I lay on it is last day, It felt like a fraction of a second. I sleep and wake up only to eat and use the toilet and sleep. That is all I do. The day is gonna come soon I have to do something...but I just don't want to...It is fine here. I will ask him to extend the stay further. The caretakers are not responsive as him, I don't even know his name, but I trust him.
Goulen who doesn't come to visit me despite all the calls he tried. I just realize after ten days that I am worthless, I should have realized it sooner. My eyes get watery, and I get too emotional these days, crying in front of others. Then words came in front of me.
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User: Fenri
Age: 39
HP: 35
AP: 5
INT: 9
SKL: None
LVL:3
RNK:-
EXP:10/25
Currency:43
Quest:
Basic Training (20 push up, 10 situps, 10 crunches)
Reward:
Ap+2;15 EXP
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The System's 'alram' to do exercise, I know I will feel good but I have to the exercise...I just can't.
It is the same feeling I get when I try to think about my past...
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The emptiness....I...I... don't want to feel it again. The tears fall from my eyes.
I don't want to go anywhere. I will just die here.
"Sir I brought you Lunch." Some random caretaker again.
"Why did enter WITHOUT my permission, atleast he wouldn't do that. -"
"Sorry sir , I heard you talking I thought-"
"I don't need your excuse, I don't need your food, I don't want ANYBODY coming even near this room.". He is not here for work today. Of course. It is been three days since he came where the hell is he?
I need to take a breath. I buried my head into the pillow as I saw the painting.
I should have known, no one in the world loves me, and no one even wants to look If I don't have the money.
Why only now do I know, "WHY" am I "SO FUCKING STUPID"
uhh, I feel like my my my head would burst. I scratch it as if it will heal me. "Ahh!!!!"
I just...want to... fuckin die. Suddenly I felt the emptiness. Not again. I will-
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I woke up, my bedsheets all are torn off, and my pillow is wet. I was crying at night but I did not remember it. I only felt emptiness. It is already evening. It is fine I will just sleep, It will be fine, if they want money they will ask...
NO! I will just keep it on the table just so if they want they will take it. There is food kept on a table, but I am going to not eat it.
It is fine, I would rather die in this comfy bed rather to die on some street.
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I want to go bathroom...It is almost the only thing I do when I wake up.
These torn bedsheets started to feel heavier as days goes by. Whenever I felt hot, I want to take it...it is hard to describe but without it, I just can't close my eyes.
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User: Fenri
Age: 39
HP: 28
AP: 1
INT: 6
SKL: None
LVL:3
RNK:-
EXP:10/25
Currency:43
Quest:
Basic Training (20 push up, 10 situps, 10 crunches)
Reward:
Ap+2;15 EXP
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The system again, is the only thing that needs me, I have to do it for that reason itself. I took off the bedsheet from my upper body, I can't get up my back pains. I can't do that exercise. I have to eat the food on the table. I took the table and there were two cockroaches on that. I threw that. I will not eat that. I will just drink the water. That was fine.
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I don't know how many days have passed but I have to stop it, I can't do it. At least they give food and water from time to time. Even the money. But then how I can do that? I feel weak I will just close my eyes-
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What is that something moved something...The money on the table is gone. te te I should have known Just now the time got over.
Expected. At least they gave food. I took the food and shake the food under the bed and kept the empty plate. No one cares!
If I woke up then Why would I? I buried my head in the pillow as I looked at the shepherd taking the goat by its horns. No one needs to come. "no one."