God has a plan for shit to hit the fan. Russia has invaded Ukraine, sparking world wide hysteria about world war III. The internet is abuzz with talks of the horsemen of the apocalypse, they say that this event signals the coming of the third horsemen of the apocalypse, which is known as famine or possibly economic hardship. It specifically mentions a shortage of grain in the bible, and Ukraine is a major exporter of it. The third horseman rides a black steed, and Ukrainian exports go to the black sea.

The horsemen must be out of order, the internet concludes. We’ve yet to see the first two, although some say Covid was actually the first horseman. Covid is plagued by conspiracies. Some say the vaccine is actually a tracking chip. Others conclude it’s the mark of the beast because the number of the beast is 666, and corona has 6 letters in it and if each letter is assigned a numerical value based on its order in the alphabet, it adds up to 66. Try it and see

Anyways, every conspiracy theory ultimately names the same culprit for all the world's problems, the Jews. The internet says that the star of David, you know the thing on Israel's flag, is actually the mark of the Beast. They say this because it has 6 triangles forming a 6 sided polygon and the whole thing is drawn with 6 lines. A lot of things are said to be the mark of the beast on the internet. People are really concerned about it. People are really concerned about Jews on the internet too.

If I didn’t see evil demons I might just dismiss all this Jew business, but as it is, I’ve got to try to make some sense of the things I’m seeing. I’m not ready to concede that everything must be in my head. I truly believe there is something real there, something trying to communicate with me. Demons are real. I’ve seen them.

It doesn’t help that I’m part Jewish. It only feeds into my concern about Jews and the devil. What if that’s the reason I’m seeing these things. Maybe the Illuminati could give me more answers, but they don’t seem to have a website despite all the information about them on the internet. The Illuminati are supposedly Jews in contact with demons, so I seem like a likely candidate for membership. All I need now is lots of money and power and I would fit right in.

But that's all bullshit. The truth is I’m just a crazy guy with schizoaffective disorder. There is no Illuminati. Jews are just regular people just like you and me. UFOs aren't demonic, they are probably just aliens. Probably… but I wonder.

There is someone in my head though. Maybe it’s the CIA. Maybe it's CIA Jews. There is quite a lot about the CIA on the internet. There are claims the CIA tries to mind control people. Mind control is scary.Through mind control, all sorrowful realities are possible, and Hell is vast.

It's probably not humans in my head. Their response time is just too quick. They respond to my telepathic communications almost instantly. Maybe I’m just dismissing what's possible for really smart humans. Maybe it's the same with UFOs, They seem otherworldly, but really they are just secret government aircraft. It may seem like evil demons are communicating with me, but really it's the CIA.

Sometimes the CIA seems like God. They have quite a lot of power, at least according to the internet. Apparently they get their power from Satan just like the Jews. According to the internet, Satan is in the mind control business. Just think about that.

In the bible there are two different places where it mentions Satanic Jews in end times. It says there will be people going around pretending to be jewish when really they worship Satan. Which leaves one of two possibilities. Either there are Satanic jews secretly running the world or the bible is antisemitic. Anyone who takes the bible as truth must have their suspicions of the Jews. It's black and white. So it's perfectly normal for someone who is seeing evil demons, and believes they are real, to have their suspicions about the Jews.

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Poor Jews, getting blamed for all the world's problems. I’ll tell you one thing, people have been bitching about jews for a long time. I wonder if Jews are used to it by now. The internet says that Ashkenazi Jews have the highest iqs of any race. Maybe jealousy is the real reason for all the hatred against the Jews. Clever Jews are awful news.

Anyways, this stuff with Israel and Palestine isn’t helping anyone. Personally I think right around the time God’s chosen people are being accused of genocide, the apocalypse must be close at hand. Apparently Israel is just bombing the shit out of Palestine without any regard to civilian life. Not sure that amounts to genocide, maybe its just ethnic cleansing, nothing to worry about.

I can’t imagine the horror of having someone bomb your home. I mean the fact that such suffering even exists boggles the mind. The suffering of mankind is monumentous. If there is a God he must be Lucifer, only he would allow such a calamity. Lucifer is God. Now there's a conspiracy theory for you.

I think maybe it’s a test. You see, Lucifer is God, but he doesn’t want to help just anyone. He only wants those brave enough to see past the teachings of the old God, even when under threat of Hell. That's a God I could see myself worshiping. An under the radar kind of God. But that would make me a Satan worshiping Jew, and the internet goes after Satan worshiping Jews. I don’t want the internet to come after me, but perhaps it's inevitable.

I wonder if God really wants to be God. Maybe he doesn't, but if he weren’t God, he might be at the mercy of someone else who is, so he has to be God.

In the beginning the good book tells us that God kept us naked, which is pretty crazy, but I guess being naked is just a state of mind. We are only naked when we are self conscious of our bodies. Imagine some naked crazy guy getting arrested shouting, “you won’t shame me I am as God made me!” That could be me.

The Bible would have us believe that we are being punished for eating forbidden fruit. I certainly think being left in a state of ignorance and without technology sounds like a punishment. I have to ask, what kind of monster punishes the ancestors of a transgressor though. Again, maybe God is evil, but who am I to say.

I am as God made me. I wonder why God would make a schizoaffective person, one with paranoia about Jews and such. You know some people on the internet believe that God is a Nazi. They believe that being anything other than an able bodied white man means you are cursed by God. No shit. They especially believe that any Jewish blood means you are cursed by God. I’m not sure if I am cursed by God or not, but it certainly feels that way sometimes.

Probably God is just a figment of everyone’s imaginations. Yet I am left with the overwhelming sense that someone was in my head trying to communicate with me. So I must concede that God is possible. Certainly anyone inside my head must be overwhelmingly powerful if not God like. I wonder if Lucifer is God for me because I’m defective. Whoever is in my head decides to present themselves how they wish, for me they chose demons.

I think anyone with a disability is entitled to reservations about God. They have to wonder why God would do this to them. I mean I wish I could just let it all go, but I can’t. It's like the matrix or something, the question just scratches at the back of my mind. Who was in my head?

I saw things. I saw a man in white garments and a painted face. His face was painted white except it had black lettering all over it. Other times I would see a clown wearing a military hat. I saw a man in a red catholic cardinal’s outfit, although somehow he wasn’t really a man at all. They would answer yes or no questions with a thumbs up or a thumbs down. But they never really talked.