I'm not amnesiac.

I know who I am. Right? I'm Alovera. An existence who is neither human nor elf.

No, I'm a human. A super ordinary one. Arata. Arata Yoshida. I live in Japan with my twin sister.

Where is Japan?

My sister plays a lot of otome game. She drags me to her online playthrough, especially when we're apart due to my job.

And I obey. Of course I do. I miss her. She's half of my life.

No, I don't have a sister. I only have a brother and we don't have any good relationship.

He's much older than me. A half elf too. A late bloomer with his elven heritage. But those late bloomers are always the strongest. Unlike me. I'm a half elf through and through, right in the middle, without much change since I was born. I don't have an elven heritage, but I don't look too much human. I...

I always feel incomplete. Torn. I don't belong anywhere. I don't even belong here.

I want my twin back. With her, I can belong.

Even though she's a useless hikki NEET, she always makes me belong.

I want to be somewhere I can belong.

I have to go back to her. She's useless without me. She doesn't even remember when to eat. I'm Arata. I need to go back home and check up on her.

She can't survive if I stay dead.

.......ah.

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That's right. I died.

•°•°•°•°•

I remember. I fell into a waterfall.

It was a stupid fall too. I was on a company paid holiday, something about team building trip or so, and a girl that I just rejected in public, felt humiliated and slapped me until my cheek had a red palm imprint on it.

I was given a bag of ice, but it slipped from my hold. It fell over the fence, and I slipped, hit my head, and fell right towards the waterfall.

I hope my body was intact.

Yes, I did die there.

But if this is really the world of that Saintess game that my twin played a lot, I actually knew a way to go back to my world.

Rozen Gate. The dimension gate.

The gate that, despite being the main objective of the original game, never got to be opened at all.

It was the kind of plot twist that I couldn't bear. I remember complaining to my twin when she said that no matter which route I chose, that gate was never meant to be opened to begin with.

Really, betraying the player's expectation like that sucks big time.

And that impossible gate is the one that I must open in this playthrough.

•°•°•°•

Having an objective makes me calm. My head is no longer dizzy and I can go back to my sitting position.

The room has been silent after the physician is gone. I take a look at the bottle of pills and fully intend to leave it behind. My muscle will heal on their own, and I have no problem with my nightly activities, thank you very much.

Though I realize that...

...I'm...

...I'm really not experienced in that area.

Like, at all.

I feel like I have been a bit too prude... And now I'm a lover of cleanliness, and no one passes my standard yet. It's not like I'm actively searching for one either, but being adventurer doesn't really give me a whole set of options to choose from.

Most of all, I just haven't felt like being intimate with anyone else before.

In any case, the pills should be useful for some kind of fertilizer if I grind them to dust and mix them with soil. Most likely. Maybe. Well, I'll leave that to an experiment and observation. I guess it must have been some kind of value, coming from the palace's physician.

"Oh well," I say while shrugging, and putting them into my pouch. The belt and cloak that I threw away before are safely tucked on one of the seats.

Then I hear uniform sound of footsteps of maybe half a dozen people.

Nobody knocks, but I get an announcement instead. "His Majesty The King has arrived!"

All the feet stomped together in that moment. That's such a disciplined sound.

I suppose it's time for an audience with the king, now.