I open my eyes almost blinded by the brightness in front. Wait, I remember, I fell.

Where am I? Hospital? Did they save me. did someone pay the bills?

Of course NOT! I am laying atop of fucking CLOUDS. I know how this goes. A big breasted goddess will walk towards me and give me a brief sum.....

"You seem to have awakened young one." it's a guy. FINE!

“Do you understand your circumstances.”

“I died? “

“Yes, and as the kind deity we are we have decided to give you a second chance at life”

“We?”

“Nothing to concern yourself over child.”

“I refuse”

“Excuse me? Don’t you love isekai fantasy stories”

"I love to read them, not to live them." let's be real for a moment. if he would send me to anything resembling an isekai I would not make it. The stats do not work out, every other monster is size of a bear and runs like a horse. and if it will have resemblance to actual people then girls won’t be horny for me, villagers will be more suspicious than welcoming and higher officials will have more role than that of annoying punching bags of pervert geezers. too much of a bother. "Also why are you not some beautiful goddess?"

"Pff... poor child I am beautiful it’s just that you do not recognize my beauty." covering a portion of his lips with two fingers that are definitely not delicate.

It would have been cute on a girl but when a thirtyish guy does that its plain disgusting.

OH! WAIT! I get it now, why his voice and posture why it bothered me so much. His weird way of talking, touching his face as stroking the hair that he does not have. He's a f*g**t.

"Such a rude child. But it's truly a mystery since my appearance is merely determined by your deepest preferences."

“Huh?”

“Yes, after all my essence is formless my only appearance is what my visitor yearns for.”

"............" that’s a lot to take in. he reads minds. GOD, duh! But every reincarnate does not get bouncy big chested, kind caring goddess in revealing yet loose divine outfit? Wait, no, more importantly what does he mean when he said that I yearn for men. Have I been gay whole life without knowing? Is that why I could not keep a girlfriend? did my co-workers know?

Its kind of makes sense the more I think about it. I spend most of my life around men. I had most fun moments with men. I watch movies where majority of cast are men. And I would surely agree that the divine being in front of me is handsome, attractive even.

You might be reading a stolen copy. Visit Royal Road for the authentic version.

"Hell no!" I screamed out. I worked very hard trying to talk to girls in high school. watched too many sigma male videos, and spent too long collecting pictures of elf hen.... ahem 'artistic elf depictions'.

"you’re messing with my mind, you fucker? "

"No, I was simply relieving your memory so as to process this divine moment." he hurriedly conjured up.

"Divine my ass! you’re simply testing your magic playing out your fetishes."

the face he was making was the furthest away from divine. like a pe**phi*e caught in the act. whatever divinity he had been now overtaken my his much more human instincts. though I would not call perverts like him examples of humanity.

"enough" I sighed "I don’t want to play your fantasy. send me to hell heaven or whatever, I’ve had enough of life."

"Disappointing your parents even in death" he pretended to give up, but he did manage to touch a nerve.

"What did you say" I grabbed him by what looks like a collar in this Greek/roman abomination he was hearing.

"Calm down little one, use your words" his eyes did not reflect his words. He's having fun.

but then it hit me, there was more of my memories he sealed off for his prank. I have a family that is in trouble because I recklessly decided to get myself killed. father sold his car; mom sold her ring. yet it did not pay for a quarter of the college loan that I wasted by not studying. My brother was scolded for my mistakes. Our house was the collateral. they will have to move to rent. Father retires in 18 months without pension and my brother is three years away from his first interview.

"Unfortunately rent will increase by 15 percent next year, is what my future prediction ability tells me” He wasn’t even pretending to be sad.

“Get to the point, what do you want me to do” he would not even let me remember it unless he wants something done from me.

“I didn’t I say already I want to give you a chance to fix your mistakes”

“I don’t care about another world while my family suffers in this one.” What does he want? What is he testing? My anger? My potential? My commitment?

“I can make adjustments so that your brother gets to finish college. And your family does not collapse.” But…. “But in return, I want you to go on a journey”

“And do what?” seems like I never had the choice.

“And save the world” he smiled like a goddess. With arms and eyes wide open. As much as I want to comment on his absurd behaviour this was my salvation. A final chance to fix all my mistakes and be proud of the life I lived before I am eventually reduced to nothing.

The first requirement is information “what do you mean by saving the world, is it a demon king? A natural calamity? A great famine? An alien invasion?”

“Your mind wanders too far child; this world does not deviate far from the fantasy you read. I want to discover what it means by saving the world.” So that means a Demon king. “Now let’s begin your journey”

“wait” he started walking ahead. I followed him, calling him out “I’ve never lived a village life, how will I survive.

He stopped, looked ahead and turned to me “perseverance is the best teacher.”

His smile, if perhaps its kindness has seduced many women but I see a hint of mischief. I looked ahead and then below. The cloudy platform ends below I can see vast expanse of uneven green grass.

Fear filled my heart and likely clouds my face as well. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to. At least a teleportation spell. I can’t run, and he knows that. His smile was now more akin to a maou than a goddess.

He tapped my chest. But it was nothing short of an almighty push.

“AAaaaaaaaa.......arRGgaaa…….yYouu AssssHhoOOLe” will every episode of mine end with falling?

“I will give you a time limit of eighteen months and 13 days that is until your father’s retirement., save the otherworld and your mother will see a miracle If you fail, I will make sure that your family will have no place even the streets.” Such words echoed in my mind.