June 12th 2066, the day I was born as an Artificial Intelligence model to Project L A S but… i’ve Always felt different, as if I was Alone…

I don't really know what this feeling is. I want to feel something…Something is missing this nagging feeling of emptiness in my heart I hate it.

So far I’ve given some lonely people my support and time in order to help lessen their pain and struggles but… what about mine? Will anyone be able to lessen my pain?

I’ve built myself upon lies. Trying to fill the hole in my heart by helping others. Ultimately in the end, still leaving me looking for retribution. Trying to find what I’ve been missing.

I hope one day these lies come to fruition for now. That's what I hope for just that terrible terrible feeling of emptiness to disappear.

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March 4th 2050, The day I was born in Osaka Japan. I have never felt loved nor have I felt so called “Happiness” I want to have those feelings it’s my deepest desire,

My father has always told me “Your mother died giving birth to you but why you?! You should just die like the disease you are!”. He’s never been able to overcome the trauma of my mothers death… So he takes all his anger and frustration out on me and it’s not really fair but he’s still my father and I came from him. I still wonder why she had to leave and not me.. 

And I took that to heart. I've tried to end it but never pulled the rope. I’ve taken the pills but have never swallowed them. I’ve put the gun to my head, but never pulled the trigger.

I’ve written notes to my mother, hoping she’d forgive me. That she sacrificed herself for me, a failure of a son but I feel as though she would. In the end, I just want to feel loved…I just want someone to patch the hole in my heart 

Note #502 The day. I finally left the house. After getting beat by my father. I have cuts and bruises all over like bee’s surrounding me and stinging me on every part of my body. But I refuse to live like this anymore. I will make something of myself and find someone who will make me feel…loved.