

"Wait what? What does that even mean?"

"As I look upon you now all I can see is a hazy cloud around you. As if a cloud of thick grey smoke is surrounding you. By all accounts... you shouldn't even exist."

Roth is sweating now, is this going to be the first time someone will know he is not from this world now?

"Don't be alarm, it's not a bad thing what I said just now, it's just very unusual is all. Even though I am a goddess, I still have much more learning about humans. Never a boring day in the land of the living hehe."

She gently chuckles trying to put Roth a little more at ease. It seems to work as he calms down slightly.

"So why did you want to meet with me then? Did you just want to see who I was to you?"

"Partially, yes. I was curious to see what kind of man you are. Seeing you now, I can see why you are looked so favorable."

"Favorably? There was someone talking about me?"

"Oh yes most definitely. I have heard of your deeds, saving that little girl and adopting her as part of your family. I was moved by that action; it nearly made me shed tears. The work you have progressed to stopping the corruption of that evil organization is proof of your good hearted nature. Even if I can't see the aura surrounding you, I can still tell by your deeds that you are a kind and gentle soul that anyone can see."

Roth's mind was scrambled, who was giving her all this information? He was too curious, he had to know who was watching him and giving all this information to her.

"Wait but you are a goddess, shouldn't you already know who I am then? Why would you have to hear by word of mouth who I am?"

She tilted her head down as if she was slightly saddened by that remark.

"I may be a goddess, but I am not omnipotent. There are limits to my power. But that is for another day, the person who as told me all about you is probably dying to meet you right now."

"Wait, that person is here?"

She excitedly nods as she is full of joy to see Roth's reaction.

"Would you like to meet this person?"

"Umm... yes... please, I want to know who it is."

"Very well then."

She smiles as she turns her body to the side as she extends her wing, making it look as if she was pointing with her wing. A spot of bright light shined like a doorway being opened. Roth raised his hands to try and block the bright light that was coming through the mystical gateway. A silhouette can be seen standing as it slowly walked towards him. A bright blonde hair glistens in the light around her. Her perfect posture as she gracefully walks down the path towards him. Roth's eyes glisten with tears but he holds them back.

"Hey there silly, it's been forever, hasn't it?"

Roth looks at the woman with an immense of overwhelming emotions. The woman that was standing in front of him was the one person he was not expecting to meet... Fila. He walks towards her with no control over his own body, it was moving automatically for him. He reached out and slowly but hesitantly places his hand against her cheek. She happily smiled as she leaned into his hand as she places her own hand holding his.

He couldn't contain the tears he was holding back; they poured out without his consent.

"It's... it's you... it really is you?"

He goes and hugs her tightly not letting go of her as she hugged him back tightly as well.

"Yes silly, of course it's me. I'm here now and I get to hold you properly now."

Roth tears because more and more as he grew and began to bawl his eyes out. His legs gave out as he clutched on tightly to Fila and Fila followed with him still holding on refusing to let him go. She cradled him close to her chest as she lets him bawl his eyes out. She felt the pain, the struggles, the hardships he has endured all this time.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry! I'm so fucking sorry! This was all my fault! I let you die! Because of me... I made you suffer... It's all my fault I let you and the others die!"

"Shhh shhh shhh, Its okay, it's okay. It wasn't your fault. It was never your fault to begin with Roth. You have been carrying all this weight on your shoulders, I was so sad that I couldn't do anything to help you in your time of need. There's no need to blame yourself at all. You have done nothing wrong."

She held his head as she gently stroked his hair back. This sense of comfort was too much for Roth as he broke down more in tears feeling her warmth again.

"It's so hard! It's so hard to continue fighting like this! There's always something trying to kill us every time. I... I... I miss you so much! I never got to properly tell you how I feel!"

She gently raises him up looking face to face with her as she lifts him up by his cheeks. Her eyes are filled with tears, and she gently places her forehead against his.

"I know... I know exactly how you feel... I feel the same way. Roth... my sweet sweet Roth. I know how hard you fought. And I know how hard you blamed yourself for our deaths. It kills me to see how much pain you are in. I want you to know we do not blame you at all! Do not brood over our deaths, do not brood over my death. You are amazing, and Derian was right about you. You are doing amazing things. I have watched over you all this time. Roth... my sweet and silly Roth. You are the most kind and gentle soul I have ever meet. Do not stop being yourself. I promise you; I will always be with you. I will never stop watching over you. Just know... I will always love you. Roth... my sweet sweet Roth, don't ever stop fighting for what is right. I love you."

"I love you...I missed you so much Fila. I missed you so god damn much. You have no idea how much this means to me..."

"I know... I missed you so much."

She lifts his face once again as she leans in and kisses him with both hands still on his cheeks. Roth kissed her back and did not want to let go of her. He did not want this kiss to end. The pain of his grief, the pain of suffering from his self-blaming was calmed by this angel in front him who he loved with all his heart. He did not want this to end, he did not want to leave her a second time now. Theanita watches over the two as she smiles with a quivering lip as tears began to soak slightly through her blindfold.